Chapter Nineteen

*Rap Monster's POV*

It's been a week since it was announced she was in a coma. I had thrown myself into work, forgetting about anything. I seemed normal to fans, but as soon as we left I was silent. Some fans asked how she was, as news had gotten out about her. Our reply was that she was fine, so it didn't worry the fans.

"Hyung," Jimin nudged me. "Listen."

"Namjoon," the manager pulled me aside. "I know you're worried, and you're throwing yourself into work, but you have to be careful. Don't hurt yourself." He said. 

"I'm fine." I simply said. 

"Ah the sentence that tells everyone you're not fine," he joked. "We're done today. Go, I know you want to go to her, just go. But promise me you'll be careful. don't let your feelings get in the way of your work," he said flatly. "I know what it's like to be your age and be in love. But you know it's not really allowed." He said. 

"I promise I'll be careful." I said. "Thank you," I said as I ran from the room. 

"Where are you going?" Jin asked. 

"Hospital, come on." I said. 

"You seem cheery what's the matter with you?" V asked. To be honest, I had a good feeling. I felt like, she would wake up. 

"Just in a good mood," I said. 

Half an hour later we arrived in her room, but there was no change in her. This pulled at my heart. I could see her small bumb under the covers, it was starting to get bigger and bigger. It was cute.

"Keep hoping, she'll wake up soon," V said. I hung my head and sat beside her. Matty appeared a few minutes later with a McDonalds in his hands. 

"Oh, I didn't know you were here or I would have got you something," he said. 

"No it's fine," Jin said as he muched on his burger. 

"Thank god she isn't awake right now or she would be yelling at me to get this burger away from her," he joked. This lightened the mood a little, but it didn't take away from the fact there was no change. 

"Does anyone want these fries? I don't really want them..." he said sipping on his drink. V and J-Hope argued over the fries, but ended up sharing them. Well, throwing them at one another. Jimin got a video, with Jungkook laughing his butt off. Amidst all the laughter, I found myself spacing out. 

"Hyung, we're going back to the dorm. We have an early start," Jungkook said. 

"Yeah alright," I said, as Matty followed us. He wanted to sleep in his bed tonight as he hadn't got much sleep in the past week either. 

"She'll be alright here for a night without me right?" He asked Nurse Hun. 

"You, go. Or I'm admitting you to a room myself. Sleep. She's going to be fine." She said slapping our heads away. "Go!" She shouted again. 

*A month later* 

She still hadn't woke up. She was healthy, she was getting all the nutrients and stuff she needed, but her body was unresponsive to everything else. But she was still alive. 

"Alright, one more time!" Our dance teacher shouted to us. "Then you can go home." He said. It was now the beginning of December. Jin's birthday was a few days ago, and we had all had a party. Well, everyone except Jungkook, he wasn't old enough for what we had planned for the night, poor baby. 

After running through it once more, everyone collapsed.

"Alright, that's it for the week, got back, relax. It's christmas in a few weeks, and you're going to be on a few shows. So rest up." Hyung told us. 

After bowing and saying goodbye, we all left. 

"What date is it hyung?" Jungkook asked. 

"Uh, 6th of December, why?" I asked. 

"Just wondering. Lizzie's birthday is on the 17th I think." 

Without saying anything more, we all went back to the dorm, when Jin's phone rang, and his eyes went wide. 

"What?" Suga asked. 

"I think we should just go to the hospital," he said. 

WHAT HAPPENED? CAN'T HE JUST TELL US? GOD!

After ten minuted we were at the hospital, where we all ran to the room. 

"Slow down!" A nurse said. Ignoring her we carried on running where we got to her room. But she was still asleep. 

"What? What's happened?" Jimin asked Nurse Hun. Matty was sat in the chair next to her. 

"Her heart rate picked up, and her hand moved." Nurse Hun explained reading a chart, monitoring her and the baby. She had a cute little bump now. My feelings for her had only grown. Every day for the past month, I went to sleep with her on my mind. 

And now she was showing signs of waking up. 

V and J-Hope were jumping around out of joy, while the rest just collapsed onto the sofa on the top of one another. 

"OW JIMIN MOVE YOUR FOOT IT'S ON MY FACE!" Suga yelled. 

Everyone shut up instantly because of what happened then.

"Nam," she whispered. "Nam." she said again. All eyes were on her. 

"Namjoon," she said. My heart stopped, as all eyes flicked to me. She was dreaming about me? 

"No, no," she said, hurt in her voice. 

"No, Sungjoo!" She cried as she shot up to sitting position. Sungjoo? Oh, the one who tried to help her escape. The probable father of the baby. Some eyes were still on me. 

But she was awake, holding her head. 

"Yo, why are you all staring at me like that?" She asked, causing everyone to laugh. "Seriously what?" She looked around. "Oh god why am I back here?" This caused everyone to laugh harder. After she'd been gone for a month, she's sassy as soon as she wakes up. I laughed a little, the first genuine laugh in a month. 

*Lizzie's POV*

Namjoon was in front of me smiling, coming toward me. I was smiling myself as I embraced his hug, as he hugged my tight. He pulled away and began to lean in, and I didn't fight it, I let the moment happen. Stop fooling yourself, you know you like him. You just don't want to get hurt. But when he pulled away, his face changed. He was no longer smiling, but frowning, looking at something behind me.

I turned and say Sungjoo, getting shot again. Blood stained his t-shirt again as he fell lifeless. I woke up with a start. These nightmares would never stop. When I woke up, I saw everyone staring at me. 

"Yo, why are you all staring at me like that?" I asked as everyone began to laugh. I was so confused as I looked at them. "Seriously, what?" I asked again. And then I realised where I was. 

"Oh god why am I back here?" I asked. This caused everyone to laugh harder. 

"The first thing you say when you wake up, at least you haven't lost your sass," Namjoon laughed. I smiled at him confused, but I couldn't look at him. Not after the dream I've just had. I felt awkward because of how I felt, knowing he won't like me back in that way. I'm just a kid to him. 

"You seriously don't remember anything?" He asked. 

"Remember what? I mean we were running from... him... a few hours ago right? And then I passed out. So now I've woken up, can we go back?" I asked. I really didn't want to stay here anymore. I'd had enough of hospitals. 

"More like a few weeks ago." Jungkook said. 

I just looked at them blankly, processing what he said. I hadn't been asleep that long, I know I hadn't. It didn't feel that long anyway. But as I looked down my bump had gotten far bigger than what it was when I had passed out. 

"Well shit," I said laughing, causing everyone to start laughing again. 

"So now you're awake, let's go." Matty said.

"Can we?" I asked. 

"As long as you DO NOT MOVE TO FAST OR FAR, OR ELSE I WILL PERSONALLY HUNT YOU DOWN." Nurse Hun said, poking me. 

"I swear," I said throwing my hands up, swinging my legs off the bed. "Seriously, green again?" I whined looking at my clothing. 

"Take these, I kept some here in case you woke up," Matty said handing me some clothes. 

"Be a tick," I said standing up. "Wow I'm getting fat." I pointed out. 

"But it's a baaaaaaaby," V said. 

"I knoooooow taaaeeee," I sang with him, as I waddled away to get changed. 

*Jimin's POV*

When I heard she was showing signs of waking up, my chest tightened. She could wake up soon. But when I heard her saying RapMon's name, it saddened me. Of course she would think of him, they were close... sort of. I mean they could easily talk to one another, while the rest of us could only have small conversations with her. But I wanted to change that, I wanted to get close to her. 

She woke up, still sassy as ever. As we were laughing as she was complaining about her clothing, she got up to get changed. 

"Wow I'm getting fat," she said. But she wasn't. She still looked good, even though she was pregnant. 

"But it's a baaaaaaaby," V said to her. 

"I knoooooow taaaeeee," she said using his nickname. I want her to give me a nickname, is that selfish?

When she arrived she had a pink jumper on with leggings, she looked cozy. 

"Seriously, why am I wrapped up?" She asked. 

"It's winter now, it December," Jin said. "I like the color by the way," everyone laughed. 

"December?" She asked. 

"No, you haven't missed Christmas," Matty rolled his eyes. She smiled at this. 

"SANTAAAA'S COOOMIIIIING!" She yelled, as Matty covered her mouth with his hand. 

"I hate to inform you but-" Matty began, "Ow you little bitch," they both laughed as she had bit him. 

"Before you say it, Santa is real, bitch," Lizzie sassed. 

"What did I just say? Did I not just say to take it easy?" Nurse Hun scolded. 

"I am, he's winding me up," she pointed at him. 

"Don't pin this on my you bit me!" He argued back as she stuck her tongue out at him. 

We were laughing at the sight, when our manager and Minzy walked in.

"I HAVE MY ASSISTANT BACK!" Minzy noona yelled. 

"Only if you kidnap me, because Nurse Hun won't let me do anything." Lizzie pouted. 

"That can be arranged," Minzy wiggled her eyebrows. 

"So you're awake. How are you feeling?" He asked as we were walking to the recpetion. 

"Alright, I mean I won't need much sleep for a while," she joked. 

"Well, you can start back whenever you feel better. They have a week off at the moment, but Minzy will come by the dorm to fill you in on things I'm sure." He continued. 

"Wait!" She stopped. 

"What's wrong?" Matty asked.

"I missed Jin's birthday," she whined. 

"Seriously, of all things things?" Matty said. 

"I'm sorry I missed your birthday," she told Jin. 

"It's fine, but thank you," Jin laughed. "It was only two days ago anyway."

"BIRTHDAY WEEK!" She yelled getting into the car. 

She sat between Matty and Jin in the back, while everyone else fought for the front seat. 

"Jimin," she whispered poking my back. 

"What," I whispered back jokingly turning around. 

"Thank you. For keeping your promise," she smiled. I smiled back, because she remembered. 

"It's alright," I replied turning back around, earning a glare from RapMon hyung and a confused expression from Suga hyung. "What?" I asked. 

"Nothing," they both said and turned back around. 

*Lizzie's POV*

I was hungry, like I need food now. 

"Do you have chicken nuggets back in the dorm?" I asked. I really wanted chicken nuggets. 

"I don't think so, why?" Jin answered. 

"I don't know I just really want chicken nuggets," I replied. 

"It's those baby hormones," V said. "Hyung, we should get her chicken nuggets. Or she might turn scary." He said as I shot him a glare. 

"Good idea..." Jin said, telling the driver to stop at the nearest McDonalds. Hell yes. I smiled in content as I wiggled my knees. 

"Do you ever stay still?" Matty complained.

"Don't make me hit you," I threatened, but he rolled his eyes, so I hit the top of his head. 

"Ah, what do you think you're doing?" He said flicking my arm, so I kicked his leg, hard. 

"OW!" He cried. 

"Serves you right," I laughed. 

"Do you two ever stop fighting?" J-Hope asked. We both looked at him and asnwered 'no' at the same time, like it was a normal thing. "Whatever," he laughed. 

Arund ten minutes later we arrived at McDonalds. Just stepping out and smelling the burgers made me feel ill. 

"Ugh I forgot about that," I said. 

"What?" Matty asked. 

"Burgers," I said. "I swear, how am I going to cope without burgers for nine months? Well, six months now..." I whined. 

"Me and Jin will go in and get chicken nuggets and stuff, the rest of you stay here," Their manager said. 

"Arasso," they all said. I was starting to learn more, which I was happy about. I could hold a basic conversation now, which was a start right?

"So, Lizzieeeeee," V began. 

"What Tae?" I teased. He told me to use his nickname before I passed out for a month.

"Does that make you the Sleeping Beauty then?" I just rolled my eyes. 

"Well sleeping yes, beauty, no," I laughed. 

I got a strange look from Namjoon, but changed the subject. 

"So it's what date again?" I asked. 

"6th of December," Jungkook said sitting next to me. 

I looked at Matty who looked away, placing his hands on his forhead. 

"What?" Suga asked him. 

"She gets like this around her birthday and christmas. She's like a 5 year old," he said. 

"I am not!" I shouted. "Alright maybe just a little bit," I said rubbing my stomach. It was visible now. Well, it would be if I was wearing an over sized jumper. Before I could argue anymore, the others retuned with the chicken nuggets and ice-cream for the rest of them. 

"Thank you," I told Jin as he handed my the chicken nuggets. Oh baby chicken. I'm sorry I haven't been around.

"Stop mentally talking to the chicken and eat it," Matty said flicking ice cream at me. 

"I'm not wasting a chicken nugget on you," I said, popping one in my mouth. 

"You talk to your chicken?" Jungkook asked.

"... Nooooo," I said, eating another one. 

"Don't lie," V teased. 

"Well it speaks to me alright! It basically controls my life, it's my king and queen, I can't disrespect it." I said with a straight face. Well I wasn't lying... 

"You're weirder than V," Jungkook laughed. 

"I am not. That's impossible," We all laughed as V scowled at us eating his ice cream. 

"You're all cruel," he faked crying. 

"Aw Tae come here," I said comforting him but still laughing. 

"They always bully me," he said as I sat down on the floor next to him, putting his head on my shoulder. 

"We don't!" J-Hope laughed throwing one of my chicken nuggets at him. 

"Oh you didn't just do that," I stopped laughing, and so did everyone. They all looked scared, like really scared, as they looked at J-Hope then at me. I broke into a smile, grabbed Tae's ice-cream and flicked it at him, causing everyone to start throwing ice-cream everywhere. 

"What the hell are you all doing?" Minzy returned after going to the bathroom. 

"We, um, I don't exectly know. Throwing ice-cream it seems," I said. 

"She started it!" They all pointed at me, as I shot a glance at them. 

"You're all liers," we all laughed. 

"Come on, let's get back." Jin said. 

We all piled back into the car, ice-cream sticking in my hair. 

Jungkook fell asleep on one shoulder and Namjoon fell asleep on the other. 

My mind wandered back to the dream I had before I woke up. Namjoon kissing me, and I hadn't fought back. I felt happy in fact. Come on Lizzie what are you thinking? Like he will ever like you. These are the baby hormones talking. 

But I felt happy with him around me, his head on my shoulder. 

We arrived back at the dorm and I woke them both up. I still wasn't tired. I mean I had only just woken up. 

"Come on Jungkook," I whispered shaking him gently. He just slumped out of the car and plodded up the stairs. "Namjoon," I whispered. The car was empty now, as I tried to wake him. 

"Namjoon, wake up," I said a little louder, "Get up into bed." I said softly. He opened his eyes and rubbed them. He looked so cute right now, I couldn't deny it. 

"Come on," he said sleepily dregging me out of the car holding my hand. We got into the lift, his hand still entwined with mine. As we entered the dorm, it was was far from tired. 

"HYUNG! SUGA IS HOGGING THE SHOWER!" Jungkook shouted, Namjoon just shook his head. I pulled off the jumper, and I had a tank top underneath, and he shook off his jacket. 

Stop these thoughts, you won't get anywhere. 

V and Jimin were running around half naked hitting each other with towels. Oh god Jimin was half naked. Oh god those abs. Oh god. Oh god. Oh god. My heart. 

"Dudes, put some clothes on!" I said covering my eyes. 

"What, you can't handle our sexy charms?" They did a wiggle, causing Namjoon to turn me around. 

"Sit with me for a bit?" He asked half asleep, pulling me over to the sofa. Even though I wasn't tired, I couldn't be bothered arguing. He sat down and I sat next to him, as he pulled me closer. His arm wrapped around my shoulders, I could hear the faint snores escaping his lips. 

The others had disappeared thank god, hopefully they'd put some clothes on. I don't know how much of that I can handle. The soft rising and falling from Namjoons chest comforted me, I felt peaceful, despite everything that had happened. 

I was in day dream land when someone appeared in my sight, sitting on the coffee table. No, people appeared. My brother (obviously. God, he can't even leave me alone inside the dorm?) and Suga, which surprised me a bit. Of all the guys, I had talked to him the least. I mean, he was funny and nice and all, we just hadn't got the chance to talk much. 

"Lizzie? You awake?" Matty asked. 

"No doofus I'm asleep with my eyes open," I sassed. 

"Whatever," he said. He was probably rolling his eyes, but it was dark so I couldn't really see."What are you doing?"

Was he blind or something? "I'm riding this bike, what does it look like I'm doing?" I asked. 

"Stop sassing," he scolded. Since when was he mature?

"Lizzie we need to ask you something." Suga said. "I've talked with your brother, and he agrees we need to talk."

"About..." I probed, careful not to wake the sleeping monster beside me. 

"Love." He finished. Love? What does that have to do with anything?

"When you were, you know, taken, did you feel anything for anyone?" Matty asked. Nope, I will not tell him about Sungjoo. Never going to happen. 

"No, how could I?" I said.

"No one at all?" He continued. 

"No, what is this all about?" I was slightly confused in which direction this conversation was heading. 

"Well when you were in the coma, or I mean, just before you came out of it, can you remember anything?" Suga asked. 

"Nothing," I lied. 

"You know you said Namjoon's name right?" Suga finished. Dammit. 

"Ok so I'm lying. I dreamt about Namjoon. What's the big deal?"

"Well, do you feel anything?" Matty asked. 

"What's with all the questions? I'm getting confused." I shot back. 

"Do you, feel anything?" Suga repeated. 

"I don't know, I don't know what I'm feeling right now. I'm all messed up." By this time I had snaked my way from Namjoon's embrace and was sat up straight, trying to keep my voice down. "I'm messed up..." I repeated. 

"Who's Sungjoo?" Matty caught me off guard. Shit. Shit. Shit. Do I tell him? No, he would be mad I lied. No, I can't. 

"What?" I played dumb. 

"Just before you woke up, you shouted 'No Sungjoo!'"

Shit shit shit.

"He was, one of the guys from the house." I said. Well, it was true.

"And you knew his name because..." Matty continued. 

"Because he told me, obviously."

"Oh right," he left it, thank god. 

"So, what happened in the dream with you and RapMon then?" Suga teased. 

"He was just there, he just appeared in my dream, that's all." I said yawning. "I was asleep for a month, I seriously cannot be tired." I said shaking my head. 

"Whatever, I'm going to bed, later," Matty said ruffling my hair. 

"Night Lizzie," Suga said. "Oh and Lizzie?"

"Yeah?" 

"Don't be confused. Just let your emotions show," he said before leaving. 

I was alone with a sleeping monster once again. Turning to look at him, I snuck back into the place I was before, as it was comforting. 

"What do I feel about you huh? That dream messed all my emotions up. But I liked it. Would it be bad to say I wanted that? Because it's true... But like you would ever like me back, what a stupid thought..." I said, as my eyelids became heavy. 

*Rap Monster's POV*

I heard the whole conversation with Lizzie, Matty and Suga hyung. I swear, hyung is stirring some serious shit up. He knows how I feel, why make the situation more awkward?

When they left, he told her to let her emtions out, whatever that meant. 

"What do I feel about you huh? That dream messed all my emotions up. But I liked it. Would it be bad to say I wanted that? Because it's true...But like you would ever like me back, what a stupid thought..."  What had she dreamt about? 

And come to think of it, she was avoiding the question about me. Does that mean anything? Probably not... Don't hype yourself up for something that probably isn't true. 

Hold up. 

HOLD UP.

What did she just say?

'But like you would ever like me back, what a stupid thought...'

What.

WHAT?

Like you back? I've liked you since the moment I set eyes on you. It was you who I doubted to have feeling like this. 

She snuck back under my arm and fell asleep, and I also fell back asleep, this time with a big smile on my face...