Hello ..umm me? Well whoever is reading this.. this is a note to tell you what happened to make me do this.
It all started with a drunken mistake, don't get me wrong i loved my baby. My angel. He killed her. He killed her. I remember it all so vividly. it all happened a little over a year and a half ago. The memory burns my brain again. This is the story i kept from everyone. The reason I'm taking my own life.

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It was friday. All of my classes were finished for the day. I started the walk back to the male gryffendor dorms when ron and a few other gryff boys ran up to me, "harry, harry are you going to the party at at ravenclaw tower?" Ron asked me. "nah ron i promised i would study for the potions quiz with 'mione." I explained. "Oh come on harry all you do is study come have some fun with you bros! Plus i herd only the hottest witches and wizards" i could tell he had only add the part about wizards because i came out of the broom closet the beginning of this year. I let out a sigh "alright" i mumbled. "okay its on saturday. At 12" ron said excitedly and ran off.

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12 o'clock quickly. I felt i looked nice, aparentaly so did a few other. Exspecaly one boy who kept winking at me. He was cute. A hour later all the second hand weed smoke got to me and i was swaying to the music. I felt grinding on my behind and i reconised him as Alexander Denafray a pureblood ravenclaw but with all sence lost i just giggled and exepted the arm around my waist and the dance of tounges he offered.

That night my virginity was lost i could tell he didn't use a comdom, evan with all my pushes for him to put one on.

Over the next few helish weeks of sickness when i finally went to the school nurse. She cast a dianosis spell on me, and paused and asked "mr.potter have you been sexually active with in the past two months?" I stoped.... had he given me an STD " umm yes." I said back to her. "Mr.potter your pregnant"

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"you should abort it"

"Her" i growled.

"No its a bastered, and i will not be around it." Alex said

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I was quickly appoching my last two weeks to my due date. I was so large now, i only waddle now. My god father was probably the second most exited exept from me, he was all ways rudding my back, stomach and, neck. He gave my stomach a light rub and told me he was leaving for the day. I okayed it and walked in the kitchen and ate something. I rubbed my stomach and said "I feel you kicking, little angel Don't worry 'bout the sorrow Cause Mummy's gonna be right here until you see tomorrow I feel your life in my stomach I promise I'll protect it cause nobody comes above it And though your daddy wants to take your life away You should know I'll never let him, cause I tell him everyday "You see this life in my stomach, regardless if you help me as a father I'mma love it.""

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The was a fast rap at the door. I opened it to see Alexander standing there, he looked on edge, "harry look I'm sure we could talk this through and get a solution a-"he was interupted quickly by me "I'm not aborting my baby." I said quickly. "harry calm dow-" he tried to say. "Get the fuck out of my house" i yelled pushing him down fearing the next look on his face i tried to shut the door. He stoped the door from shutting and being stronger than me he pushed the door open "oh now you've really done it" he yelled. He -he kicked me in the stomach. I fell on the floor, i let out a scream in pain i looked inbetween my legs there was a progressing puddle of blood. I tried to crawl to the phone. He pulled me up by my hair "good bye little kiddie" and he kicked me again and again and again. The pain was so intense i passed out

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I woke up to my god father screaming. The white of the room blinded my eyes. A hospital. The memories can flooding back. The doctors said five words that broke my world.

"The child didn't make it"

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I stood infront of a podium. All my friends and family stood in front of me.

"I felt you kicking, little angel i told you Don't worry 'bout the sorrow Cause, Mummy was right here waiting to see you tomorrow I felt your life leaving my stomach I promised I'd protect you, cause nobody comes above it, And though your daddy took your life away You should know I'll never wanted to let him, cause I told him everyday "You see this life in my stomach, regardless if you help me as a father I'mma love it.""