olivia tried calling jordyn the night she found out she was back with her ex but it went to voicemail. Jordyn never called olivia back and Olivia knew it was understandable but still stung inside a bit. since then jordyn and jacob have been back together for a month now. olivia hadn't said anything but she was finishing her song about jorydn and jordyn often had olivia in the back of her mind. it was something about olivia that she couldn't shake, she made her feel differently, she usually never got attached to people like that. Jordyn missed jacob she rlly did but it just wasn't until she had him back that everything had changed, when she would kiss him back it always felt like she was lying to him. she wanted to to tell him how she felt, she loved the idea of them being back together but everything had changed, and he was so hopeful they would work and jorydn couldn't blame him for wanting to make things work cuz jordyns feelings had basically changed overnight.

truth was their best years were already behind them and their light had burned out. jordyn had been thinking of every way she could give it a try with Olivia, an unhealthy amount of time she thought about it. meanwhile she was still with jacob someone she has been lying to, someone she wanted to let go of but could muster up the courage to finally do it. she said whatever he wanted to hear because she was was too scared to hurt him the way he had hurt her. she used to follow her gut, used to take advice from her brother but lately she hasn't been herself didn't listen to anyone she used to and that resulted in her shoving a lot a lot of emotions down. Partying got worse but her tru friends like hailey and kendall could see right through jordyn she was just getting high to rid her emotions

at the moment jordyn was at kendall's house with hailey they were all cooking having a good time for girls night.

hailey: oh guys justin got u guys tickets for his concert in two weeks
jordyn: finally damn not like he's my brother
kendall: bitch u knew he was gonna get to it
hailey: kenny you need a plus one?

hailey raised an eyebrow and kenny as she almost choked on her drink

Jordyn: bad bunnyyyyy
hailey: benitoooo
kendall: u guys r-... annoying what abt u jordyn u taking jake
hailey: oop actually yeah r u taking him? i don't even know
Jordyn: uhh idk.... i kinda don't want to

*silence hailey and kendall look at eachother*

hailey: ok yea what happened?

jordyn looked in between hailey and kendall as they both waited for jordyns response. they both tried to read their best friends facial expression and they kind of could

hailey: what did he do
kendall: did he fuck up again

jordyn pushed her lips together as she struggled to find the words to say

Jordyn: so basically i just- i don't think i love him anymore well....i actually don't know that's a broad statement i just i don't know how i feel abt our relationship is so... broken
hailey: shut up you were with him for three years tho
Kendall: how do u just stop loving someone

they both looked confused until something click in hailey's brain as she screamed and did a little lap around the kitchen

hailey: SHUT UP I KNOW WHAT HAPPENED
Kendal: what! what? tell me right now jordyn

jordyn just laughed

jordyn: i wanna know what this dumbass thinks cuz i haven't even said anything
hailey: that girl u we're hooking up with-! jordyn... that's exactly what changed 
Kendall: oh yeahhh... u still never told me who she was dude
Jordyn: hailey shut up don't say it
kendall: not fair just say it guys i wanna know
hailey: olivia rodrigo
kendall: oh my god i know her... oh shut the front door she's gorgeous and like the sweetest person ever... wait she slept with you-?... interesting... wow

jordyn: ok rude and hailey i just said-
hailey: shut up she was gonna find out anyways dude kenny how did u meet her cuz i haven't met her
kendall: you know kourtneys step-son landon
hailey: yeah
kendall: his girlfriend charli is friends with her so i met them all at some party

jordyn stayed quiet as the two made the connections

hailey: wait but dude didn't you like blow your shot with her when you like went back to rekindle things with jacob?
kendall: i'd be pissed if i were her jor
hailey: she ghosted u tho right?
jordyn: yes dude i texted her for weeks and she would leave me on read way before jacob and i started talking again
kendall: and you fell for her....? like fully fell? feelings and all?
Jordyn: i mean depends on your definition of fully
Hailey: so how r u gonna break up with jacob then
jordyn: idk he scares me
kendall: dude what- why

jordyn immediately caught herself she never informed them fully about the anger issues jacob had, hailey knew a little bit and kenny knew nothing
hailey just gave an uncomfortable look to jordyn and kenny picked up on both their body language

kendall: oh my God what did he do to you
Hailey: jordyn u can talk about it with us you know that right, we're your safe space always and i know you how much you hate therapy and you have journals upon journals abt your feelings but it's still good for you to talk it out with ppl who love u especially us... we won't judge and we will always be an ear to listen
kendall: sorry i hate to interrupt here... but yeah jordyn hails is right i know you probably tell her things more often then me being she's the wiser of us two but i mean i got you always too, we're your girls jordyn tell us whats up i know your journals know so let us know too

jordyn was silent for a couple minutes as there was comfortable silence until kendall tried to change the topic as it seemed jordyn wasn't ready to speak on the topic yet

kendall: hey i know you journal and do poetry and all that but like you can sing also right?
hailey: yes she can girl has pipes
kendall: why dont you ever yk
jorydn: make music?
Kendall: yeah?
jordyn: i don't wanna step on justin's toes yk plus modeling is so busy anyways

Kendall: anyways look jordyn.....  you can open up Jj your write all the time in your poetry jordyn and and from the the little you've read to me it has always been so so beautiful. i just idk i kinda wondered why you never explored that i'm thinking like kris jenner forgive me i need to shut up
Jordyn: no yeah justin tells me that all the time abt poetry but umm i- well hailey knows very little about my writing also but i guess im always so scared to share it because of how often i live in my writing. my pen and paper know more about me than anymone in the world that's kind of scary idk..... i write a lot about how my relationship has hurt me, what it's taught me, how i feel being in it or out of it good and bad obviously a lot of that is inspired by jacob but ya know hugh he....

kendall and hailey just looked intently at their bestfriend while they listened

Jordyn: he um yk he drinks a lot and when he's drunk i can't never ever get through to him and his anger is like a whole nother level, i've brought up the problem and i get cussed out for being controlling and crazy obsessive and i just want him to be ok, or at least that was my intentions at least. i just it was scary... or it is scary to be around when someone like is not themlselves lashing out at every and anything. i could walk wrong and he'd be upset i just.... constantly constant arguing and belittling me i just idk how else to explain it it's exhausting to be around though i wish that upon no one truly cuz it's tough... watching the person you once really loved turn into something different i don't know

jorydns eyes became glossy as she looked up to the ceiling trying to fan her eyes so she wouldn't cry

jordyn: i'm sorry guys i didn't wanna cry
kendall: dude don't ever apologized for your emotions

kendall and hailey hugged jordyn on either side

kendall: i wish you would've had the courage to say something sooner jj yk we would've been there immediately cuz we love you
hailey: yeah jj i didn't know it was that bad

jordyn: it's ok i promise
Hailey; no jordyn no way is that ok that not healthy at all and obviously you tried putting in work to talk out the problem and he's not willing to change
Kendall: yeah jj i don't think that's the healthiest thing for you, and whatever you choose to do you know i support you hailey supports and hey if that's trynna get with olivia you got wing women right here
hailey: dude she don't need us she already has one foot in the door with olivia

jorydn laughed at her friends shoving each one of them playfully

Jordyn: so how do i break up with him without him getting mad
Kendall: oof umm honestly i think you shouldn't be alone when you breakup with him
hailey; yeah if his anger is that bad jj i don't think that's the smartest idea to leave you alone with him like that