I don't want to be myself anymore
I don't want to wake up and think I'd prefer it if I didn't
I don't want to get downstairs and already be out of energy
I don't want to have to sit in the same chair for 8 hours and listen to people talk about things I don't want to know about
I don't want to have to pretend that I'm okay
I don't want to pretend I like certain people I hate
I don't want to be forced to be a perfect student
I don't want to live

I just want to be with someone
I want to be able to hold the person whenever
And shower them in affection because that's what I need
I need someone to love
I need affection
I need to be able to love being alive again
I need someone

But you already have your someone
you have your person to love
your person to keep you alive
and your someone who is better than me

God, what I'd give to be them