..uhh Basically what I go through and feel like sometimes. In my head . Anyway here's the newest chapter ! ... Worthless..also Heizou angst
⚠️TW ⚠️ inculcate of Transphobic
Yelling for getting bad grades starving self. Intrusive thoughts
[Recap of what happens ]
"What the  fuck happened to the school its on fire - oh yeah we burned it down shit why do we have to go to another school but at least we're at the same school?" We got so tired that we fell asleep next to each other
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Heizou P.O.V:
"Nah why do you always listen to music when we're in clsss Heiz.." Wander asked him
"I have no idea what your talking about Wanderer like what I would never  listen to music in class only at lunch ." The velvet red said to him
"hey why are we here again .?" Klee asked
"We got into a fight with another kid .." Sayu says
"But it wasn't our fault  she started it first ." Diona said angrily and crumbled as paper she made for her friend Chloe yet She didn't like it at all
"...Yeah that's true ." QiQi said
"What do we tell Nahida ?"
Sayu says looking at Layla for help
"I don't fucking know .."
Klee said rolling her eyes then flipping through her notebook for the second time she wanted to find the cat picture
"Maybe we should just tell her that we got into a fight and she'll understand?" Heizou
"Guys why the fuck are you doing in the office ..." Dori asked as she walked in with Layla who looked irritated
"Uhhh we got into a fight..-" Heizou
"We were singing and the teacher got mad at us so Klee threw bombs at the teacher .." Qiqi said
"WHAT?? WITHOUT US?!" Dori said
"Sorry you guys were in class and we didn't wanna disturb you guys ..." Dions said
"You guys don't have to feel like a burden at all .." Layla said.

"We don't feel like a burden we just don't wanna do Boring things like you do .."
Heizou said
"Nah he's speaking facts I mean like why so we have to do work today,we have art together hope Makoto
isn't here ." Wander said .
"Scaredy b_tch.." Heizou said rolling his eyes
"Nah they're seriously fighting .."
Dori said
"Nah they're being stupid ..."
Nahida  pointed out
"Aye we don't do that it isn't nice !!"
Layla says
"...." I ran out of the classroom tears fall down my face I ran as fast as my legs could take me .. I froze and realised I was home . The. One thing I feel unsafe in .. " Shit I hope they don't ask about my test .. they're going to be so mad when they find out I got something below an A+ ... " I muttered quietly I walked in opening the door then closing it behind me quietly I put my backpack down sighed My ''mother'' looked at me in annoyance "Oh...[Dead Name] I thought you be coming home later .. it's still early go back to school if you don't have anything to say you brat .." My mother said to me I wanted to go out of existence right now but I couldn't "...Yes mother .." I muttered but froze as I felt my face sting
"You do not get to call me mother !!" She yells at me slapped my face hard "Now where the hell is your report card [DEAD NAME] she yelled again at me "right here mother.." I said
"WHAT WAS THAT I COULDN'T HEAR YOU SPEAK UP !!" she shouted at me it was getting annoying I handed her my report card then ran out of there with my back pack back to school I ran as fast as I could it was a 34% my report card not 100% just 34% got lots so stuff wrong but that's not my fault .. I was too busy with my thoughts I bumped into Someone "Heiz Watch where your walking Kid.." Wanderer said taking my hand pulling me up to my feet "sorry about that, I didn't mean to bump into you Wanderer.." I stammered in shame .." Hey it's alright you don't need to feel like it's your fault.." He said patting me on the head "why did you skip school Heizou ..." Wanderer asked I froze then looked away avoiding his gaze on me "...Tsk whatever come on I'll get you a snack to eat since you were complaining the entire tIme yesterday.." He said taking my hand as we walked off to a small cafe got inside the cafe Saw Kokomi
He sat me down then sat beside me ordering food for the Both of us
"Uhh.... Can I just get the
caesar salad with Water Wanderer.."

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I muttered quietly to be honest I don't quite like how my body looks at all I hate how it is it's so gross why can't I just have a different body.. but I mean I tried to starve myself for quite some time yet it never seems to work since my parents just force me to eat food then say that im gained way to much weight that I should just lose a lot of weight one make up your fucking mind im not just be okay when you say this I'll be insecure about myself but i guess it's always been like that I feel like I should just come out and say my gender and pronouns to My parents .. I hope they'll accept me for me ..... but they're probably won't do that at all I'm just an idiot with a painted face can't put a different emotion at all it's like it's stuck as a fake smile warm .. I despise myself.. I can't think straight why don't I just give up ..why can't I do the things that .. I normally do anymore !! This isn't great at all no one will surly support me for being Trans !! Gunn this is so difficult why so I have to fell like I'm a waste of time space ,that I'm worthless no one cares about me ...
No stop thinking like that
But it's true and you know it is so face it You'll just be a worthless person
what.? no that's not true ... Help..?
Your all alone now So stop being so useless for once and be more important for once all you care about is yourself these days
NO!! Shut up your not real you may be a voice in my head but you can't tell me to quit what I'm doing !!!
____________________________________________________I blinked twice then looked at Wanderer seeing him eat I ate my food as well I took wanderer out after walking towards the school I slept on ground with Wanderer next to me .