Levi rushed to the bathroom, making sure he didn't look too much like a complete mess. He stared at the mirror, dark circles under his eyes giving him the appearance of a racoon, his face thin with no expression, his eyes made him look like he was in a constant state of boredom, and he looked way too pale to be healthy. This was bad, he couldn't let Eren see him like this. He was a mess. The only redeeming factor was his hair, which was perfectly parted slightly to the side, his undercut freshly shaved.

The more Levi stared at his reflection, the more he hated it. The more he hated himself. He couldn't have been lucky enough to be born with tan skin and sparkling eyes like the beauty he had fallen so hard for. Instead he had features that took a lot more work to make appealing, work Levi wasn't willing to put in.

He sighed, he wanted to video chat with Eren, he really did. He wanted to see how Eren gestured when he spoke, he wanted to hear what Eren sounded like, he wanted to see that beautiful face say his name. But, he knew the second that Eren saw Levi's face, he would be repulsed and finally scared away after all this time. Levi doubted the kid would stay long if he saw how boring and uninterested Levi looked. Levi doubted the kid would ever talk to him ever again once he saw how bland Levi was. Levi was terrified, he couldn't video chat with the brunette, he couldn't risk losing him.

"Sorry, busy right now. Maybe tomorrow." Levi sent the quick message before closing his laptop, no longer in the mood to talk to Eren.

He stood, walking to the kitchen, opening the fridge. He hadn't stocked up on anything lately, he had been rushing home from work to message Eren and hadn't been out anywhere, let alone shopping in almost two weeks. The result; an empty fridge, and an empty stomach. He closed the fridge door, pulling out his phone, debating between ordering Chinese, or calling Hanji to see if they had any spare food. Forgetting to get food was somewhat common for Levi and usually Hanji came to the rescue. With that in mind, Levi dialled their number.

"Yello!" Again with that stupid greeting. Levi knew Hanji had caller ID, he knew that they knew it was him, so why they continued to use that god awful greeting was a mystery to him.

"I'm hungry and my fridge is empty." Levi always preferred getting straight to the point, greetings and pleasantries were too much work for him.

"Did you forget to get food again? Jesus Levi... What am I going to do with you?" Hanji sounded worried, but it was hard to tell given that they always used a very excited tone. Levi knew them well enough by now to tell though, Hanji was worried about him. He had no idea why.

"Bring me food or something, obviously." He couldn't understand why they didn't just say they were heading over and bringing food, that's what they usually did. Something was fishy.

"I'm actually planning on meeting Erwin tonight for dinner. But, you can join." Hanji offered, there was definite worry in their voice now. Levi was getting more and more suspicious. It was almost as if Hanji was scared he would deny their request. That didn't make sense, he was hungry, what reason would Levi have to decline?

"I'll be there. The usual restaurant right?" Erwin, Hanji and Levi used to eat at a local restaurant every month, but they seemed to have stopped inviting Levi recently. He looked at the date, realizing that today would've been the third one in a row he would've missed if Hanji hadn't invited him now.

"Yeah, meet us there soon. I'm so glad you're coming with us this time Levi!" Their bubbly attitude had returned as they hung up. Levi stared at the phone for a few minutes. That had been strange, Hanji had always been strange but he had never heard them this worried before. He had certainly never heard them so excited to know he was going with them, it sounded fake. It wasn't his fault he hadn't been there the past two times, they hadn't invited him and he had been busy. Busy talking to Eren.

Speaking of Eren, Levi opened up the computer, checking his response on Skype before he left to go meet with Hanji and Erwin.

"Aw thats to bad :( we will have to talk tomorrow. I can't wait to see u! :)"

Now Levi felt guilty, he had denied the love of his life something he wanted. That was unacceptable in Levi's mind. He couldn't allow Eren to be sad. Levi needed Eren to be happy, so he could be happy. Eren only deserved the best, and Levi had made him send a sad face. It made Levi start to wonder if he was even worthy of Eren. The love of his life didn't need someone like Levi, Eren was too perfect for him. One thought tried to push itself into the front of his mind; when had he started calling Eren the love of his life? Levi shook his head, there wasn't time for thoughts like that. All that matters is that Eren is in his life, and Levi would do anything to keep it that way.

He stood, grabbing his jacket, wallet, and keys as he left the apartment, locking the door behind him. Levi left the building heading to the restaurant where he would meet up with his friends. A plan already forming in his mind on how to bring up Hanji's unnecessary worrying. Levi was fine, absolutely goddamn fine.