"You act the way you act and you expect me to like you?!" I scream at him, slowly seeing him break from my words.

"Act like what? Like someone who's always there for you? Someone who cares? Well then yes, I did. I actually did." His eyes aren't sparkling anymore, and it hurts me to know that I'm the reason for that.

"Well, what the hell made you think that?" I question him. Except, I know the answer. It's everything I do. The way I always try to be around him and the way we always sneak around together. It's the way I look at him when he says something stupid, or the way I look at him when I catch him looking at me. It's the way my heart flutters when he says my name and the way my heart breaks when he says someone else's.

And he knows it, because he says exactly that.

"The way you look at me says otherwise, Josephine. Everything you do, fucking says otherwise! Are you really going to try and just stand there, trying to convince me that none of it was real?" His voice cracks. So does my heart.

"Yes! Because it wasn't. None of it was. You're nothing that I would want. You're messy and you're with a new girl every other week. You party all the time, and you and your friends are rude and immature. You are nothing that I like, and you're no one I can see myself with."

"You can't fucking be serious Josephine! Who was there for you three years ago when you got your heartbroken and needed someone to hold you every night when you couldn't stop sobbing? Me, I was! Who helps you get home when you're drunk from partying and make sure that you are safe in bed? And holds your hair up while you're vomiting? Me, i do. I'm always the first one to call you on you're birthday and the first one to show you I care when no one else does."

I have never seen Hero so upset, yet angry at the same time. It frightens me, and he continues.

"How the fuck can you say all these things? And mean it! You know none of what you said was true, and if you think it is, you're insane."

"Then I guess I'm insane, Hero. You shouldn't be there for me, you don't need to be. And you know what? I never wanted you to be either. So leave. I don't know what you thought this was, but whatever you thought you are way in over your head. I don't want you. I never have, never will. So please, go. It's in your best interest." My voice cracks a little, but I think I hid it well. Because within a blink of an eye, he was gone.

"Why the hell would you do that" I hear Anna say as she creeps her way from outside her bedroom.

I break down crying. I'm stunned. I can't believe I just did that. But I did it because I can't be with him, not because I don't want to. I love him with all of me. It consumes me. I have never felt this way about anyone before. If I were to ever break his heart, or lose him, I'd lose myself. He's too good for me. And I'm too scared to give myself another chance at this stupid four-letter word called love.

I didn't even know I was speaking out loud, but I guess I was. Or maybe Anna's a mind reader? Because before I knew it she was already giving me the advice I didn't want, but needed.

"Love isn't stupid, Jo. I know you're scared, but you can't hide from it forever. He loves you, Jo. Can't you see it? And you love him. So give him a chance now. Because if you don't, and you keep on pushing him away, one day it might work for good. And once he's gone, you're going to look back and regret the fact that you never gave yourself the chance to love him. And when that day comes, you won't be able to pull him back."

And that's all I needed to hear. 

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