Y/n

Tw: self harm.

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It's already been one hour since I arrived at my school. The weather was nice, cold, and quiet! I was just sitting on my chair, thinking of other songs that may suit his taste. I'm now making his playlist in Spotify eh... i need to be paid for doing this!

To be honest, i'm just trying to not make it obvious that i'm not on my usual mood these past few days, sadly, Levi noticed. My body froze when he somewhat told me he sensed that i'm more "quiet". Isn't that scary? I'm almost caught!

Luckily, it's very easy to trick people! I'm pretty sure the thought of my sudden change left his mind. I think... yeah i'm positive!

I wasted my time looking for some songs, i'm glad that we both have the same taste, made it easier to find good songs! I didn't realize that i was really busy finding some immaculate songs when the door suddenly opened revealing the three new students from last last week. I don't remember their names though since i wasn't listening.. hehe

I accidentally made eye contact with one of them, but i immiedietly broke that eerie eye contact and stared at my empty sketchbook.

That was close Y/n.

Since they already arrived, class will probably start soon. But i need to wait for a little more. Just a little. I need to hear their conversations again. Kinda entertaining.

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12:30. It was already our break. I don't actually eat at our cafeteria, i would rather eat somewhere else like the library, our library has wifi too! I might mess with Levi since that's the only thing i do.

As i was looking at what they're serving today, it made my appetite gone. The food was delicious, but after what Jiya and Miya told the other students, which they told them how i eat like a pig, it really made me conscious about what i eat and how i eat. Fuck them am i right?

"maybe an apple won't be bad..." i muttered as i was ready to sprint my ass outside this place and just buy a snack or some drink somewhere else.

As i was about to leave, i realized that one of the student accidentally bumped my shoulder, or maybe it was not an accident? Thankfully i was aware,  i didn't fall, but only dropped my wallet. Fucking shit

It made me nervous since many students are probably staring at me right now. Fuck

'Fuck fuck fuck Y/n hurry up and grab your fucking wallet- they're staring.'

I repeated but i can feel everything getting slower and slower, it's like i can never get my wallet since the fear of getting judge was making the time slow.

But i wasn't expecting what would happen next.

"Here."

My eyes widen when one of the transfer students gave me my wallet. He also offered his hand to help me get up.

Is this... are they faking it?

I was hesitant to take his hand, what if they pull a silly prank? But my hand moved on it's own and took his hand.

'One...two... three'

-and then nothing happened. My eyes softened as the blonde boy gave me a small smile

"O-oh.. my friend told me to give you this. It's a cookie. she thought you might skip lunch break again..." he offered me a cookie as the girl, who i assumed wanted to give me the cookie. Was behind him hiding with his other friend.

"Oh.. thank you.. uh.."

"Armin! She's Mikasa.. and beside her is Eren"

"Oh,i see. Thank you Armin, Mikasa.. and Eren." I bowed a little and ran for my life.

'She thought you might skip lunch break again' they noticed? The blonde boy- Armin was pretty nervous while talking to me as i hear him stutter. Was he scared because he might involve himself to my current issues i'm facing? If so, why did they gave me a cookie..?

I sighed as i stared at the cookie.. i took a bite and was amazed by it's taste! Where did they buy this? This is DELICIOUS!

I was sitting alone at one of the benches in our school's campus, i took a photo of the cookie and sent it to Levi

"Cowkie. 👽🍪"
-Y/n

I laughed at my messege, imagining what his reply will be.

It would probably be like:

"I don't give a shit with that nasty cookie of yours you dirty idiot."

A small chuckle left my mouth as i took another bite of the cookie, then another, until i finished all the cookies. Our next period will be just our clubs for the rest of the day, i didn't join any specific clubs so i can just do random things and talk to Levi or read something.

As i was waiting for Levi's reply and watching random things in tiktok, i sensed that someone was approaching me from behind.

"Another art?" My eyes widen as i look at the person in fear

.. Miya

I immiedietly covered my wrist, i didn't realize that i rolled my sleeves up since it was getting hot. Fuck.

I managed to stay silent and was ready to leave but i felt her hand grabbed my wrist.. tight

I let out a whimper, this fucking bitch.

I tried to get rid of her filthy hands on my wrist as it was really hurting. I cut my wrist earlier since i was feeling numb i again. I can feel my blood leaving my skin. Holy shit

"Why are you doing this?" She said as she tightened her grip.

'Too much blood is coming out Y/n.. how deep is your cut?!'

I stared at her eyes, but i can't think of what her face is showing. Worried? Mad? Satisfied? My head felt light.

It's making me feel like passing out- i-i think i'm panicking too much.

I noticed that there were some of her friends with her, but not beside her. This is the first time that this happened. Ofcourse i would panic and get anxious. But holy shit- i feel like ending everything right now.

"Are you really that depressed?" She asked once again, but i can't feel any pity or concern.

'Yes, isn't that obvious?'

"Why won't you speak?" Well you dumb fuck, you're like humiliating me right now. It's making me anxious.

Silence.. there was this creepy silence between us.

If i speak would she leave me alone? She finally let my wrist leave her grip, but i realize that their were some blood on her hand. My blood.

God did i cut that deep?!

As i tried to walk away, i can definitely feel the stares, hear their voices that's talking about me. Are they that obsessed with me?

Fucking shit my legs are getting weaker and weaker- atleast find a bench near you Y/n!

As I finally get to seat at a nearby bench, i can feel my body get weaker and weaker

I shouldn't have cut my wrist at lunch break..
Now this shit is happening.

I just decided to close my eyes for a minute. Just one minute.. and then i'll go to the restroom.. just one minute.

"H-hello? Are you Y/n's friend? She's.. we need your help."

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