{73 Call from Namjoon

Your POV

When you enter your apartment you sink down on the couch, what were you going to do now? You felt horrible after losing your job. When you applied you knew there was a risk. Why hadn't you listened to Yoongi why had it to be BigHit of all places? You shook your head trying to also shake off the thoughts, you needed a distraction. Tempted you looked over at the fridge where you knew a cold bottle of wine was, but you knew you couldn't Yoongi probably went back to BigHit and you didn't want to get him drunk. Besides drinking to get rid of your problems wasn't going to do anything good anyway. Your friends are both still at work, still, you knew if you'd tell them what happened they would come over as soon as possible and comfort you but, you also knew they would ask questions. Questions you didn't want to answer right now, you wanted to be alone. You got up from the couch and sighed, maybe a long hot shower would calm you down? At least it would wash off all the tears you'd cried. You grabbed some comfortable clean clothes from the closet and went to the bathroom. 

The warm water had made you feel a little bit better, the tears were washed away and even though you still didn't feel good, it didn't feel like the world was going to end anymore. You just weren't sure where to go from here. Your internship was gone and you needed to talk to the University about what happened but what exactly where you going to tell them? You couldn't tell them the truth, besides why would they believe you when the CEO also hadn't. What were you going to do? You sighed again, throwing the towel in your laundry basket and plopping down on the couch. Later, you would think about it later. Now you just didn't want to think about it anymore, it wasn't going to change anything anyway. You turned on your laptop and put on a movie to distract yourself. It wasn't long after when you felt something, Yoongi. His emotions were all over the place, you felt his anger, sadness, confusion, everything, you sat up a little bit more straight. Did this mean he found out something? You grabbed your phone and sent him a message, but he didn't respond. He probably still was in an important conversation and you decided to just wait until he would come over tonight. You lay down on the couch and continued to watch the movie, it wasn't long after when Yoongi's emotion subsided and you thought he was going to be alright. 

When you woke up it was already dark outside, you must have fallen asleep at some point during the movie. It wasn't so strange everything that happened it had made you feel extremely tired. You grabbed your phone to look at the time and your eyes widened when you saw it already 8 pm you slept for hours. You unlocked your phone and curiously looked at the messages there were a few from some group chats but you scrolled past them but disappointed looked at the screen when you saw there was nothing from Yoongi. He said he was coming by tonight as soon as he knew something, but it was already 8 pm, he could have at least sent a message, right? Then you notice that you also had some messaged from BTS's their group chat, you open it curiously. Scrolling through the messages your worry grows, apparently, no one had seen Yoongi since this morning. The last message was sent at 5 pm, there was a chance they met afterward and everything was fine, but something told everything was not fine. Maybe it was your gut feeling or the fact that you didn't feel anything. If Yoongi found out what happened when you would have felt his emotions and you should feel something right now right, happiness if it was good news, sadness, or worry when it was bad but there wasn't anything. Just a whole lot of nothing. You tried calling Yoongi but to no avail, it went straight to voicemail, his phone must be off. 

You put your phone down and contemplated what to do. You could call your friends but still weren't ready for their questions. Besides, it wasn't going to bring you any answers about what happened. There was another option, you did have all the other members' phone numbers, but besides the one time you met, you never really talked to them. Gathering all your courage you opened a chat with Namjoon and sent him a message, just him. He was the leader after all if anyone knew what was going on it was going to be him. It isn't long before you get a reply. 

Namjoon: He isn't with you?

What? Does he think that he is with you? Why would he think that?

You: No, I think he went back to BigHit. You haven't seen him?

You stare at your phone waiting for a reply when suddenly your phone starts ringing. For a moment you hope it's Yoongi but your heart starts racing even faster when you see it's Namjoon who is calling you. You never talked to him on the phone. 

''h- Hello?'' You awkwardly ask, it one thing to talk to Yoongi on the phone, but something completely different to talk to Namjoon. You know Yoongi you don't know Namjoon and even though you are soulmates with Yoongi and with everything that has been going on your inner fangirl still makes your heart beat just a little bit faster. 

''Y/N?'' Namjoon asks, ''I'm so sorry about what happened, I heard it through some staff. They also told me that apparently someone saw Yoongi running out soon after. It caused quite some stir around the staff, but well we know what the connection  is between the two of you and we assumed he was with you and covered for him with the staff.''

''He isn't with me, anymore.'' You replied, ''He did find me and brought me home but he left soon after telling he was going to find out what exactly happened and how BigHit found out about us.''

It was silent for a moment at the other end of the line. 

''They found out?'' Namjoon asked in a weak worried voice. 

''Yeah,'' You tried to stay calm but just the worry that was evident in Namjoon's voice made you feel stressed again, ''The Ceo and the head editor called me in today, apparently, someone who knew about us told them. That's why they fired me.''

''Oh no,'' Namjoon sounded generally shocked, ''I'm so sorry, you didn't deserve that.''

''It's okay,'' You sighed, '' I knew it was a risk.''

''Still,'' Namjoon replied, ''But if Yoongi isn't with you where is he?''

''I don't know,'' You replied and are again reminded of the emptiness you have been feeling, you hadn't felt any emotion since this morning which was strange with everything that was happening, ''I am worried though, usually I can feel his emotions but there is nothing. It's so weird with everything that has been going on.'

''Hmm,'' Namjoon replied, ''I will check if he is at home and call you back, okay?''

''Okay,'' You replied nodding your head even though he wouldn't be able to see that. 

''Talk to you later,'' Namjoon hung up the phone. 

You stood up from the couch if he wasn't at BigHit why hadn't he come over as he had promised you? Had something serious happened? No, it couldn't be you would have felt that or was it that something is wrong with the soulmate bomb? No, No, that couldn't be, right? Nervously you walked back and forth in your apartment. Now that you know that he isn't at BigHit anymore the lack of emotion worries you. Not so long ago you had seen firsthand that his emotions weren't always stable and you had talked him through an anxiety attack. You had felt everything so immensely strong you had escaped to the bathroom yourself, now you just felt nothing. IT was a really strange feeling. 

You almost jumped when your phone rang again and practically jumped on it. Again hoping it was Yoongi, but this time you weren't surprised to see it was Namjoon who was calling you back. 

''Y/N?'' Namjoon's voice sounds worried, ''Do you think it would be possible for you to come to our dorm?''

''What? Why?'' You curiously asked, what had happened? Was something wrong with Yoongi? 'Is something wrong?''

''I'm not sure,'' Namjoon responded in a soft voice, ''We found Yoongi, he is curled up on his bed and doesn't want to talk to anyone. Saying something about that we will hear everything soon anyway. I have no idea what he is talking about. I'm worried y/n I have never seen him like this.''

''I- I- uh,''  You weren't sure what to say, was he having another anxiety attack? If so why wasn't I feeling anything? ''Uh, Sure I can come over.''

''I will send a driver to you your house,'' Namjoon says and you hear him typing something on his phone, ''He will be there in 10 min, please be ready when he arrives.''

''I will,'' I said determinedly.

''I'm worried about him Y/n,'' Namjoon said in a low soft voice filled with emotion, ''I've seen him at low points, but never like this.''

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I'm sorry for yet another cliffhanger!

I also again sincerely apologize for the last chapter, everyone in the comment section was so shocked by everything that happened. It was really interesting to read that everyone was soo shocked I had already planned this since the beginning and didn't expect this strong of a reaction! I want to say everything is going to be okay, but I can't. You will have to read on to find out what happens. 

lately, I haven't really been feeling so well, I already had some struggles with myself before the coronavirus outbreak but ar least then I had things to distract myself with. Now I spent most of my time with myself and everything just kind of comes crashing into me. I really find it hard to find anything these days. Including fanfiction, I will try my best to keep up with my regular schedule but I am really struggling to get updates out on time these days. This is also the reason I haven't really responded to any comments or messages I'm sorry. I just hope everything will be over soon and I will feel better and more motivated in life. 

Random character fact: 

Whenever you feel down your friends are always there for you Haneuls emotionally supports you and hugs you until you feel better and Jieun cracks some joke to make you smile again and then tell you how beautiful you and your smile are.