Exactly three days after our birthday, me and Hope were watching the telly when Rebekah came in and told us she wanted to talk to us. She turned the telly off so I could tell it was serious. She said she was leaving tomorrow and we wouldn't see her for a while, I looked at Hope, we were both very upset and confused. We had never been without Rebekah, Hope started crying, I was sad but weirdly I never really cried. Rebekah took a big breath, I remember her words actually,
'But don't be sad because,' she paused for suspense, 'Your mum and Jackson are coming to live here with you'
I felt a sense of both happiness and sadness. I was sad about Rebekah leaving because she was like a mother to me. But I was also happy to live with my real Mum but I always felt like I was a burden to her, she never really tried to spend time with me. Hayley hardly ever phoned and when she did it was late at night when I was in bed. I had never met Jackson but Rebekah had told me about him, she said he was nice and good for Mum.

We went to bed that night, Hope was really excited and could stop smiling all day but I felt bad for Rebekah I could tell she didn't want to go, and I didn't want her to go, I felt safe with her. I told her all my worries and secrets but I never really spoke with Mum. I didn't sleep much that night, I was confused about my feeling. I was happy, sad and confused, I felt every emotion in one night. I was wondering why we even still need to be in hiding, nothing had happened since our birth. Maybe people would care if me and Hope were alive.