Few weeks later

He walked on the bridge and kicked the stones when his dad said something

"Dad I don't want to" he whined wanting through the phone in the water.

"When you will listen to me?" The old man said and chuckled

" Dad I will recover and I'm improving. Going abroad won't help either" he said and closed his eyes as he lied

"Fine fine I will give you one more time after all from last years I'm doing same thing" he said while Jin bit his lips

"By the way how Soo Ah and Won shik are doing?" He asked and coughed

"They are doing great and are you taking your medicines on time right?" He asked being concern.

"Yeah yeah I'm-" he said and coughed again

He bit his lips and said " Dad I Will talk to you later"

He sighed and hung up
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I walked on the bridge kicking stones. I'm doing better really. I have appointment twice in a week with Jisoo. She understands me. She knows me too well now. Soo Ah is also working hard on me. Everyday. I don't want to disappoint both of them. I'm trying my best. I always say I'm feeling better because I care for their feelings but nothing changed from inside it's all the same.

I cannot cry. My eyes cannot shed a single tear after that day. I do feel like breaking from inside and outside. I close my eyes and pray whosoever is listening up there buy it and let me go and they do. It's so easy to pretend. The only thing is that I'm only ok from outside.

I closed my eyes I can't even remember what was the last time I was happy, I had peace with myself. Was able to smile.

I recieved a message from Won Shik
"Jin where are you?? Are you ok?"

I smirked helplessly how easily he gets sacred when he doesn't see me for more than 2 hours. How that incident still runs through his mind.

"I'm ok" I replied and walked back to company

"Won shik stop asking me the same question. I'm tierd of lying"

~~~

"Has subconscious mind"

"Is emotionally numb to sensation"

"And depressed"

Jisso said while Vedika listens carefully. Jisso casually hands the file to Vedika. She observers every line carefully.

"Oh my god! It's just from outside" Vedika exclaimed

"Just what kind of storm must be going inside"

"I guess it must be a silent screams" Jisso said softly

"His case is very different Vedika"

"Why so? Aren't all depression suffering people are like this?" Vedika asked

"They are but something is different. His eyes. There are so many things behind them"

"Depression is just like boomerang once you finally throw it and receive true happiness it will come back to you but this time even worse."

" The hell is her psychiatrist was doing all the time. His stage is not ok" Vedika said

"Did he ever try to attempt suicide?"

"I don't think so if he did he must have told me" she said and wondered something

"Does he have appointments today?"

"Yes he must be on his way"

*****

A silence creeps over them. At a time he thinks something but hesitates hearing the word that incident instantly came to his mind. For him it was painful. She looked at him with keeness in her eyes. He licked his dried lips and said

"No"

"Are you sure?" She said knitting her eyebrows

It instigate to happen. Those beads rolled down his head. His palms felt sweaty for some reasons. This was thing he never expected to face here. The picture from the past attacked him one by one. He sank deeper into thoughts. The person infront of him saw his nature changing. His chest rises and falls unknownly. He again came back in reality and said

"No I didn't attempt" he said wiping off his sweat beads. Rubbing his sweaty palms. Not because it was hot because he was nervous.

Jisso stares at him being doubtful. His heavy breaths. His blinking eyes was all she can sense right now.

The best thing she decided was to change topic. She looked at him who still was deep in thoughts and it would be worse if his profundity of his thoughts gets intense.

"Umm so what do you do for living?" Shs asked smiling

This question again pushed him in circles of nervousness but then he remembers won shik and said quickly

"Airsoft, I work at Airsoft company with my friend Won shik" Jisso chuckled at his behaviour and said

"Tell me about your friend"

"I have only one friend and that is Won shik" he said

"He understands me than others. He is trustworthy." He said and little did she know that where this conversation will lead to.

"Instead of throwing me in a mental institution like others he understood my pain. Everyone was arguing to throw me there but he didn't let them"

"Actually I don't give a shit whatever you are doing to me after all I can't feel it maybe I will but I won't show"

"The only reason I'm scared to go to a mental institution is my dad. I won't be able to see him for how long you planned to keep me there. He is my everything" Jin said and closed his eyes brokenly

"Won Shik is trustworthy but not everyone is"

"You are wrong the only way to know that a person is trustworthy is to trust the person" she said indicating her

"By the way when these things started why didn't you tell your parents?" She asked him

He inhaled some air looking up before answering "I don't deserve to be called a son. I really feel ashamed saying this but I lost my mom at very young age and her death is still a mystery to me. I don't know the cause of her death"

Jisoo gets back and straight herself. There are so many things that needs to be unfold. Something needs to unfurl itself maybe he needs to unfurl himself. Instead of asking what happened to his mother she choose to ask "what about your dad?"

He scoffed weakly and said " I cannot, I just can't"

" I only-y hav-v-ve dad telling him what I feel is scariest. He is my dad not a stupid stranger that won't understand me. How can a son tell his dad that faced sucidical problems. "

"How his dad will feel? Will he be happy?? Or proud?? Ofcourse not he will be shameful that he was not able to make his son happy but I don't blame him he gave me everything but my stupid brain was not able to utilise and didn't let my heart gain a state of blissfulness" he said while she stared at him.

He looked at her for an answer but she said " I won't give you answer to this question right now. I want to know more about you Mr heartless" she said smiled beautifully. Her stared at pleasuring face and that alluring smile which satisfies every person on this planet

"You seem to be too strong but you are not how you control yourself" she said

"I have a depressive shield which doesn't allow my screams to go outside" he said

"It maynot let your screams to go outside but it won't also let love come inside" she replied and started at him

"Exactly"

"Just like Your smile radiates too much happiness but that wall of mine doesn't let in"

Hey guys hope you know Jin's character better. Jinsoo moments will be there in upcoming chapters.

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