It was about 8 a.m when Yok got a call from Gumpa. Yok immediately answered it as he began to get his shoes on.

"Yok your friend is currently being held in the emergency room because he was self-harming and feeling suicidal." Gumpa explained." I'll text you the address but you need to prepare yourself to see something you don't want to."

"I don't care what he did to himself. I don't care what I might see. I have to get him back." Yok said.

"Think rationally. He is going to be under close watch. There will likely be a nurse in his room at all times. You can't get to him without exposing yourself." Gumpa said.

"Gumpa I say this respectfully I do not care what I have to do or who I have to hurt to get Ayan," Yok said.

Yok could hear Gumpa sigh and mutter something about none of the boys listening to him. He couldn't be bothered to care though. Yok truly didn't care what he had to do to get Ayan back.

"I won't bail you out of jail this time Yok." Gumpa lectured." I told you the last time you did something stupid I wouldn't bail you out. I see you like a son but this is so careless I can't even support you in this."

"Don't worry Gumpa. I'm not going to get arrested. To be fair when I did get arrested before the Tawi incident it was just for stealing some food." Yok said.

"Yok you are trying to take a person. That will be a heftier charge. I'm sure you already know this though." Gumpa said.

Yok did already know. He had known ever since the trial how long a sentence for kidnapping would be. He had to take a few deep breaths to stop himself from remembering the events leading up to the trial. Yok started feeling like the collar of his shirt was choking him. He couldn't breathe properly and he felt himself shaking slightly. He felt like he was back in that van waiting to die.

"Yok... Listen to me. You need to calm down. You are safe no one can hurt you right now." Gumpa said.

It took a long few minutes for Yok to finally calm down but once he did he mumbled out an apology to Gumpa. Gumpa just brushed it off and told him to take it easy.

"Have you ever considered seeking therapy? Sure we are all criminals and most wouldn't agree with how we did things but it might be helpful." Gumpa said." You could get medicine for your anxiety."

"I hate talking to people. It's pointless. I'm fine without medicine." Yok snapped before hanging up the phone.

Once he got the address from Gumpa Yok hurriedly left his house. He knew there was a high chance of getting caught but he didn't care. Yok needed Ayan.

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Ayan was sitting on the bathroom floor. The only time he didn't have somebody watching his every move was when he went to the bathroom. Khan and Wat were stupid for that. The nurses were stupid for that. Ayan would spend as long as he could in the bathroom trying to figure out if he could use anything to self-harm.

Last night it had occurred to him that there was a slim chance he could break the mirror. So he carefully got off the floor and looked in the mirror. Ayan knew that if he did break the mirror he would have to be quick to hide a shard in his hospital clothes. He knew he would only have a limited amount of time to get what he wanted.

Ayan took a deep breath and punched the mirror as hard as he could. He was a bit surprised it hadn't broken. He tried, again and again, to get the mirror to break but it wouldn't. He couldn't stop himself from crying as he kept punching the mirror. Ayan was so focused on trying to break the mirror he hadn't even noticed Yok had shown up.

"Aye stop," Yok said.

Ayan froze where he was standing. He didn't want to look at Yok. He didn't want to speak to Yok. He didn't want to be near him. Ayan didn't want Yok to know how bad he was doing. He didn't want Yok to see him like this. He wanted to keep his mental health hidden from Yok but he couldn't stop himself from panicking.

"Aye come with me please," Yok begged." I'll take you somewhere safe I promise."

"Leave me alone..." Ayan said quietly.

"Ayan I'm going to fix everything I did wrong." Yok began as he carefully got closer to Ayan.

Yok didn't want to upset Ayan more. He knew he had to be careful. He could see how Ayan was becoming more and more anxious and Yok didn't know what to do.

"You just have to come with me okay Ayan?" Yok said.

Ayan looked down and saw Yok had a pocket knife on him. He saw it was within reach. Without much hesitation, Ayan grabbed the pocket knife and rushed to step further back from Yok. He opened the knife up as Yok just stood there in slight shock.

"Ayan. Give it back." Yok said.

He tried to take a step towards Ayan but stopped when Ayan held the knife to his wrist. Yok didn't know what to do. Ayan wasn't cutting but he had the knife. Ayan wasn't saying anything he was just staring at him.

"Ayan I need you to give me the knife," Yok said.

"You... You left me... You let me believe for years that you committed suicide..." Ayan began." You abandoned me... You left after you promised to stay by my side... Do you even know the pain I went through all these years?"

"I'm sorry Ayan I never meant to hurt you," Yok said.

"I have tried so many times to kill myself. I stopped taking care of myself. I can't even be left alone anymore." Ayan explained." When I was finally getting better I had to hear about how you and your new friends committed all those crimes... I had to see that you were living happily while I was suffering... Then when I find you again you pushed me away... And now? Now that I'm in the hospital you show up and try to get me to go with you?"

Yok couldn't stop himself from crying. He had never meant to hurt Ayan. All he had wanted was to be away from the things he had done. He never imagined that by leaving he would hurt Ayan this much.

"Why the hell are you crying!!! You are the one who caused this!!! You are the one who broke me!!!." Ayan screamed." Did you even care about me!?!"

"I do! I still care about you Ayan!" Yok shouted." I never stopped caring about you even when I left!"

Ayan was stunned by what Yok had said. He froze just long enough for Yok to get the knife and try to run out of the bathroom. He was a bit shocked when Yok was shoved back into the bathroom and Khan and Wat entered after him.

"Khan take Ayan out of here," Wat said.

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Once Khan and Wat made sure Ayan was safe and with a nurse they dragged Yok out of the hospital. Yok just let them. It was at that moment he knew he should've listened to Gumpa.

Once they were outside Yok immediately dug got out a cigarette and began to smoke. He wasn't going to talk until one of them talked. He wasn't going to look at either of them. He just couldn't look at his old friends after all he had done. Suddenly Wat turned Yok to face him and that was when Yok broke and began to sob.

"So it really is you..." Khan said quietly.

Before Yok could respond Wat shoved him to the ground.

"You bastard!!! Why the hell did you leave!?! Do you even know how much shit we all have been through since you left!?!" Wat screamed.

Yok didn't say anything he just stayed on the ground letting Wat scream at him. He deserved it. He hurt Ayan so much by leaving.

"Do you know the number of times I have found Ayan after his suicide attempts!?!" Wat shouted." We all thought you were fucking dead!!!"

Yok had expected this type of reaction from Khan but he didn't think Wat would snap like this. He didn't know that his actions would hurt Khan and Wat. He only thought about Ayan and his parents. He didn't once think that Khan and Wat would be hurt. He felt like such a terrible person.

"Say something!!!" Wat screamed.

"I'm sorry..." Yok said.

"Why Akk?" Khan asked.

"I got outed in front of everyone!! Everything I did for Suppalo was exposed!! For days after that so many people treated me like trash!!! Then when that meeting about what I did happened..." Yok shouted." The principal said my sexuality was an abomination. That I was abnormal. I got expelled... How was I supposed to face you guys or Ayan or my parents!?! And for the record, I was going to kill myself that day..."