Rose point of view

I would have never imagine kissing a complete stranger would be so great. Dimitri 's lips were so warm against my own as we kissed. I did understand now when Lissa said that the attraction we had was there. I felt pulled to him more than ever as I couldn't explain myself. I needed him, and some where deep within me I knew he wanted me close to him as well. Something in me was pushing me to back away and I did.

" This is wrong, I don't know you," I said as I walked to were my bag was, but I was stopped by Dimitri.

" You can't say you don't know me when your body felt so calm in my arms"

" things are not always what they seem," I said as I placed my shirt on me and strapped my bag over me.

"You're trying to fool yourself, tell that to someone who would believe you, " Dimitri kind of yelled.

"Well maybe the cabin was a mistake," I said and walked out the gym as fast as I could not caring where I went.

I went straight to my room and quickly took a shower. I changed into something simple, but by the look of my closet, I had a lot to choose from.

" How could I have kissed him" I thought to myself as I walked around the palace.

I quickly stopped when I saw the music room, and smiled when I saw the piano.

I sat in the piano bench and opened the keyboard and passed my hands threw it as I remember Mrs. Dragomir as she thought Lissa and I how to play until we were able to play on our own. Mrs. Dragomir took more interest in me as she saw the some what talent she recalled I had.

I couldn't explain how I knew this song but I didn't stop myself as I closed my eyes and started playing.

I'm not a stranger, no, I am yours

With crippled anger and tears that still drip sore

A fragile frame aged with misery

And when our eyes meet I know you'll see

I do not wanna be afraid

I do not wanna die inside just to breathe in

I'm tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists, I find it when I am cut

I may seem crazy or painfully shy

And these scars wouldn't be so hidden

If you would just look me in the eye

I feel alone here and cold here

Though I don't want to die

But the only anesthetic

That makes me feel anything kills inside

I do not wanna be afraid

I do not wanna die inside just to breathe in

I'm tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists, I find it when I am cut

Pain, I am not alone, I am not alone

Not a stranger, no, I am yours

With crippled anger

Tears that still drip sore

But I do not wanna be afraid

I do not wanna die inside just to breathe in

I'm tired of feeling so numb

Relief exists, I found it when

I was cut

As I finished playing a knot had formed in my throat. I felt overwhelmed and I cried. I cried for the fact that I felt like this for Dimitri. I felt this love, I felt like it had been there forever, like finding your other half. I suddenly felt a hand in my shoulder and I saw my mother standing there.

" you sounded beautiful baby," my mom said as she kissed my hair.

Her reaction only made me cried more as I never experienced this kind of love from her.

" Why now," I thought to myself.

My mother continued to hug me as I kept crying.

" Just let it all out. Don't keep nothing in," my mother said in a some what shaky voice.

"Rose," I heard Lissa, as she lean in front of me and took my hands in hers.

" I can't keep living like this, my head is exploiting with so much events. I have this guy that I don't remember but my heart and body say otherwise. All of a sudden I became the head guardian and you became queen. I know I'm not usually like this but I need some time away from all of this," I said .

" Fine, we could leave. Pick the place," Lissa said as she handed me her phone so I could pick the place.

I quickly gave the phone back to her, she wasn't understanding. I want this for me, she couldn't come.

"Lissa you don't count, I'm sorry. I know your my charge and I can't go out without you. But I want to be by myself. I promise you this that I will personally come back to you when I remember everything." I told Lissa as I tried not to hurt her feelings.

Lissa looked hurt but she quickly hide it.

" But... Fine just promise me you'll keep in touch. I trust you with this. I'll make something up to the guardian counsil" Lissa said as she tried her best to not argue with me.

" thank you so much," I told her as I took her into my arms then I quickly left to pack.

I started packing my things quickly, because I didn't want to waste any more time. The faster I packed the quicker I'll be out of here.

My train of thoughts broke when someone slammed the door of my room.

" why are you doing this!?" Someone said with a heavy Russian accent.

I didn't have to even guess who it was because I knew it was Dimitri, I smelled his after shave.

" I don't need to ask you permission last time I checked," I said as I finished packing as I closed my bag.

" why are you pushing yourself away from me?" Dimitri said as he turned me around so we could see each other.

I was silent the entire time because I didn't want his words to change my mindset.

" I can't understand is why your lying to yourself?. Why are you denying what you feel?. The way your body and mine want one another. The way our hearts become one as they speed up," Dimitri said as he took my hands in his which made my heart race.

I quickly took my hands away from his.

"That's my heart, not my mind. You shouldn't be the one coming to me about this, you were the one that rejected me after I did my best to bring you back," I said as I took my hands out of his and I quickly stripped my bag over me.

Dimitri just stood there shocked as if he couldn't believe what had come out of my mouth.

I was almost out the door. But I stopped. And looking back at him, I knew that the words I was about to say would hurt him.

" Love fades mine has," I said as I walked out.