WARNING: contains scenes of sex, drugs, rock and/or roll.

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Chapter 14

Today, Josh woke up a long time before me. He even had time to go out for a bit. when he came home, he went up to the dining room and instantly and ran over to where there was a calendar hanging on the wall.

"Its so close!" Josh exclaimed as he crossed off a little square that said 'September 30th', with a red marker.

"Please don't yell." I said as I let my head hit the table. "I have a headache.

"Sorry. I'm just excited." he said. "And maybe if you didn't bang your forehead off the table, that wouldn't happen." He pointed out.

"Why are you so excited this early in the morning?" I asked

"Because, we are going to have sex" he said sarcastically

"What? I asked.

"I'm kidding. The Fix Me release date is so close!" Josh was practically screaming.

"Your inner fangirl is coming out." I said "please try to contain yourself".

"But Fix Me comes out on October 3rd, and someone's birthday is on October 4th!" He said pointing at me.

"I told you I have a headache." I wined.

"I'm so sorry." Josh said. Then he came over and crushed his lips into mine.

We broke away when Josh's parents walked in.

"Hey kids" Corlynn said

"Hey mom" Josh said as they both joined me at the table.

"No work today mom?" Josh asked.

"Nope, I have the next few days off" she said, then turned to me "so how is everything, Whitney?"

"Fine" I shrugged, and then let out a dry cough.

Josh looked in my direction, and then looked over to his mother. "Mom" Josh said "can we talk?".

"Of course, honey." She said touching his hand.

I felt like that was my invitation to leave the room.

"I'm going to go get some water" I said getting out of my seat.

I trotted into the kitchen, where Miles was drinking a glass of orange juice. I turned on the tap, so I could let the cold water run.

"Off to work, Miles?" I asked.

He looked at his watch. "yup, better get going or I'll be late. See you later." He said, then walked off.

I filled my glass with water, and took a few sips. I was unsure of what Josh and his mom were talking about, and it was feeling a bit awkward staying in the kitchen for such a long time. I walked over to the doorway of the dining room, to see if they were done talking. I looked at Josh, and he nodded as if to tell me that the coast is clear. I took another sip of water as I walked back into the dining room. My intention was to sit in the chair that I was originally sitting in, but Josh had other ideas. On my way back, he wrapped his arm around my waist, and pulled me into his lap, almost spilling my water.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"I just wanted a bit of your water" he said as he snatched the glass out of my hand and drank the whole thing.

"Ass" I said as he handed me the empty glass.

I still don't know what Josh told Corlynn, but it might have been about us dating. I don't think she knows yet, but I think she might have gotten a hint, since we're together 24/7. Even if Josh didn't tell her, she might know now that me and him are acting like a typical teenage couple right in front of her.

Corlynn just smiled at us. "I'll be right back guys, I have to show you something." she said.

"What did you tell her?" I asked as she left the room.

"Nothing! We were having a mother and son talk. That is none of your concern." He said jokingly.

I punched him in the shoulder "I'm serious, faggot".

"Okay then... I told her everything."

"Everything?" I asked

"Everything. From your brother, to you living here, to us dating..." He said

"And she's okay with it all?" I asked

"She's actually really happy. I think its because you're the first girlfriend I've had ever since rehab. Well, you're the first that I've brought home. She's Just proud that I can even speak to a girl without being under the influence of alcohol."

"So we are official now?" I said jumping out of his lap.

"Yes!" He said jumping off of his chair.

He ran over, and lifted me off my feet. He spun me around multiple times before putting me back on the floor. Then he kissed me. Our first kiss ever since we've been official.

"Awe" Corlynn said.

We didn't even notice she was standing there. I sat back down on Josh's lap, and Corlynn sat beside us, so she could show me what she wanted to show me.

"Now that I'm certain you guys are together, I have to show Whitney something." She said smiling.

She pulled out a photo album that was labeled 'Josh' and opened it to the first page.

"MOM, NO!" Josh yelled, as he desperately tried to grab the album from his mother.

"Joshua Ramsay. This is your first serious girlfriend, I don't think she will judge you by your baby pictures. Stop being so dramatic." She said.

"Whitney, will you give me a kiss? When this is over, you're never going to kiss me again" he sobbed.

"Okay, only because I feel bad for you" I said giving him a kiss.

"You're going to ruin my life, mom" he said, and then put his forehead on my back.

"Last time I checked, I raised a boy, not a drama queen" she said.

"Well judging by this photo, you did raise a boy" I said as I pointed to a photo of Josh in the bathtub. Me and Corlynn just laughed at Josh's discomfort.

"I think that's enough, mom" Josh insisted.

"Aww look at Josh! How old are you here?" I asked, pointing to a picture.

"That was when I was a fat 16 year old." He said. "Before heroin and bulimia"

"You weren't even fat" I said.

"Well compared to you, I was a cow" he said.

We all started laughing, and continued looking at his photos. They we're all pretty cute and embarrassing. By the time we were finished looking at photos, we were all sitting in our own chairs, and Josh looked like he was about to have an emotional breakdown.

"At least now I know that your actually a boy" I said laughing.

"Please be quiet" he said.

"So how long have you guys been dating?" Corlynn asked.

"Hmm. About a year, maybe" Josh replied.

"And you haven't.. Um.. Slept together?"

"Oh my god mom." Josh said putting his head in his hands.

"What? I'm your mother, and this is my house. I think I have the right to know." She said.

I kind of blushed a little.

"I'm not having this conversation with you, mom." Josh said.

"Fine, Whitney will tell me" she said turning to me.

"Umm. I. Ah..." I didn't really want to discuss this with his mom.

"Go on" she said.

"No mom, we did not have sex yet..." Josh said rolling his eyes. "Come on Whitney." Josh said, grabbing his sweater, and then grabbing my hand.

"Love you!" His mom called after him.

"Well that was awkward" Josh said sitting down on his bed.

"I know right" I said doing the same... "So..."

"So.." He mocked.

"What did you mean when you said that?" I asked.

"Said what?" He asked.

"You know." I said.

"When I said that we didn't have sex?" He asked.

"You didn't say that" I said. "You said we didn't have sex 'yet'."

"Well its true. We didn't have sex yet. But we've been dating for almost a year now. Its going to happen sooner or later" he said, walking over to his dresser. "hopefully sooner" he whispered under his breath.

"What did you say?" I asked.

"Nothing!" He said pulling out his top drawer, where he keeps his socks and underwear.

"What are you doing? I asked, trying to get a glimpse.

"Nothing!" He said laughing, then Josh grabbed his sweater and took something out of the pocket, then he put it in the drawer.

"What is that?" I asked

"Nothing" he said closing the dresser drawer.

"What am I, 5? I obviously know that 'nothing' means something."

"I know. I'm sorry. Anyways, where were we?" He asked

"I was just about to see what you put in your drawer" I said about to walk past him.

"Why is it such a big deal?" He said, then jumped in front of me.

"What are you hiding?" I asked.

"Nothing! I promise!" He said.

Corlynn came to the top of the stairs and shouted "Josh, I'm going out! But can you come here for a second, please"

"I'm busy mom!" He shouted back

"Joshua Ramsay!"

"Okay mom!" He yelled "Whitney, please just sit on the bed. I'll be right back".

"Fine" I said, while he ran out of the room. "That boy must be stupid if he thinks I'm gonna do what he says" I said to myself.

I walked over to his dresser, and opened the top drawer. I shuffled around until I found it. A box of condoms? I almost burst out laughing. I opened the box and took one out.

"Hey! What are you doing?" Josh yelled from behind me.

"Really Josh? Condoms?" I waved one around in his face.

He snatched it from me and slipped it into his pocket. "I told you to stay on the bed" he said

"I'm not your dog" I said. "where did you even get those?

"Mike gave them to me this morning." He said.

"Why?" I asked

"Why the fuck do you ask so many questions?" He said laughing.

"I'm just curious" I said.

"I asked him to buy them for me."

"Oh. I'm guessing that's why you said that we didn't have sex 'yet'. You were planning it" I said.

"That's one way to say it" he said while closing his dresser drawer.

"How many girls did you do it with?" I asked

"Come on, Whitney. You know what I was like back then. I would get drunk and try to get a girl. Honestly, it only worked twice" he replied.

"Oh". I said.

I walked over to Josh's bed so I could lay down, and Josh came to join me. There was a short uncomfortable silence before Josh sat back up. I thought he was going to leave, so I panicked. I grabbed the collar of his shirt and pulled him back. When he turned around and began to ask what I was doing, I attacked him with a huge kiss. We didn't stop until I was sure he wasn't going to leave. He slipped his tongue in my mouth, and I felt the little metal ball roll around. He was playing with the bottom of my shirt, and it was slowly rising. I looked up and gave him a nod, as if to give him the 'o.k.' I didn't hesitate to let him take my shirt off, and then I helped him take his off. but when Josh's hands were making their way up to my bra, I stopped him.

"Josh" I said while he was kissing my neck

"Mhm?" He said, continuing to kiss me.

"I'm a virgin". I just came right out and said it. I didn't beat around the bush, I just said it.

"Oh. Did you want to stay that way?" He looked kind of disappointed.

"I don't know" I said. "I just don't want to get my heart broken." I said.

"Whitney, we have been together for almost a year. I haven't hurt you, and I didn't force you to do anything you didn't want to do. If you don't want to do this, its perfectly fine. But I certainly will not break your heart." He said "and might I add, you look really good with your shirt off."

I just laughed and pressed my lips back into his. I didn't protest when he undid my pants and bra, or when he was playing with the hem of my underwear. I didn't even stop him when he reached for the condom in his pocket. For a man who has been in rehab for six months, plus being with me for a year, he still knows what to do with his hands. I was sitting on his lap, while he messed around with the button of his pants.

"Ready?" He asked

"Ready as I'll ever be" I said.

I took a breath As he slowly eased himself in. It hurt at first, so I made him stop a few times.

"We can stop if you want to" he said.

"No, I'm fine" I said

After a while, it doesn't hurt anymore. It actually feels pleasurable. I started to grind and roll my hips against him, which he seemed to enjoy.

"For a first timer, you sure do know what you're doing". Josh said.

When it was over, me and Josh just covered up in a sheet and talked, while he played with my hair.

"I must tell Mike that I love him the next time I see him" Josh said

"Yeah." I said. "Tell me about some of your other girlfriends"

"What? Why?" He asked.

"I'm just curious." I said.

"All my relationships were just physical back then" he said.

"That's okay. Just tell me about the girls"

"I can only really remember one. The first day we met, it wasn't under very good circumstances. I almost hit her with my car."

"Josh, you-"

He put his finger to my lips, and continued.

"The weird thing about her was that she already knew my name. I later found out that her uncle works with 604 records. After that, I find out that she is one of the most talented guitarists I've ever heard. All I know is that, I don't think that I would believe in love at first sight if it wasn't for her." He said, as he placed a gentle kiss on my forehead. "And she is wild when it comes to sex, especially for the first time"

"Shut up" I said " if my first time had to be with anyone, I'm glad that it was with you. I said.

"I'll be your one and only" he said with a supid smile.

We laid back down, and I starred at the ceiling until I fell asleep in Josh's arms