Let me tell you -at least the hardest points-...

 I was 19. In the high school, when could go to school and get in touch with my friends; I knew sometimes that damn ghost comes, the ghost of living in an imaginary world and couldn't have that feeling of living in the current moment. It was like I am sleeping in my bed now, actually means being open to any kind of accident.

But this time, was another. Everywhere were closed, we were stucked at home, schools were closed, offices, or any place to socialise were the same. For looong 2 years. As all the world restricted for so many things, ı lived too, couldn't celebrate my own graduation, cut the communication with my friends, disinfect every kind of things coming to my home and so on. Than, after a certain duration, something started to change, lockdowns became loose, humanity started to live outside with masks except some rare examples. That time was the time to turning back old beautiful days and almost everyone were dying to get themselves out of the house, except someones. My friends call me outside, somethings need to go hospital, needs of the home, etc. I couldn't even go outside and take few steps in my own street, only place to being located in was my home. I was pyschologically shocked and wasn't ready at all. When I was planning all my bright future with a good career, education path, having fun with my friends and family; this wasn't fair at all. I almost wasn't have any physical function to live. Online meetings were not different than the real ones, they were scary at least as them. Had not any idea for what ı can do. Then, during 3 or 6 months, everything changed, just with a basic principle, a basic requirement that made me cried when ı hear for the first time. Just some post- pandemic education attempts, ATTENDANCY IS COMPULSORY-not by school, but the courses-...