Author's POV

26th May 2020

**Minji and Fluffy Boy have just got home from school. They've been messaging each other for a while now, talking about their interests. Minji thinks she knows who he is, and hopes it's him. But, after their short relationship, she believes that'll only happen in her dreams.**

MinjiAhn

Hey

You remember what you said?

I'm so ready...

Fluffy Boy

Hello

Yes, I do

It's your birthday and I'll reveal myself

It's nice to know you're ready

Ngl, I'm a bit shaky...

MinjiAhn

Dw, I won't bite heheh

Fluffy Boy

Ik that

Will you accept me if I came back

Even after being a coward?

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Minji, could I ask you smth?

MinjiAhn

Ofc, go on!

Fluffy Boy

Well, you obviously don't know me...

MinjiAhn

Yesssss

And that's why I HAVE to see you tmrw

Fluffy Boy

Would you reject me if I was someone

You didn't like...?

MinjiAhn

Oh...

No, no one's ever liked me, you're the first

That's a lie, my Wonie is

Or maybe it's the truth, maybe you're Jungwon

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I mean it'd be a bit stupid

I might have to think about it

But you seem really nice

I don't see anything wrong with dating you

Fluffy Boy

Oh wow, it's making me feel better

MinjiAhn

Yay!

Why'd you ask?

Are you scared?

Like lots

Fluffy Boy

Cuz we didn't work out the first time

So you'd probably want to not have me again

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It's just I heard about u and Jungwon

So, I thought you'd...

Minji's heart began to ache. Just the mentioning of his name stabbed her, she wanted to cry and rip her hair out. How much she missed him, she didn't realise it was the same on the other side.

Jungwon could fix it right now, he could've fixed it ages ago, but he was scared. He could've just messaged her and said "Yes, it's me Jungwon and I want you back."

But he didn't.

He knew how much he had hurt Minji, he knew she still felt the pain, and so did he. He didn't even break up with her directly, that's worse. He didn't bother talking to her. He felt like a fool, being such a coward. Every moment, he'd imagine her beside him, wrapping her in his arms and letting his lips travel upon her.

But he just couldn't make it reality. It was too hard. If he spoke up, he'd either succeed or hurt both of them even more.

MinjiAhn

No... I understand

Jungwon...

He's the past

It's fine...

No, it's not fine

Jungwon isn't my past

He's my present, my everything

And deep inside, I know it's you, Wonie

If you're not, then I'm delusional [deleted]

Fluffy Boy

You don't want me anymore...

You want to forget me

Why? I'm so sorry [deleted]

Oh.

I see.

Shouldn't have brought him up then...

[read]

Jungwon laid in his bed, holding onto the duvet really tight, letting his tears soak it. He tried to stop himself from hiccuping and kept muttering her name. He blocked the door with his table. He'd never come out, ever since that conversation. He'd come and pick up the food left outside his door, and then leave an empty plate out. Never came out of his room, and when he had to leave the house, he'd exit ignoring everyone.

Yes, it was like this for two months.

Minji acted like everything was ok. Her mum was her number one priority, she had to look after her so had to seem as happy as possible. If she was ever upset or stressed, her mum would panic lots, she didn't want that to happen.

Now, you may be wondering how it is in school.

Well, they both still sit next to each other, but it's really awkward. They try to resist themselves from reaching out and grabbing the other's hand. They'd only been close for a bit, and in that time, they'd fallen in love a lot. And I mean A LOT.

Jungwon kept skipping school, he'd run out from home and head to a nearby library or park where he'd hide and just try and make himself happy again. He couldn't. Everything he saw, Minji came back into his mind. He felt like he was going mad for her. It was a bit much.

Minji worries increased significantly every time he skipped school, he had never been a student to skip school. She knew deep inside she was the reason behind it all. She'd always go and ask Enhypen and they'd always say he's not feeling the best. Emotionally, not physically.

He'd never skipped school when he was sick. Never. He'd always go into school, despite how bad he felt, ever since a very young age. Actually, that reminds me of something, a few years ago.

The day Jungwon fainted.