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"You know I love you so much " Nicholas said as he placed a small kiss on the younger's slim fingers
Apologizing
Because he almost crushed it inside his strong grip
After euijoo's attempt to leave the house after a heated argument

"You know how I lose myself just at the thought of you leaving me "

Making euijoo wonder is this how it feel to live with a partner who abuses you mentally and physically in the name of love ?

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But he chooses to believe that it was just a misunderstanding and they both admitted being immature and not talking enough to sort their problems out

After clearing things up between them, euijoo said he would forgive him and they will be able to move on together,

His only fault was loving the older too much to

But yet Euijoo was too young and so naive in terms of relationships, to notice all the visible warnings
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He was actually happy that Nicholas could change a lot in a short time, he had become so sweet and loving and caring that Euijoo believed he had a boyfriend made of honey

Euijoo thought he won the older's heart, but at what cost?

He was still the same possessive man
And that was one of the big worries that occurred Euijoo's mind, but not to the point euijoo would get sick of him

Through time Euijoo learned it was never a good idea to get mad over it

Nicholas did train him like a loyal fog

And Euijoo agreed to live with him and to all his conditions too
Because he loved Nicholas unconditionally and prioritized a peaceful relationship over anything else
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Sadly it wasn't enough for the older

Soon Nicholas's mask fell and he was back again to being mean and cold and hot tempered man like he used to be

Their fights became unavoidable every day

The older seemed to be mad at something that Euijoo unfortunately ignored
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On the day they were supposed to be celebrating their 1 year relationship anniversary.

Something seemed to overstress the older which was out of usual

Even tho they were just between family and some friends

After the small party
They had invited only some of their friends from college to their home, in particular Nicholas friends, cause suddenly Euijoo wasn't allowed to invite his just because their apartment was small,

Such a dumb excuse

Euijoo being too used to his man's possessivnesse, he didn't want to make a fuss from it

He knew the older was trying to assert dominance in their relationship from the beginning, trying to control who he meets and all

And he let him be
Maybe because he valued Nicholas feelings more than his

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The ambiance in their sitting room was filled with a mixed odor in smock and alcoholic.
The tables were filled with cans of beer
Their friends had passed out, and slept on the couchs, except for one !
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Which annoyed Nicholas the most, he was the only reason that kept Nico awake at his surveillance.

Even tho they were friends. Nicholas had lost trust in anybody, and every person he knew became his frenemy
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The older lit another cigarette as he watched his husband cover everyone with blankets

"Nico enough drinking for today" euijoo came to sit beside him his eyes on Nicholas, he touched his shoulder to get his attention since the older didn't look sober

"Go to our room" Nicholas ordered without even looking back at him

"What "
Nicholas removed the cigarette from his mouth and turned his head to look at him, he then leaned closer until the edge of his nose touched with euijoo's,

Euijoo thought he would kiss him but was deceived when Nicholas just blew out the smoke he was holding in his mouth into his face .

Euijoo started caughting and stood up quickly from beside him.

He always does this It's no use scolding him
"I am going to sleep " too pissed he was about to walk to their bedroom

"Euijoo don't go man we are having fun " their other drunken friend who was still a bit awake called after him
He started shaking the guy next to him waking him up
Nicholas glared at him
then yelled at euijoo "Why did you stop!" Euijoo flinched as the older was raising his voice at him

Nicholas looked so scary to him .

He quickly rushed inside their shared bedroom

Nicholas following him like a mad dog
He pushed the door open and went straight to him

The younger was thrilled by his behaviour and backed away at his arrival

"Why were you exchanging a look with him huh ?!

"A a I ... " It was a moment of panic and Euijoo was not ready to face an angry Nicholas

Are you thinking of cheating on me !!
You are a taken Man! you can't be giving hopes to others !!

I wasn't!"

"You should keep loyal to me! Your Eyes should look only at ME !! He screamed in rage highlighting the importante word with his voice .

Euijoo didn't know anymore If he should be happy because Nicholas care and is being jealous about him or to be sad because he is dobting his love for him once again

"Nicholas... you are the only man I love sincerely, I would impossibly have any interest in someone else other than you" But even those word weren't sufficient for the older to acknowledge

"Then Mind explaining Why your ex bust our party !!"

So this was his main concerne all this time

"He didn't, he was invited !" Euijoo explained
"He is a friend just like any other, I told you before" he was obligated to say it like that because he knows how sensitive Nicholas is

"Are you saying I am a liar !!"this outraged the older even more

"Listen I invited all my old classmates and he is one of them, you being angry because of that is quite absurd !"

"I don't fvcking care
You know I hate him, like I always did !" Nicholas landed a punch at the desk next to their bed "Why did you ruin my special day !!

Nicholas aggressive attitude was always a sign of him being a potential abusive partner, something euijoo choosed to ignore, sadly it was time he face the consequences

"You are the one ruining it, everything was fine until you made a big deal fro.....!!!

But euijoo could never finish his sentence

Tears rolled down his burning cheek

After being hit across his face

He wasn't able to look back at the older again

Not because he hit him hard

It wasn't the first time they have fought, they always fight over silly and big things, but ..
Never in his life Nicholas has ever lift a finger at him until today ...

"If I ruin everything why do you stay with me" the older said as he placed his trumbling hand back to his side

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Yet this was the first time ever

Euijoo sat on the bathroom floor as he cried
He was scared rather than hurt

He thought he messed up

He made a big mistake and it will never be forgotten

Maybe he deserved it for constantly hurting the older's ego

It was just a slap and euijoo is a strong man, it shouldn't have hurt that much

But why did it break his heart into half .
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A faint knock was heard on the bathroom door

"Euijoo... I am sorry " even tho the older apologized many times and waited for him to go sleep together

Euijoo was ready to forgive him

Everything has a first time of course
A single mistake doesn't mean their relationship is ruined forever

But unfortunately this wasn't going to be the last time as euijoo thought it would be.

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Guys did you like nichojoo's cover of Cupid, I am so in love 🍓🍊💕
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