The coffee pot beeps and I grab my usual of vodka coffee. Alfred is taking a shower so I have a few moments to myself. I don't normally, because Alfred and I the last three weeks have spent almost all our time together.

I've loved his company, and I wish that it can last forever. But when I turn to the widow to gaze out of it, I'm hit by reality.

I can see most of the snow has melted, and I can see the trees in the distance. Alfred will be going home now.

But what if he never comes back? Will he come back? Will he still like me? Will he remember me? Will he still want to-

Stop.

I physically shake my head to rid myself of these thoughts. Alfred will still love me, we just won't be able to spend every moment of our lives together, that is all.

"You okay dude?" I'm jerked from my thoughts as Alfred comes to stand before me, gazing at me intently.

"Huh? Oh I was just looking out the window." I avoid his gaze.

"Why? It's just sn-" He turns and looks out the window, noticing the trees.

I can't help but feel happy when his face falls but I immediately feel guilty at seeing his displeasure.

"You will get to go home now da?" I try to keep my voice light, and it almost breaks. Think happy thoughts. He will finally be able to catch up on work, see his people and country, hang out with Mathew and fix their relationship. He will no longer be homesick. This is good.

"Yeah..." I can tell he isn't happy, and I'm sure he can tell I'm not happy either, but still Alfred goes into his room and I sit at the kitchen island.

When Alfred appears again he is in his normal clothes. We are silent as we walk out to my van.

We are silent as I turn on the van and pull out of the garage.

We are silent as we drive down the highway.

We are silent the entire trip until we are just an hour away from Alfred's house.

That's when Alfred breaks the silence. "Thanks for letting me stay dude. I really appreciate it." His voice is flat and he looks out his window.

"Yeah. You are welcome over anytime." I grio the steering wheel, and I have to hold back tears. It's not forever, its not forever, ITS NOT FOREVER!

But God, it already feels like it is.

It's silent again, and I stop in front of his house. "I guess dis is goodbye for now?"

"I guess. I'll see you later." He moves to get out, but I grab him and give him one final kiss the tears slowly falling. I don't care anymore. Let them fall.

"I'll see you soon Sunflower."

I can see Alfred wipe at his eyes as he leaves the van, and I drive off. Looking in my rearview mirror Alfred still stands there waving, and I keep driving.

I don't look back again. I just keep looking forward. Many times I thought of him on my way home and ended up hitting my steering wheel, then having to pull over and contain myself.

The trip home was a long one but when I finally return home it's silent and cold.

I grab a bottle of vodka and sit on my living room couch. Taking a gulp, I hear the office phone ring.

Grudgingly, I get up to answer it. "Hello dis is Ivan."

"Hey Ivan I uh... I just wanted to make sure you got home safe..." I light up at the sound of Alfred's voice on the other end.

"Ah yes I did dank you!"

That night we spent hours taking on the phone as if we hadn't seen each other in years. It felt like that even thought it had only been hours. But I guess that what happens when you fall in love with your ex-enemy.

~AN~
Sorry it's short xD and sorry it's complete xD hopefully you all enjoyed the story? I'm not sure I like this ending.... I might change it... But I don't think I'm going to do a sequal. Instead I'm going to work on another RusAme fic soon. Hope you all enjoy, let me know what you think, and sweet dreams! ( sorry if there are grammar errors, I'm too lazy to reread it -w- )
~Blü~

BTW:
Ivan = Russia
Mathew = Canada
Alfred = America