lyrics :

My heart is worried about you
From a disaster in your hands

That took me from you
And didn't return me to you

My heart is worried about you
I didn't own anything

Love burned me
And the ending of falling in love is burning

My heart ....
My heart is worried about us

We separated when we met

My heart ...
My heart is worried about us

We separated when we met

And if we stopped we walked

Each on a different path
Each with no heart

As if we have never knew each other
And as if we never fell in love

🎵🎵🎵🎵🎵

My heart is worried about you
I didn't own anything

Love burned me
And the ending of falling in love burning

My heart ....
My heart is worried about us

We separated when we met

My heart ...
My heart is worried about us

We separated when we met

And if we stopped we walked

Each on a different path
Each with no heart

As if we have never knew each other
And as if we never fell in love

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This song is an opening of a series thats lyrics I find defining the relationship in this story

Now let's begin
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Mela woke up but she couldn't open her eyes, because she was so scared yesterday, her body gave a reaction to fear and her eyelids were paralyzed so she wouldn't open them and see.

She was mute and now also blind, thankfully her eyes will get back to normal in a few days.

She could hear something being fried and it smelled good. But she didn't get up she was too tired and she didn't want to get up anyways.

She then felt something wet touch her nose, she was startled at first and then she felt hairs tickling her face and some small teeny tiny bits of air touching her nose.

She froze in her place before she heard footsteps approaching until they reached right in front of her. Then a hand gently touched her eyelid and lifted it.

When her eyelid was lifted mela saw Sangwoo on one knee on the floor looking at her smiling and between his hands was ........ KoKo! 💕

Mela gasped and for the first time In a while she cracked a small smile coming with a soft 'hah' from her mouth.

He placed him on her lap as she slowly held him, but couldn't see him. Sangwoo then got up ruffled her hair a bit and went back to the kitchen.

He turned the fire off of the pan and placed the eggs on a big plate along with cheese, some cucumbers, tomatoes, some jam, honey, and a glass of mango juice along with a water bottle.

He came to the living room holding a big tray in his hands. When he entered he found mela sitting on the couch with her eyes closed wrapped with the blanket with KoKo sitting comfortably between her arms.

He stood for a moment observing them before he walked to the coffee table and placed the tray on it. He sat down on the couch.

He took a piece of toast and drenched it with honey and added butter to it.

" open up " he said gently, she parted her lips and he placed the toast inside her mouth. She chewed on it. It was pretty satisfying to eat something you can't see, and then you discover the taste of it and you like it and you'll be trying to guess what it is. A small part of mela was enjoying those small details.

He placed the glass of mango juice between her hands, and continued to feed her placing different kinds of food in her mouth gently.

Mela raised the glass in her hands she could smell the scent of fresh mango, Sangwoo knew she loved mango juice. She drank from the glass multiple times, when it was finished, she wished for more but she didn't want to say it. She didn't want to ask him for anything.

But Sangwoo knew her too well, he knew one glass of something she loved wasn't enough, so he poured her more, she could hear the sound of the heavy juice filling the glass.

After they were finished Sangwoo brought the tray to the kitchen and started washing the dishes. KoKo jumped off of melas lap finally and followed Sangwoo.

'Neaaah' Sangwoo looked down at him before wiping his hands with a towel, he then put some cat food in KoKo's bowl and he gave his head a quick pat before he left the kitchen.

He then opened the radio and turned up the volume a little bit so it wasn't too low and wasn't too high either.

' I know I stand in line Until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me ... 🎵'

Sangwoo climbed up the stairs to his room and started changing his clothes.

' And if we go someplace to dance
I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me ... 🎵 '

Mela sat there her eyes closed listening to the old song as it played along, she didn't move, just sat there on the couch doing nothing.

She then heard Sangwoo climbing down the stairs to the kitchen, she heard the fridge open and close, she heard him coming to the living room, she smelled his manly perfume fill the place as he approached.

She heard Keys sounds, She then heard something being placed at the coffee table she didn't know what it exactly was.

And then she felt Sangwoo touch her hand, she was a bit startled but it didn't show. He pulled her up on her feet gently and walked her through the corridor they stopped and he opened the bathroom door for her and walked her inside. she didn't where this was going.

He then did something unexpected he left and closed the door behind him. He lift her alone to use the bathroom and was respectful of her privacy for the first time wow! Who is he????

Mela used the bathroom and washed her hands, she felt at that moment .... free ...

Which was funny that a moment in the bathroom was the moment where she felt free but it was true, he controlled every little detail she made but now he was giving her some freedom to deal with her privacy ... personally

After she had done she opened the door and walked through the corridor following the music to the living room. She stumbled upon something on the ground a small table or something and was about to slip before Sangwoo grabbed her by the hand and her arm so she didn't fall.

' Then afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two '

After a couple of moments of them just standing there, Sangwoo walked her back to the couch. She sat there in a confusion of the whole .... new treatment ...

' And then I go and spoil it all
By saying something stupid
Like I love you'

Sangwoo placed a bottle between her hands

" that's water " he said before he left her opened the front door and left closing it behind him. Mela was left alone in the house with no handcuffs without being drugged without anything. But she didn't even think about escaping anymore she didn't think about anything. Her mind was blank.

' neaaaah '
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Sangwoo drove to the shoe store where he worked, while on his way he got a phone call from nick.

" nick "

" hey man how you doin "

" fine what's up "

" not much actually umm .... Sangwoo have you seen mela? Her phones off I called multiple times she's not at her house "

" she's with me "

He casually said ....

" her phone broke and haven't yet been repaired "

" oh .... I see ... "

" yeah don't worry she's at my place, by the way your games tomorrow "

" actually it's been delayed for another week "

" why "

" long story forget about it "

" I'll be there anyways "

" I know you will, send my greetings to mela "

" I will, take care "

Snagwoo finally reached the store.

His coworker saw him parking before he entered the place.

" dude, you've been arriving late lately, that's not like you at all " he said

" sorry it's just that my wife's been sick the past few days and I was making sure she's got all she needs before I leave "

" your wife? Your married "

" what? "

" you said your wife ... "

" I did? "

" yeah! "

" ..... I don't know it's a .... a slip of a tongue ... "

" sanwgoo! You're blushing man! "

" ...... huh .. "

" dude! *laughs* you're freaking blushing! "

Sangwoo didn't know what to say

" I've never seen you blush before! "

" alright I get it Larry " he said rolling his eyes as he put on his uniform

" so, you're not married ha " the man who happens to be called Larry said raising an eyebrow with a playful mocking smirk

" no larry ... I'm not "

" then what about your wife? "

" *sigh* Larry .... *groans* she is my girlfriend that's all ... or was ... " he said the last part with a hint of sadness in it.

" was? " he asked in confusion

" ..... I .... I upset her .... I was the one who hurt her the most ... I know it, that she doesn't love anymore " he said closing his locker and turned away with a fast single tear that escaped his eyes and escaped Larry's notice .

"  but you're still taking care of her ... and she's still living with you .... so .... "

" ......... "

" so I believe she still loves you "

" ....... I hit her "

" oooh~ 😬 "

" so I'm taking care of her until she gets better, and when she is ... she'll be gone ... " he said staffing some new shoe boxes as Larry cleaned the place.

" you said 'wife' unconsciously instead of GF, you must love her from all your heart and to you, marrying her would be the greatest thing you'll ever do " Larry said in a different voice

Sangwoo stopped for a moment taking in Larry's comment, he was right marrying her was a beautiful thing that Sangwoo never mind

" sometimes, things just can never come back to how they were "

" mistakes can be fixed can be apologize for ... "

" no ... not the ones I made, I'm not a good person Larry ... "

" dude don't say that ... you're the best person I know! "

Snagwoo chuckled in sad sarcastic

" if you want someone to talk to, I don't mind! Me and my girlfriend we fight a LOOOOT! So I can understand! "

" .... yeah ... thanks "

" don't mention it- " he was interrupted by a phone call

He checked the caller and laughed

" speaking of the devil ... ahhhaaaa! " he showed him the phone and it appears it was his GF he then turned around and went for a private place to talk .

Sangwoo rolled his eyes and started working
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After 3 hours his shift finished, he drove to a near supermarket and bought some stuff, he then drove back home.

He parked and got out of the car holding multiple bags in his hand, he opened the front door slowly, got in and closed it behind quietly.

He took a glance at mela, she was sleeping on the couch with KoKo curled beside her. The stereo was still on playing

' Heaven... I'm in heaven,
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak.
And I seem to find the happiness I seek,
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek.... '

Sangwoo left it on and went to the kitchen to place the bags. He bought, frozen chicken scallops, burger buns, sliced cheese, ketchup, mayo, and some coke.

' Heaven... I'm in heaven,
And the cares that hung around me through the week,
Seem to vanish like a gambler's lucky streak,
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek '

Sangwoo left the kitchen and went upstairs to his room changed for something comfortable it was sunny today he put on a short and a T shirt

Climbed down of the stairs and went to the inside room, he grabbed the futon and curled it in a circle and went to the bathroom.

He opened the washing machine door and placed the futon inside, he added multiple cups of some of that washing substance, closed the door and turned it on.

' Oh, I love to climb a mountain,
And to reach the highest peak.
But it doesn't thrill me half as much
As dancing cheek to cheek '

Sangwoo paused in the middle of the corridor at the lyrics of the song

' Oh, I love to go out fishing
In a river or a creek.
But I don't enjoy it half as much
As dancing cheek to cheek '

He remembered the first time he and mela danced together, it was at nick's engagement party. She was the most beautiful girl at the party in his eyes.

' Dance with me! I want my arms about you.
The charms about you
Will carry me through to...
Heaven... I'm in heaven ...... '

It was true, he did fell he was in heaven when he danced with her, when he spend time with her. He walked towards her as she was sleeping she sounded so tired and her black eye ... Snagwoo couldn't stand looking at it. But it did seem that it got a little bit smaller now after the ointment that applied yesterday.

He then remembered and went to fetch the ointment and got back, he crouched down and started applying gently on her eye so it wouldn't sting her. She didn't wake up, when he finished he went back to the kitchen.

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Mela woke up slowly on the sound of yet another cooking and the smell was heavenly. She still couldn't open her eye. She knew Sangwoo was home and was making something

He was cutting onions and potatoes alone with lettuce and tomatoes. While the burger scallops was being fried on the pan.

After it was cooked he put two scallops in the burger alongside with the vegetables and cheese. He put in a nice plate and after he fried the potatoes he added them to the dish, finally, he poured coke and carried them to the living room.

He saw that mela had woken up, was sitting on the couch just like this morning, her eye that she couldn't open gave him an anxiety, he didn't know why it didn't open. He started picturing explanations what if his punch killed a nerve in her other eye or something. She was already mute and he didn't want her to go blind too!

He placed a small pillow on her lap which she was a bit confused, he then placed a tray on it and on it was the plate of the burger.

He then left, she touched what's inside the plate and knew what it was. She held it to her mouth and started eating. As she was eating she heard Sangwoo come back and heard a can being opened and placed at the table.

She then heard him go to the kitchen and heard water, he was washing the dishes.

As Mela was eating she was thinking, since this morning Sangwoo rarely spoke words to her. She wondered what was happening. Mela wasn't acting normal either, her mind was still affected by the trauma and she wasn't thinking straight all the time, she like spaced out a lot and slept a lot.

Mela reached her hand out to reach the can of coke, she grabbed it and started drinking.

After Sangwoo was finished he went back to the bathroom and got the futon out of the washing machine and went to the balcony to hung it up. It's a good thing it was sunny today.

He came back and took the empty can of coke from melas hands. She was a bit startled. There was nothing much to do when you can't see, you can't watch a movie or read a book or play a game. And if your mute you can't even waste the time talking and chatting. There was nothing much to do but sleeping and eating.

Mela felt Sangwoo sit on the other couch. She didn't know what he was doing, so she kept sitting Like a stone. Sangwoo was on his phone, he was googling something.

He was reading something off google before he got up and called an old friend. He went upstairs to his room and closed the door.

" Sangwoo ~ "

" hey Freddie ... "

" it's been a while "

" yeah it has, how are you and the new job "

" believe Me being a pharmacist is so confusing to people they think I'm a doctor! God! "

" ........... you're .... not? "

" oh my god you got to be kidding me "

" because I have a few questions I was hoping maybe you'd know something "

" alright shoot, try me "

" my friend, her eyelids are paralyzed they won't open ... have you ever heard about that? "

" yeah, eye paralysis "

" so it is actually a thing "

" aha "

" is this like .... permanent ? "Sangwoo asked nervously

" well, what caused it? "

" I .... I don't know .... we'll she has been punched in the eye and ever since her other eye couldn't open "

" violent father? Brother? boyfriend? "

" Freddie... " Sangwoo rolled his eyes

" well ... was it really bad ? "

" I mean the person who punched her, he .... he barely used his strength, it was a regular punch but .... it wasn't really really bad "

" alright I'm gonna tell you this .... I can't really tell unless she been examined by a doctor because these kinda paralyses have a lot of causes.

You have, eye infections, nervous system disorder, injury to the fourth cranial nerve, tumors, god forbid, migraines, abnormalities, strokes, umm blood vessel decease .... there's a plenty of em reasons, so its best she'd be taken to a docto- "

" what what umm what abnormalities what do you mean by that ? "

" ..... well a trauma "

" ...... a trauma? "

" yeah it's a paralysis or weakness of the eye muscles. It can affect one or more of the six muscles that hold the eye in place and control its moveme- "

" is this treatable?! "

" don't freak out! You can use lubricating drops, Night time lubricating ointment with eye patching or taping and moisture chambers sometimes it requires surgery but hey, most often they heal on their own as the days go by "

" what if what if this is something serious "

" that's why I'm telling you, GO see a doctor "

" alright those umm lubricating drops you mentioned, can you name a good one or - "

" there're called artificial tears "

" Is it available in you pharmacy? "

" yeah, but you're messing the point, she should go see a doc- "

Sangwoo hung up and went to put on some shoes and change for warmer clothes quickly

" son of aaa ..... " Freddie shout-whispered as he looked the screen of his phone.
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Sangwoo quickly took his car keys and left the house in a rush. Mela was confused, what was going on. And why was he so rushed, she heard muffled voices of him which seemed slightly freaked out. She was left again in the house.

After 15 minutes Sangwoo came back, he found mela in the bathroom, good thing she managed to go there by herself. He entered the living room and waited for here to finish.

After a couple of minutes she exited the bathroom and went to the living room again. She knew he was home she heard him enter.

She slowly walked to the living room careful not to trip, Sangwoo was there to catch her if she did anyways and she actually knew that.

When she reached the couch she sat down and Sangwoo sat on the coffee table opposite her.

"'Alright hold still okay don't move " he said
She was a bit confused of what was going on.

" bring your head backwards " melas hesitated she was thinking what was he doing to her.
she didn't trust him.

" what's wrong? " he asked, his voice didn't feel angry or annoyed neither friendly it was as if he's talking to a stranger.

Mela looked nervous

" I want to eye drop your eye, just in case your eye don't take damage from the closed eyelid and don't turn out dry, moisturize it " he explained assuring her.

She ''looked'' up at where his voice was coming before she brought her head backwards. KoKo was sitting on the couch watching them curiously. 

Sangwoo opened her eye and dropped two drops in it. It's a cringe feeling for all of us. Sangwoo rubbed her eyelid gently to remove that cringe feeling.

He then squeezed some eye treatment cream in his finger and gently rubbed it on the eyelid.

" alright now, next eye. Tell me if I'm hurting you "  he said
He squeezed out the ointment on his finger and very very gently he applied it slowly and carefully to the black eye he gave her.

Mela didn't give any reaction of pain.

' good ' he thought

" I'm going to tape an eye patch on your eyes so they won't get infected " he said while bringing out an eye patch and a tape from the paper bag he bought from the pharmacy.

After he had done the job he could feel mela worried, her face says it all. Sangwoo stood on his knees he was lower than her now.

He placed his hands on her lap

" mela ... this is only temporarily, your eyes will get back to normal in a few days ... I promise okay " he said his voice do gentle and soft.

mela was assured by his voice and was emotionally moved. After a couple of moments mela nodded her head.

Sangwoo looked up at her for a couple of seconds before he stood up on his feet again.

He picked up KoKo and placed him on her lap to distract her from the whole eyes problem.

He then went to the kitchen thinking about dinner. He was exhausted and couldn't really stand doing dinner and washing the dishes and all that.

He left the kitchen and went to change to his training to feel comfortable.

Mela on the other hand was thinking about how Sangwoo was taking care of her and treating her gently, respecting her privacy and going out buying medical stuff. She was feeling longing to this personality of him and she was feeling better and finally assured. She wanted him to spend more time with her now, but he seemed avoiding her and avoiding talking to her even.

The days where he was always with her, she felt lonely because he was scary, but now she felt happy that the Sangwoo she knew was back again, not knowing why he changed his attitude back to normal but she was happy he did. But he was not spending time with her neither talking to her which made her feel lonely. She loved him so much and couldn't hate him, couldn't hate him  at all!

Sangwoo ordered a pizza and climbed down stairs.  He checked on mela who was sitting alone in the living room just the way he left her with KoKo in her arms.

He kept looking at her before he want to the kitchen and sat there.

Sangwoo knew that he traumatized her, he didn't take her phobia seriously but after he googled it and read about it. He hated his self. He thought the best way to make her recover was to stay away from her as much as possible and not to touch her or speak to her unless necessarily.

Because he thought she hated him but she never did. Her heart was broken and she was upset with him and hurt. But she never hated him. Which isn't normal at all.

Sangwoo brought his palms up to his face.

' all the girls I've locked here, I never raped any them, when I made out with them, it was approved from both parties. Even after I locked them in the basement I didn't harass them. Even though I never like them, and then I harass the only one that I love most in the world and forced her almost gave her a heart attack .... what a logical world. Way to go sangwoo  ' he cursed his self as he he sighed

The doorbell rang, mela was puzzled, was Sangwoo expecting a guest! Or was an unexpected guest? Is he going to hide me? Drug me? Kill him?!

She felt Sangwoo pass behind her, she sweated nervously. He opened the door normally and spoke to a guy. Before closing the door.

There was a delicious scent in the air. Sangwoo went and grabbed plates and came back. He served two  margaritas on her plate and placed the plate between her hands. He opened a can of coke for her as well.

Mela smelled the pizza, she loved margarita. But she didn't eat. Sangwoo didn't notice that, he was sitting on the coffee table his face on his palms with regret killing him. Mela slowly reached her hand out not feeling where Sangwoo was until she touched the him of his training jacket. Sangwoo quickly lifted his head off of his palms and looked at her.

He didn't know what she wanted, did she need something was she in pain? He looked at her confused should I take her hand? Would she want that?

She then gently held his arm and stood up from the couch and slowly moved and sat beside him on the coffee table with her face all blushed.

He stared at her unbelievingly, why was she getting closer? He asked his self.

She hand sighed  ' thank you ' which he was familiar with .

He after a couple of seconds of silence replied with a sad low voice

" you're welcome "

She felt it and felt the urge to cry, but she held it in. She grabbed a piece of pizza and gave it to him because she knew that he didn't eat at all today. All he did was feed her the breakfast and wash the dishes and go buy her medical stuff.

He sighed and took it from her " thanks " he shrugged and she nodded and they started eating their dinner in that warm moment.