It's been a week since the argument between me and Chaewon happened, it's also a week since I was put in hiatus, yup that day Bang PD called me because he saw the news about what happened on me in the park

So he decided that I wouldn't be in Le sserafim for a while, so now I'm here not doing nothing than wake up drink and sleep, but of course I still eat it's just that most of the time I would always drink

It's was so tough for me the whole week because the issue is still being brought up in the internet every now and then, and the fight between us and my members or should I say Chaewon, didn't help either

As I was deeply swimming on my thoughts, I was interrupted by a notification coming from my phone

I picked it up and looked, it was a news that Le sserafim is down on the chart of groups, with articles about how our followers and subscribers went down in numbers drastically, this is also been going on for a while now since the issue came out

And it actually added up from my thoughts, I was thinking of solutions but nothing really came up as the investigation is still going

Now that I think of it, it was also a week since I talked to Haewon, I wonder where she is tho, she haven't even text me about an update on the case

Popping the bubble of thoughts beginning to form on my head I again heard a noise coming from my phone

I looked at my phone and saw PD-nim is calling, I quickly answered it and put the phone on my ear

"Y/n I need to talk to you" he said seriously, I can feel this is not something to take lightly, just by his voice

"Meet me in my office tomorrow" he said before hunging up and not letting me respond

I'm here again infront of the office door of my boss, as I bring my hand on the door and carefully knock, my heart was beating crazy I don't know I feel a little off, like there's something on chest that I can't seem to lift

I waited a few moments and after hearing a faint response I twist the knob and walked inside

I was then greeted by my boss who looked so stress that I can clearly see dark circles under his eyes

I quickly sat down from one of the chairs in front of him as he gestured me to sit

We are surrounded in a eerie silence for a few moments but then was cutted when he decided to talk to discuss about the matter he wants to talk to me

"As you can see the issue has been really hot ever since it came out, the number of album sales has been went down drastically, the people also didn't stop from throwing hates not only to you but to your members too "

"And what I'm trying to say is that maybe you should stay a little more time on hiatus-

"Get to the point, the group is going down.. right?" as he begin to blabber around, I can tell he doesn't know what to say, or maybe he doesn't know how to say

I interrupted him and look at him dead in the eyes, he was stunned because I know I was right, he didn't replied and just looked down proving I was indeed right..

"Give them what they want" I spoke, he was confused at first of what I'm talking about, but I know he knows damn well what it is

"What do you mean?" he slowly but carefully asked me

"C'mon you know what they want" I said and chuckled dryly, it was so dry to the point the air between us also begin to feel so dry

"Take me out of the group... "

With simple as that the room again was filled with a deafening silence, he looked at me like I have gone crazy

"I can't do that"

"Yes you can, and even if you don't want to, I would"

"Y/n there's many ways to fix this we just have to wait for the investigation to finish" he said trying to convince me

"For how long can I wait then? Another weeks?... Months?... Years?"

"If I waited even longer isn't my group would be down already?" it's true I know damn well if I waited even more longer the group would end up being in disbandment, and I can't let that happen, I know my members waited and put all of their efforts just to debut, I wouldn't forgive myself if I let all of their dreams be ruined because of me

"We all know this is for the best, well at least that's what I know"

"Y/n you didn't have to" he tried to atleast stop me

"I. HAVE. TO"

And with my last words I left his office and that is the time I let out the tears that I was holding on the whole time

NO ONE'S POV

On the other hand as you left, the CEO was left pressured, he didn't want you to leave the group but he also knew it's a good choice for the group

He hesitate to let you go because to him you were like his own daughter, he knew you have a kind heart and you would never do the things that was being accused to you, but he also can't do anything because there's no proofs to publish for the public to know that you were innocent, he knew all of your struggles in your trainee days, he saw how passionate you are in pursuing music, he saw how you helped someone when they're struggling in something, especially your members

So with a heavy heart he called someone on his phone

"Terminate the contract Y/n has with us"

A special chapter because today is
NEW JEANS 1ST ANNIVERSARY 🐰🎉🎉🎉

CONGRATULATIONS MY GIRLS!!!🐥😾🐶🐰🐻 I HOPE YOU ARE ALL HAPPY AND WOULD ACHIEVE MORE AMAZING THINGS IN THE FUTURE. I, ME, MYSELF WILL PROMISE TO SUPPORT AND LOVE YOU GUYSSS TILL THE END NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN!!! 😘❤️❤️

THIS IS A DAY TO REMEMBER!!!