My whole life is some kind of ironic joke. I believe when I was born life just said let's fuck this one up bad, and went with it. Even though I was given such a shitty life I still find the beauty in it. Like a single rose in a feild of dead flowers.

No matter how beautiful the petals of the rose may be, I'll never be able to grasp at it without getting hurt, for you can't have a rose without its thorns.

At six my quirk had developed during class. We were at recess when I got mad and sunflowers began to grow rapidly around me. I was ecstatic about finally have a quirk and that weekend my mom took me to the doctor to do tests, just to be safe.

My doctor was super nice and told me that my quirk, called growth, was healthy for a kid like me. She gave me a lollipop and sent me out before talking to my mother. When they came out of the room my mom was crying. I asked her what was wrong, but she wouldn't tell me promising to tell me when I got older.

Around eight I had my first crush. They had the coolest quirk in school and was always nice to me. When I told my mom, once again she began to cry. Pushing through the tears she told me what was happening.

Hanahaki. A disease that causes a person with unrequited love for another to feel horrible pain. It is very unusual for a person to get it, other than me there have been only seven other cases. Most people consider it a myth, or they don't even know it exists.

 My mother, she told me that I could go through  surgery and get rid of the desease, but I wouldn't feel love ever again. Think of that, my loving mother was willing to get rid of this feeling, so I wouldn't get hurt. She was willing to help me even if it ment I would never love her.

That night I vowed to never fall in love. I kept cold to anyone I met and pushed them away. That kid I liked in fifth grade? I never looked at him again, I took no chances. Everything was fine, I even began to forget about my disease, that is up until my first year of high school.

I luckily I passed U.A.'s test and made it into class 1-A. Like every other year I ignored other students and stayed my distance from them. Then I met Mirio. We had our test together and both got into the same class.

He was decently nice to me, inviting me to eat lunch with him and his friends or asking to spar with him. I never did eat lunch with him, but when we spared he always kicked my ass. He was my first friend at that school and he should've been the last one too.

I trusted him like a brother. So when he begged me for days to eat with him all I could do was sigh and join. If I'm lucky his friends will pretend I'm not there and continue on with their lives. As we walked down the hall the blond sped off greeting two other students.

"Nejire, Amajiki! I brought a friend. (L/n) this is Nejire," He gestures to the girl with a smile, "and Amajiki. You two are a lot a like. " I look over to the boy and pause for a second. He was the cutest fucking thing I'd ever seen. Unlike the girl he seemed pretty reserved, waving slightly and only looking at me through his bangs.

For a second my throat started to feel weird, but I just ignored it and waved at the two, saying nothing. Nejire bounces up to me asking me a whole bunch of random questions. Even if I tried to keep up with her I wouldn't be able to. She didn't even stop talking as we walked into the lunch room.

As the two of them walked in line to get lunch I headed over to where Amajiki was sitting and sat down in front of him. My stomach was in a lot pain as I looked at the boy. His packed lunch reeked of fish and other strong fishy scents. As he bit into it he didn't seem to notice it.

I turn my head away from him and cough into my hand. Two flower petals fell into my hand. I had no clue what it could be from. Most likely my quirk, right? I brush the baby pink petals on the floor and looked up to meet Amajik's navy eyes.

He looked shocked to put it simply. Glancing away I noticed he kept opening his mouth to speak, but instead he closed his mouth and shook his head. "Are you okay?"  My eyes widened as he spoke. His voice was gentle and pretty quiet, but he sounded like he was actually worried.

I snapped out of my trance and forced a smile. "I'm fine it's just a side effect from my quirk."  That's the only thing that makes sense. "Speaking of which, what is your quirk?" Nejire asked as she set her tray down in the seat in front of me. Mirio sat down next to me with a smile. "Oh their quirk is super cool. It's really awesome seeing it in action."

"Calm down, it's not that cool. My quirk is called growth, so basically I can grow any type of plant and use it to help me if I need to." Both Amajik's and Nejire's eyes widened in interest. "Can you show us." I nod my head and ask Mirio to see his water cup. 

I think for a second to find the perfect aqua plant. Once I decided on one I put my hand around the plastic cup. Out of the water a white water lily sprouted until it was fully grown. I picked out of the water and put it behind Amajik's ear.  The two besides us began to laugh and for the first time I saw the boy in front of me smile a genuine smile.

My heart felt weird the rest of lunch. What is this? Maybe it's just from over working my quirk. That's probably why I coughed up those petals, too. That has to be it, right?

The next couple of months went by fast. It was all a blur of hanging out at lunches, training with Mirio, and lots of growing flowers. During the spring school would let us eat outside if we wanted.

 Our little group found a nice shady spot under a cherry blossom tree. While the three of them ate I would tend to the tree or grow other flowers around the base of the tree. I also got into the habit of making flower crowns and weraing throughout the day.

As I was sitting out side waiting for the other three to come out and join me for lunch. When I looked up all I saw was Amajiki walking over to me. "Hey, (L/n). Mirio and Nejire aren't going to be joining us today. They said they had to study for a Maths test."

I nodded silently as I fiddled with the stems of the flowers, weaving them together. This is the first time I've ever been alone with Amajiki, what do we even talk about. Putting the two of the quietest kids at school together really isn't a good idea.

We sat in silence for a while as I made my crown. I gently placed it atop my head and watched as Amajiki looked over my crown in awe. "Want one?" I question picking two more flowers.

"If it isn't too much trouble?" I smiled and begin to work on his crown making sure not to pick too many blue ones as I did. "Can I ask you something?" I'm shocked for a second that he's starting conversation with, but quickly cover it up. "Shoot."

"Why do you never eat lunch?"  I think about that for a second before I went to U.A. I did eat lunch because you know I'm human and all. Ever since I started sitting with Mirio, Nejire, and Amajiki though my stomach has been feeling weird. So I don't eat so I don't get sick during training. I shrug my shoulders brushing it off and keep talking with him.

We begin to talk about our time at our internships and by the time were done with lunch I finished his crown fully. I moved closer to him and placed it on his head. He smiled brightly scratched the back of his neck.

"Does it look good?" A blush crept to my cheeks. "It looks perfect. It's super cute." His smile must be contagious, because now I'm showing my smile too. We walked back to class together and met up with our two friends.

"You two seem to having fun." I stuck my tounge out at Mirio and walked to our class. When Amajiki and Nejire left I suddenly felt a wash of nausea run over me. I excused myself and ran to the restroom. Leaning over the sink I began to cough even worse than before.

Instead of a few petals like usual, hand fulls of them came up with blood. It hurt for a second, then there was no more pain. I collected the petals from the sink and threw them away. I got a drink from the water foutain and went back to class as If nothing happened at all.

This occurred more often, it didn't matter where I was or the time. It could be the middle of the night and I would wake up to cough up the plants. Over summer break I decided to look up what was happening. Hanahaki. A disease of unreciprocated love where the one in love will cough up flowers until their love falls in with them or they die from blood loss.

This would've been good to know earlier, thanks mom. Okay so I fell in love with someone, but who? I don't know, but who ever it is it needs to stop. I vowed to never fall in love I never break my promises.

Over that summer I did my research. I called every person who had the same disease as me. I asked them for help, how to get out of love, how to ignore feelings, anything that could help me. Every single one told me the same thing. Give up, you will suffer in the end, so just give up and get the surgery.

After my last call, which ended the same as all the others, I threw my phone aginst my bedroom door. I don't quit. I'll just have to forget about loving anyone.

Then school rolled around. This is where it all began, find out who it is and cut them out of you life. That's my goal.

Nothing was unusual, half the year has already passed, and still no signs. School has gotten worse for me, I keep having to escape class and find an empty restroom to get rid of these flowers. Then it was winter break. I was walking home when I passed a group of third year boys on my way. "You hear about that Tamaki kid?"

"Yeah he's such a pus. He totally embarrassed himself on national TV at the sports festival." They all began to laugh. "He couldn't even get to the second round. That fucking scardy cat. Doesn't deserve the third spot in over all our grades." I froze. "If I was (L/n) I would drop all of them. Their quirk is super powerfull, makes sense that they got first place. Their friends are just an embarrassment."

I finally flipped around and stomped my way to the group. "Want to say that to my face bitch!" I was furious now and was ready to throw some hands. "Hey we ment it has a compliment." The main guy raised his hands in defence clearly surprised by my sudden appearance.

"Well, Amajiki is twice the hero you'll ever be, all of them are, because their not little brats who feel the need to make fun of other people to feel better about themselves."

The guy was now mad at me. "Just because I said you had a powerful quirk doesn't mean I can't beat your ass. Don't get cocky." The guy threw a punch at me but was stopped when two pairs of thorny vines wrapped around his hands and feet. I landed one punch to his nose before letting them run away.

I felt good about what I did when I got home, but as I stepped foot into my house pain swarmed my lungs and throat. I later coughed up whole roses, thorns and everything. My winter break went by with me cooped up in my room by myself the entire time.

On the first day back to school I didn't go. I was in so much pain and now I know why. Tamaki Amajiki. Why did I have to just stick up to him. Those dumb fucks made fun of all of them, yet I only stood up for the shy boy. All I could do was cry. No pain medication could help, and every time I tried they just came back up with roses and blood.

Water helped, but on for a while. Just until more flowers came. Every breath I took my lungs burned worse and worse. My mouth always tasted like iron. Food seemed unappetizing and everytime I forced myself to eat it didn't stick for too long. The only good thing keeping me sane through this was the flowers themselves.

They were beautiful. Way prettier than any flower I could grow, so with each one I coughed up I gently cleaned them of blood and kept them growing in my room.

A week later there was a knock on my door. I curled up closer into my blanket ignoring whoever it was. I knew it wasn't my mom she would just open the door. After moments of silence a louder more agressive knock came followed by my mom busting the door open.

"(F/n) you have guests. You can't stay in your room by yourself anymore." I still stayed silent fighting back the flowers. Who would bother coming to see me, it doesn't matter I don't want to take any chances of it being him.

 I heard my mother grumble to herself as she closed my door. I felt a dip in the bed before  a hand rubbed the side of my arm soothingly making me pull the blankets tighter over my head. "Hey what's wrong?" Of course it's Mirio who came here.

I peeked my head fom my covers and looked at the feet of my bed. Both Nejire and Mirio were here, but I didn't see Tamaki anywhere in my room. I wanted to cry. No stop. This is a good thing right? Just forget about him, that's all you need to do. He doesn't care about you so why should I care about him?

The door began to open. Expecting my mother I looked up. Instead of my mother though I saw Amajiki walk into my room. Our eyes met for only a second, but that second sent my heart soaring. I quickly curled up into a ball tighter than before.

"You can tell us what's up. We're really worried about you. I mean you've never missed a day of school in your life. Please tell us." Mirio's clam voice spoke out of the silent room. I shook my head.

The scratching at my throat was getting worse the longer I tried to fight it. They need to leave, they can't know. I could hear Nejire was talking, but I couldn't focus on her words.  I couldn't take it any more. I quickly threw off the covers and pushed Mirio off of me.

Grasping at the trash can I had under my night stand I cough up the plants. Six fully bloomed roses sat there taunting me with my own blood coating them. It made me sick. Why do I still love him even after all this pain.

I placed the can down and brought my knees to my chest, wanting for everything to go away. Nejire stood up and headed for my door. "I'll go get their mom." I reached out making a vine grow from a pot in my room. It wrapped itself around the door handle stopping her in her tracks.

"She can't know." She looked at the desperation in my eyes and sighed before sitting back down. "How have you not told her about it?" "She knows I have Hanahaki's she just doesn't know I've fallen in love. If she found out she'd make me get surgery. Right now she thinks I'm just sick."

The whole room went quiet as I looked down at my hands not daring to look at any of them in the eyes. "You must really love them. Aren't you in pain?" I look up a Mirio with a smile.

"Yeah I'm in a lot of pain, but I just can't do it. In the beginning I was doing this for my mom. It's different now. This person, no matter how much pain I'm in now," I put my hand over my heart feeling it beat faster," he makes me happy. I tried to just for get about him but everytime I try, it just got worse. I can't just forget about that."

By now all three of them were crying. All at once the jumped at me for a hug. Amajiki stood in front of me and timidly placed his arms around my shoulders as Mirio and Nejire were on my sides. I told myself not to hug the boy in front of me, it would make things easier. Instead of listening to my brain though I hugged him almost exclusively.

After a long moment I let go. The three of them followed as they all sat down. "So who's the boy?" Nejire asked with a small smile. I looked down at my hands as the fiddled with each other. "Umm... I can't tell who it is, but let's just say that he goes to our school."

The girl was about to say something, but Mirio put his hand on her shoulder to shut her down. "We get it, you want to keep it a secret." Yawning I nod my head in agreement. "You should go to sleep." Not saying anything I curl up into my blankets. The pain was still getting worse in my chest, but ignored it and fell asleep.

(Outside your door your three friends stood there for a while before leaving. Tamaki slid aginst the door till he was sitting with his knees to his chest. "How could someone not love (L/n). It makes no sense." He too felt like crying. Knowing that his friend was in pain was tearing at his chest. He wished for anything, he could just help you.

"We'll we have to check up on them. If you want to switch off every few hours or something? (L/n) needs us here." Tamaki sat up. "I'll do it. I can take care of them today and since it's the weekend I'll take care of them then, too. I know you guys wanted to get in more training in."

The two friends thanked him profusely, promising to help out over the week days before leaving. Tamaki had done small gestures to make your life a little easier while you were asleep. When he did everything he could he decided to sit down until you felt good enough to wake up.)(back to you pov.)

I woke up with a start reaching for the trash can again. I coughed up two more roses before I laid back down. With a sigh I sat back up to get a glass of water when I noticed that there was already one on my nightstand full of ice.

I look around my room and spot a sleepy Amajiki resting in my reading nook. He is so cute, why does he have to be so fucking cute? I drank the water quickly to cool down the burning sensation in my throat. When I look back at Tamaki he now is rubbing his eyes, fully awake.

He looked up and met my eye. "Is there anything I could get you?" His voice was quiet, like if he spoke too loud it would break me. "I could make you something to eat if you're hungry." I shake my head and lay down. The blue haired boy gets up from his chair and sits down next to me on my bed. Placing his hand on my forehead he checks my temp, before sighing.

"I'm so sorry."  "What for?" He looks away from my gaze and stares at the floor. "I just wish there was something I could do. I mean how could someone not love you? You're so amazing, and now because of them you're hurt. Because someone was so stupid, people could loose you. I can't loose you. Why do you love someone who's hurting you like this? Why?"

Tears were  streaming down his face by now. This is the first time I've ever  Tamaki  has been upset about anything. He's normally the shy and quiet one. Alway clam and leven headed, but now he was a wreak of emotions and tears.

My heart shattered at seeing him like this. I grab ahold of his hand staring into his sparkling navy eyes. "Because he's  worth it. I didn't notice how much I really loved him till it was too late, but I'm glad I didn't push him away. Even with all the pain I'm in now, I'm still the happiest I've ever been."

Everything was still for a second. We were just sitting there staring into each other's eyes. Slowly Amajiki places his hands on either side of my face and pulls me closer and closer till our lips are pushed together.

His eyes widened suddenly realizing what he just did. Pulling away he places his hands over his face to hide his growing blush. "Sorry. I just couldn't help it. I know you're hurt even if you don't want me to know, I can tell. I just needed to let you know that we love you. I love you, but your in love with someone else. Ugh I messed up didn't I?  I'm not trying to ruin anything for you. I just don't want to lose you and have you never know how I felt. I'm sorry, I'll just leave."

I reached for Tamaki as he began to turn around. Grabbing his jacket I pulled him to me and placed my lips on his. He began to kiss back and I melted into the kiss. Placing my hand on the back of his neck  I brought him even closer to me. When we pulled back I looked Tamaki in his eyes.

"You're so stupid Amajiki. It's you, you're the one I can't live without. It's you who makes me happy, it's you who I love." I pull him into my embrace holding as if I let go he would disappear. "Please don't leave me." I mumble into his shoulder.

He put his arms around my waist holding me tight. "I'd never dream of it." He laid me down in my bed laying down next to me. Pulling the covers over both of us he kisses me again. By now his cheeks were bright pink and burning up.

We laid ther for awhile. The pain in my chest lifted away as if was never there to begin with, the burning sensation soothed until it was normal again, and my heart fluttered with new reason to live life fully.

On Monday I went back to school. As I walked through the doors people from every class greeted me. I was attacked with a hug from both Mirio and Nejire. Teachers and students looked at us as if we're insane. I'm glad they told no one.

I notice two navy eyes staring at us from the crowd. He gives me a small wave and walks away. My two besties begin to question me, but I push them away apologizing for leaving so suddenly. They looked confused as I run away, disappearing down the hall.

 I found Tamaki in a hallway by himself standing fiddling with his hands. I walk over to him and jump into his open arms. "Morning." He kisses the top of my head. I roll my eyes at him and pull him down to my level so he could kiss my lips.

Tamaki lovingly brought my lips to his. Placing a hand on the back of my head he brought me closer to him. He broke away from me a strand of saliva connecting the two of us. We both begin to laugh as I swipe it away. "Are we going to tell Mirio and Nejire about what happened over the weekend."

I shrug my shoulders and pecked his lips. "If you want to, but I'm sure they already know." Using my quirk I created a sunflower where they were hiding and pushed them forward.

Nejire bounced up next to us squealing. "Aww you two are so adorable."  "I totally ship it." The two said together. Their questions kept piling on to of us giving Amajiki anxiety. Before I could register what was going on Tamaki was dragging me with him as faced a wall.

Our friends began to case us still wanting answers.

I love these guys.

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