Y/n's pov

We some how managed to get back on our feet and hire a taxi to take us home.

We don't talk when we get home, I hardly even move at all from the door way.

"I-I gotta find Charlie," Leo says walking out of the door.

I ring Zachery.

"Hey, umm wanna put the song together," I sniff.

"On my way," he says then hangs up.

I make myself a tea then sit and wait.

Soon there's knocks at the door.

"Hey," I say.

"Hi, oh my are you ok?!" He asks.

"No, my kid just died," I say falling into his arms.

"Shhh, shhh, it's ok, god will have his reasons," Zachery says holding me and the thing is I stopped believing in god after dad left but there's still something comforting about god.

"Ok, you're here to make me smile so go off and write a hit," I say wiping my tears and pushing him into the living room.

I watch as he hums tunes. Suddenly he starts singing.

I look up from some new lyrics I'm putting together he looks at me and laughs.

"What?" I say.

"Nothing, it's just I can't sing when you look at me," he says.

"I'm your manager get used to it," I say and he starts to sing again looking at the floor.

"Aye eyes up on this mess," I say pointing to me.

"You're not a mess," he says.

"Wanna bet," I say.

He laughs a little them starts singing looking at me but laughs again.

"Aha," I say waiting for him to sing again and with that he does.

I randomly start singing with him and he stops.

"You've got an amazing voice," he says.

"Nah it's like a dying rat," I say.

"No way!" He says and we both start singing again.

Zachery stands up and opens the fridge.

"Aye, since when was this your house?" I scoff.

He just smirks at me then spits on the floor.

"Oh ok, then!" I say spitting on the ground too.

"Now that's not lady like," he jokes.

"Bish my house my rules," I say.

"Haha fine then," he says spitting again.

"That ain't in the rules," I say.

"Oh is this?" He says pushing magazines off the tabel.

"No," I say glaring at him.

"Is this?" He laughs pouring my glass of water from this morning on the ground.

"No!" I say glaring even more at him but then bursting into laughter.

"How about this?" He says walking over to me then suddenly his lips touch mine, he pushes up against the wall and starts taking off his top, I slowly move my hands down to his abs, his fingers run through my hair.

I realize while I'm doing this that I wish it was Leo.

Suddenly I pull away. I fix my hair, grab my phone, some money and run out of the apartment.

I just run and keep running. I run until I find a lane and collapse onto the ground I turn and see a women smoking next to me.

"Want one?" She asks handing one over to me, I take it and don't say a word.

It makes me cough.

"You ok?" She asks.

"Yeah," I say and keep smoking.

I suddenly see Leo and Charlie walking past I try to hide my face.

"Y/n?" Leo whispers.

"Get away from me!" I say taking another smoke then standing up to run but Leo grabs my arm.

Leos pov.

"What have I done?" I ask looking in her eyes.

"Not you, me," she says going for another smoke but I grab it from her.

"The deaf of our child isn't your fault " I assure her.

"I know but making out with another dude just then is!" She says tears pouring down her face. I let go of her.

She runs off into the distance. I throw my ring onto the ground then stomp off  away from Charlie down the streets.

Suddenly I see a girl walk past me.

"Hey girly," I say.

"Hey," she says.

"Wanna be my cinderella?" I ask her.

"Haha bye," she says.

"But you're like beautiful and nice and everything," I say jogging over to her.

She looks at me. I get onto my knees.

"I'm begging ya," I plead.

"Well I've never had a man on his knees begging for me, it's sure nice," she says.

"So?" I ask and she starts walking away.

"HEY UM EVERYONE SEE THAT GIRL OVER THERE YEAH WELL YOU SEE I BELIVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT AND IT SEEMS SHE DOESNT SO PLEASE SHOUT OUT LOVE IF YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT!" I scream out and suddenly people all around me start chanting.

I go over to the girl and lean on one knee.

"May I have your name?" I ask.

"Marsha," she whispers.

"Phone number?" I ask.

"Well you've just embarrassed me in front of most of Liverpool," she giggles.

"Come on that deserves a number," I say.

"GIVE IT TO HIM!" Someone yells from the crowd, a smile appears on her face she walks off yelling her digits.

I only talked to her because I wanted like a fling. But I really like her. Some reason I'm not missing y/n.

Y/n's pov.

I add to a crowd only to see Leo talking to a girl, he must be waning to make me jelouse. But why? I screwed up.

A tear rolls down my face and I walk back into the packed streets of Liverpool.

I've lost Jayden, Jay, dad, Leo, mum.
Some by deaf and some emotionally.

But either way all that matters to me isn't mine no longer.

A car drives past. I walk in front of it. No thinking has to be done. I'm sick of thinking.