Nightmares and Suicide

Again screams filled the dark he suddenly floated in, after he closed his eyes. "It's your fault!" "Why are you the only one?"
Shots broke through the voices, screams rose again.
'No!', Kiste screamed internally. Why does he have such nightmares? He never did something wrong!
"Why....?", he then dared to ask into the dark.
"You are the one who killed us!" Instead of an answer another scream shouted through the black void.

When he thought the screams would reach out to him, pulling him deeper into the darknes, a warm feeling suddenly overcame him. When he didn't hallucinate, then someone had layed a hand on his shoulder. But when he looked back, he couldn't see anyone. Nonetheless the warmth didn't disappear. It even grew with every second. And then, the screams vanished into nothing. Silence took over again and Kise breathed out in relieve.

"Thanks", it slipped from his lips even when he didn't know who he was thanking when no one was there. But he surely felt it - the presence of six people around him. Six people who would never let him alone. "I am sorry...", he then whispered. Why? Because he just felt like he should.

"YOSHI!" The screaming voice of his brother pulled him out of his nightmare. "Tsuna?", he asked confused, looking at his brother puzzeled. "We are too late!", Tsuna just answered. "What?" Kise couldn't belive what he was saying. Again? How could this be. Twice in a row?
"I'm sorry. You can go first. I will be right behind you." He then jumped out of his bed and walked into the bathroom. "What's going on with him lately?", Tsuna wondered and also questioned why Reborn didn't woke him up, like he did with him. And how was he able to not hear his scream, when Reborn hit him with a ten-ton-hammer this morning?

Regardless that Kise said he should go, he waited for him. "Now we both will be too late", Kiseyoshi just said but smiled. "You have five minutes left. If you run, you will make it just in time." No other than Reborn could have made such a suggestion. "Run?" Tsuna hesitated. "Yes, run!" With that, Reborn took out his Leon-gun and pointed it at Tsunas head. "Hiiie, I... I will run!" And there he went...
Kise gave Reborn an amused look, before he also sprinted after his brother, before Reborn could shot him as well.

This day was just as every other school day - boring... Till some students suddenly rose from their chairs, hatching to the windows and looking out in agitatment. Kise, who sat on the window anyway, froze when he saw, what was going on. Fear overtook him when he too jumped up from his chair. He again, felt the warmth around him, trying to calm him down. But this time he didn't care about that and left the class in haste. He barely recognized his brother following him.

When he arrived at the rooftop he stopped in front of the crowed students.

"If you came to stop me it's no use!" Yamamoto's voice reached his eyes, but he wasn't talking to him, it was his brother he had reached out to. Again it felt strange for him. Why is it Tsuna who is standing there and not him? "You should be able to understand my feelings. For someone who's always called Dame-Tsuna all the time." "What are you talking about?", Tsuna asked and feared for what might could happen next. "It's enough. I can't do anything than playing baseball and now I am not even able to do that anymore." Yamamoto's explanation might sounded unrealistic to some people, but Tsuna and even Kise could understand in some way. "B... but", Tsuna hesitated. "What about your father?" This idea just popped out in his mind, but it seemed he hit a spot. "You can't just leave him behind. Neither me or the others! It's not true that you are not good in anything else than baseball!" In the end, Tsuna almost screamed, not knowing what he was saying anymore. But it worked! Yamamoto suddenly hesitated. "I... I am sorry... I..." Tsuna suddenly realized what he was saying and stepped back, trying to flee. "Wait! Tsuna!" Not knowing what he was doing, Yamamoto grabbed Tsunas shirt and pulled him back. Unfortunately the fence cracked and both lost their balance. "Hieee!", Tsuna screamed when he fell. "TSUNA!" Kise, who had just stayed there, sprinted forward and tried to grab his brothers hand. He barely managed to catch his wrist, but he had overrated himself and was also pulled down.
"Damn!", he cursed and tried to stop his falling, but the gravity didn't mean it well with him.
A shot reached his ears. "REEEBOOORN!" His brothers voice sounded strange but also familiar, when he suddenly screamed out. Then he was grabbed by his hand. Yamamoto as well and then, they landed safely on the ground. "Woah..." It was Yamamoto who spoke first. "That... How?" He couldn't find any words to this. "Juuudaimee!" Another teen screamed over the schoolyard. Gokudera finally found them and glared to the baseball freak for dragging his sky into such a dangerous situation.

Kise paid no attention at all. He just stood there and tried to calm himself down. "Yoshi, are you all right?" Tsunas voice pulled bim out of his thoughts. "Y...yea... that's to you..." With that he left. "Y...yoshi?", Tsuna called after him and when Kise didn't react, he wanted to go after him, but Gokudera hold him off. "I think it's better to let him alone for now..." "Y...yea..."

First Gokudera and now Yamamoto? And what were these flames that appeared on Tsunas forehand just now? So many questions floated in his head but on the same time he somehow knew the answers. "That can't be...", he decided when the word Mafia popped up in his head. What should have his brother to do with the mafia? It sounded strange to him. But not because it was strange that a teen was dragged into the mafia, because he felt like he should have been the one! But why he of all persons? He just couldn't understand at all. Nor his feelings or the things that were going on since a few days. "Will I find the answer when I search for it?"

~ * ~

That night was a peacefull night and Kiseyoshi finally got his rightful sleep. Unfortunately an explosion woke him up. He sighed when he stand up. "Why Reborn?", he questioned and yawned. But when his door suddenly was slammed open from a little child, he realized that this time it wasn't Reborn. "Long time no see Reborn! It's me Lambo!" Kise blinked at that. In his door was standing a kid in a cow suit, pointing at him with a grenade in his hand. "Are? Where's this Reborn?" The kid, Lambo, looked confused and searched for the suited infant.
"Yoshi?" Tsuna appeared in his doorframe. When he spotted the child to his feet, he quickly grabbed him and dragged him away. "Whaa! Lambo got kidnapped!!", the child cryed when Tsuna sat him down on his bead. "Kupiaaa!" And with this, he suddenly pulled the 10-year bazooka out of his afro. "Woha, what-?" Before Tsuna could finish his question, the cow kid pulled the trigger and shot himself.

Pink smoke appeared letting Tsuna cough. "Yara, yare..." A bored sounding voice rose out of the smoke. Then, a 15-year old teen could be seen. "Who... who are you??" Tsuna's jaw dropped when he saw the man in a suit looking nothing like his 5-year-old self anymore. "The 10-year bazooka", Reborn tried to explain not slightly amazed by the child's actions. He rather was bored.

"Long time no see, young Vongola", the teen greeted him, as if it was totally normal. "This person... what?" Tsuna barely managed to not freak out. "Thank you for taking care of me ten years ago. I am Lambo", the black-haired reintroduced himself. "Wha... Say what?" Then Reborn began to explain the use of the ten-year bazooka.

"Hey, Reborn. I changed, didn't I? I'm Lambo, the one you kept ignoring", Lambo tried to catch the infants interest. But just like his younger self, he also got ignored. "Gees. Seems like I have to show you how good I became after all these years!" And with this he took his horns out and attacked the baby with one million volt. Unfortunately his attack was blocked with a simple fork.

Silence hit the room. "Must... to..le..rate...!" But just after Lambo spoke these words, he started to cry. "Hey, Tsu-" Kiseyoshi, who just was about to enter and wanted to ask, what was going on, was cut off from a loud whine. Then Lambo rushed right into him. Together they fell to the ground, while Lambo was trying to hide behind Kise's back.

"Holy... what's going on? Who..." -is this?, he wanted to ask but couldn't bring it out. Instead, he looked at the adult child and tried to figure it out by himself.
"Wahaa! Kiseee, Reborn hurted me!", Lambo cryed even louder.
"Wait... y...you know Yoshi?" Tsuna couldn't belive that. On the day Reborn told him about him being the next leader of Vongola, he sweared that he would never drag Kise into that!

Before Lambo could answer, Kise turned to him and stroked the crybaby's head. "There, there, don't cry." Although it wasn't much, it worked. 'Interesting' Reborn smirked. Before anybody could say something, a 'puff' was heard and Lambo turned into a kid again. "Gyahahahaha!"
Lambo returned with a loud laughter. But he stopped when he realized that he was back. "Gees..." Fastly he crossed his arms and turned away insulted. "You okey Lambo? I am sorry", Tsuna apologized and leaned down to him. "Hmpf. I will forgive you, but only because Kise-nii told me so!" "Hm?" Puzzeld Tsunal looked at his brother who never said anything to the kid Lambo. But to his unfortuanate he just shrugged. So, he will be with us in the future too... Close I would assume..., Reborn thought and smirked. Maybe the stupid child was usefull for once.

~ * ~

"Yo Tsuna, Kise!", Yamamoto greeted them."Good Morning Yamamoto", Tsuna replied. "Morning..." Kise let out a loud yawn. "You okey?", Yamamoto asked worried and looked at the teen with questioned eyes. "Yea... only tired..." With that the topic was closed. Kise hadn't the urge to talk about his sleeping issues any further. Once again nightmares didn't let him sleep, although he thought that this would be over from now on. But it seems like he put his hopes too high. Even the comftable and calming warmth was gone since this morning. And even tough he didn't know where it came from or what it was, he missed it a lot. Now his inner trembling was back and he didn't know how to deal with it.

"SAWADA!" A scream let Kise flinch and got him out of his thoughts. "Extreeeeme! Join the boxing club!" A white haired boy stopped infront of them. "Wh... what?", Tsuna mumbled and blinked in confusement. "Join the Boxing club!", he repeated and tried to grabb Tsunas hand to take him along. "Ah...wai....wait!" Before anything other could happen, Reborn appeared out of nowhere. "Why not Tsuna?" "What?" Everyone was stunned for a second. "You really mean it", Yamamoto figured. "Of course!" Then Reborn turned to the white-haired teen. "How about a match after school today?", he suggested. "OOH! That would be extreme!" And with that the topic was closed. The teen went away satisfied and Tsuna looked at his back in fear. Kise on the other hand couldn't belive what he heard just now. Why Tsuna?, it echoed through his head. Quickly he shok his head. How could he even think about that? It wasn't like he wanted to protect him, he was... jealous of him...? "I should rather be proud!", he whispered to himself, hoping that noone had heard him. To his unfortunate a certain infant was more than aware of his words but couldn't make a rhyme out of them.

After school, they met in the gym. "EXTREEMEE!" The white-haired guy was hyped for the fight, Tsuna on the other hand was stunned in fear. What the hell was he doing here?
His two friends Yamamoto and Gokudra were watching from the side. Kise stood aside, near the door. He didn't feel like watching, even if he wished his brother good luck before. Nonetheless he stayed and witnessed how Reborn suddenly appeared. Clothed with an elephant hat and boxing gloves. "Ooh! Pao-Sensei!" "Ciaossu!", he greeted. Then he started the battle.
A shot fell shortly after it started. Kise flinched, then he fastly turned around, heading to the exit. "REBOOOORN!" He clearly heared his brothers voice in his back, but didn't dare to look back. Even so he knew what happened... And he just couldn't bear watching the fight any further. Why? He didn't know. He just wanted to flee...

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