I'm back!

I realised that I didn't thank you all for Congratulating me and for all those sweet, comforting words. (I'm talking about my babbling under chpt 40)

Trust me, I didn't ignore your comments or anything like that- it just after that taunt I was feeling down for weeks, blaming myself and did something crazy [i'm fine :)] and in that condition updated previous chapter (41) without reading comments or even giving any message. And after that I logged out :(

Well, what I want to say in short is I didn't ignore your kind words. And they really helped me alot to get back on track, stay strong, be happy and satisfied with what i've got and now, continue again.

I'm just a weird person. Plz don't misunderstand me.

Enjoy reading :)

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"Scared that she will find that you are alive?"

Sameer turned around and saw figure of Raakhi coming towards him, hands holding a tray. He kept mum. For past few months it felt like his mouth was sewed. He just didn't want to talk, because his words never had a value to anyone.

Not to his parents, not to Ria- the girl he once loved.

He did love her at first. He really did. And she did too. But as her love started turning into obsession and went to it's extreme level to the point she would hurt other people- he started to feel distant from her. His deep, true feelings for ria died.

And then, came reena. An angel who went through alot just because he found himself attracted towards her and then, fell in love.

Who won't love such incredible pure and kind soul like her?

She suffered alot. Because of ria and he was the reason behind it. But still, she helped him. She had always.

Just like now.

"I think I have mastered the art of reading people from Reena." Raakhi chuckled and sat on the sofa placing the tray infront on the table. She gave one cup of tea to Sameer.

She got up and opened the drower next to the sofa and pulled out a file of documents. "This is your new identity documents." She said, giving the file to Sameer.

He placed the cup aside and opened the file. They were his identity documents. New name, new place, new identity, everything new...

He wasn't Sameer anymore.

Sameer died.

Closing the file, he closed his eyes feeling the headache he was suffering from since last night. He hadn't have proper sleep, maybe he will never. Nightmares were going to haunt him for the rest of this life- be it new.

"Man I tell you one thing?"

Sameer startled a little at raakhi's voice. But later nodded his head gesturing her to continue. Raakhi sighed, her features dipped in sympathy towards the man, she was asked to be taken care of for a while.

"If you keep that fear with you then you will never be able to move on." She said.

She was right. He have to move on. He was offered a chance to live again- something some people rarely get. He had live a life in fear but not anymore. That fear had got him nothing but pain and even hurted his dear people.

He have to take this precious chance fully, accept it wholeheartedly and move on.

He forced a smile and turned to Raakhi. "Thank you."

Raakhi chuckled shaking her head."Don't thank me. Thank Reena and her rocky."

Yeah- well, it wasn't only Reena who saved him. It was him also. Sameer was still wrapping his mind upon the reality that- the monster helped him. The person who threatened, almost killed him and also burnt his feet- actually even thought of helping him.

That was still unbelievable.

"I really don't understand why of all people he would save me." Sameer blurted out which made raakhi laugh. She leaned back on sofa, sipping her tea and respond to him.

"It's simple. Because of Reena."

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Reena rested her head on her hands which were on dinning table, engrossed in thoughts. Past two days were really stressful. Her heart couldn't just feel at ease till Sameer and raakhi reached safely to America.

After Rocky angrily left that day, Reena was terrified of what he might do in rage. She had no idea what was going on his mind and what actually he had planned to do. But she sensed whatever it was- would be horrific.

And she was right.

He literally burnt the room Sameer was staying in. It wasn't shock when she got to know that Rocky had turned some of the guards of Desai working undercover for him.

One of one them fortunetly looked alike Sameer and was placed on duty to watch over Sameer's room. Not too much but the quite similarity in figure was enough for everyone to believe it was Sameer.

And the body was burnt till it was unrecognisable - Rocky made sure of that. If the Desai's ever want to make sure it's really Sameer that would be piece of cake for Rocky to handle.

The fire distracted everyone and it was easy to rescue Sameer. What made Reena feel guilty that the guard was ready to sacrifice his life. He exchanged cloths with Sameer, helped him run and stayed in the fire to die.
Raakhi was already going to America for her work Sameer was send with her.

Ria didn't even had second thought of about all this could be drama and she was fooled. She actually believed Sameer's death.

And that was relief because nothing came into the path of Sameer leaving to America with Raakhi and they safely reached.

Sameer was safe and will start a new life- everything was fine. Well, the way things happened was shocking but after all it's Rocky who was taking care of things. Violence is his method.

Nothing was fine between them though.

Reena thought over what he said and realised he got it all wrong. She started to look for her fault but honestly didn't find any because for her- she was right. Both being stubborn they were not talking to eachother, even not having dinner together.

But tonight she's going to talk with him. He had been coming back late for past two days.

Mallamma came to dinning table once again to ask if Reena wanted to have dinner but she told her she will have with Rocky. While waiting when sleep took over her she didn't know.

Walking inside the dinning room while folding up his sleeves after freshening up a little, Rocky halted in his steps when his eyes caught Reena's figure, sitting there with her head laid on the dinning table. Unknowingly, his mouth stretched into a small smile finally seeing her.

Past two days were terrible. He was upset with her and she was angry on him for being upset. They were avoiding eachother as much as possible. It was the first they were behaving like this with eachother, especially him- because staying away from his shona when she is in reach of his hands was impossible but he was truly upset this time.

He didn't like that she was concerned about that guy. Why can't her whole revolve around him just like his does?

Rocky walked up to her and sat beside on the chair. Leaning his face on his palm as his elbow rested on the table he gazed fondly at her.

How was he able to ignore her for past two days?

His midnight eyes were eagerly capturing her as if not only two days but for two years he hadn't seen her. Even in dim lights she was glowing. Her long eyelashes blanketing her cheeks, lips twitching into a tiniest smile.

A hour passed and Rocky was still watching her. It was like the time stopped for him and the only thing he desire to do was to watch her. Nothing, just watching her roaming around in her dreams knowing he was in there too, a apart of her life, body, desire, needs, dreams.

The honey like warmth ran into his veins filling him up and he just wanted to cradle Reena into his arms to fill up lack of warmth. Hands having mind of their own, eager more than ever reached to her face to brush her smooth cheeks. Moving a little ahead, he replaced his fingers with his lips softly pecking her cheek.

His beard pierced her skin causing Reena to open her eyes which met with Rocky's. Her frown turned into smile so ever brightly. "Aa gaye tum..."
(You came...)

Rocky inhaled deeply at her melodious voice, his whole being aching to feel her finally. So, they were fine now. Her soft voice that bright smile seeing him, she even waited to have dinner with him- it all told that.

Rocky nodded, dipping his head to peck her cheek again.

Not after little later, Mallamma walked inside and saw them. She smiled saying, "Sarkar,main khana lagati hoon." And then she retrieved back in kitchen to heat the food as Rocky just gave her small nod.

(Sarkar, I will serve the food.)

Reena watched her going inside and looked back at rocky, who took her hand in his. Chuckling, she said, "Fatima ma hamare liye ruki thi. Unhone khana bhi nahi khaya hai abhi tak. Main unhe jane ke liye kehti hoon aur hamare liye khana lati hoon, hmm?"

(Fatima was waiting for us. She haven't had her dinner yet. I will tell her to go and bring food for us, hmm?)

Before Rocky could even shake his head Reena was standing and was about to go but he pulled her onto his lap. "Rocky!" Reena squealed in surprise, hands resting on his shoulder as Rocky let his wrap around her waist.

"Nahi. Tum ruko yaha." He denied to her leaving and nuzzled her neck, inhaling her jasmine scent which drown him in calmness and he closed his eyes.

(No. You stay here.)

He was not letting go of her, not even second. He had to fill up for the time they were giving silent treatment to eachother.

Reena let out a chuckle at his act and tapped on his shoulder before trying to push him away but he held her firmly. Sighing, she tried to talk with him. "Rocky...main hamare liye khana lekar aati hoon na."

(Rocky...let me bring food for us.)

She felt him shaking his head. Pulling himself from the crook of her neck he looked at her. "Mujhe bhook nahi hai. Khana khane ke liye thodi der ho gayi to bhi chalega mujhe."

(I'm not hungry. Even if it is a little late for dinner, it will be fine with me.)

"Lekin tumne lunch bhi nahi kiya hai." Reena tried again.

(But you haven't even had lunch.)

Rocky had now his head resting on her chest, squeezing her tight. Their fight actually drove him maddeningly crazy. Almost everyone were victim of his wrath for past days. The frustration, irritation that rose inside him every time he was away from her- made him crave more for calmness.

He needed peace for a while and beside his shona nothing can ever gave him that.

Placing a kiss on her chest, Rocky mumbled against her skin. "Don din se humne proper baat bhi nahi ki hai. Mujhe sabse jyada tumhari jaroorat hai. Aur bina khaye main zindagi bita sakta hoon. Adat hai mujhe bhuke pet rehne ki. Lekin tumhare bina rehne ki nahi."

(We haven't even talked properly for two days. I need you the most. And I can live without food. I am used to being starved. But not to live without you.)

Reena's smile fell down as he completed his sentence. A heavy feeling stuck in her and her heart clenched. The thought of him being suffering to just survive everyday in past made her held him tighter.

"Rocky..." She called him, caressing his hair but Rocky didn't respond instead buried himself more into her chest. She kissed the top of Rocky's head and said, "Pehle ki baat alag thi. Ab main hoon tumhari zindagi mein toh tumhe bhuke pet kabhi nahi rehne doongi."

(In past things were different. Now I am in your life, so I will never let you starve yourself.)

Rocky smiled. His fingertips caressing her small of her back before reaching up to the end of her blouse, roaming over it's design.

Understanding his intentions, Reena pushed on his shoulders. "Ab chhodo mujhe. Mallamma aati hi hogi. Hume woh aisa dekh legi-"

(Leave me now. Mallamma must be coming. She will see us like this-)

"Dekhne do." He cut her off. Hands going upto her spine, holding dori of her blouse as he shamelessly added. "Usne hi nahi sab logo ne hume aisa bahot bar dekha hai already."

(Let her. Not only her, everyone has already seen us like this many times.)

Reena turned crimson red, her cheeks warming as she slapped his arm. "Shut up!"

Rocky grinned and was about untie her blouse but that's when Mallama came in with food. Reena literally pushed him with force, going to help Mallamma. When it was done, she gave a smile to her saying, "Ab aap jao."

(Now you go.)

Mallama smiled back and nodded.

"Good night, Mallama." Rocky said, as he pulled Reena's chair closer to him. Mallama giggled and said, "Good... night." And left.

After finishing the dinner, both were in the balcony of their bedroom. Reena was gazing at the twinkling stars while Rocky gazed at his star.

Reena was making herself ready for what she was going to say. Because sometimes making Rocky understand things could be really tough task especially when the matters are related to her.

She started playing with upper buttons of the shirt he wore, moving her body closer to him as she sat on his lap.

"Thank you. For everything." She said, catching his gaze and smiled a radiant smile. She really was thankful for him. Even though he got upset with her wanting to help Sameer he still helped. That meant alot. And even showed he could put his emotions aside for her.

Her hand cupped his face, fingers slightly grazing his beard. "Rocky...tumne sab galat samjha hai."

(Rocky...you've got it all wrong.)

Rocky furrowed his brows, ready to defend himself but got shut when Reena placed her hand on his mouth saying, "Tum mujhe jante ho. Main kisi masum ko dard mein nahi dekh sakti. Jabse main lawyer bani, maine sirf Guru Pandiyan ke liye kaam kiya. Masum logo par attyachar hone diya, Unke diye hue shaap abhi bhi dil ko chubte hai."

(You know me. I cannot see an innocent in pain. Ever since I became a lawyer, I worked only for Guru Pandiyan. I let innocent people be tortured, the curses given by them still stings my heart.)

Her hand slowly slipped down, her eyes watering as the past events flashing in her mind. She blinked away those tiny tears forming and sniffed.

Rocky's chest clenched, eyes fluttering and hands immediately reached out to cup Reena's face. He didn't meant to hurt her in any way, he would never. It was just he didn't like her thinking about anyone else. He want to have only his control on her thoughts and her entire being.

He knew, it was selfish but he couldn't help that.

She and her love had only made him more selfish than anything.

He helped that guy even though he didn't want to, not only because his shona wanted to help him but because he thought her love would grew more for him if he did that.

Again it was him being selfish for her love.

And he burst out on her because he's selfish.

However, if him being selfish was going to hurt his mehbooba then he was ready to change that as well.

"Shona-"

"Par ab azad hoon. Hoon na?"
(But now I'm free. Am i not?)

Her questions caught Rocky off guard. It took few seconds to process what she actually wanted to say. He panicked when it sunk in and straightened himself holding her both cheeks in his hands. His mind started to look for what he did which made her feel like being trapped here.

Was she still feeling like she was caged here?

But why? He even let go of her once because she needed that and she came back for him- she chose to stay with him, here in kgf then-

Seeing his panicked expression Reena smiled softly kissing his forehead. "Tum jo soch rahe ho waisa mera kehne ka matlab nahi tha."

(I didn't mean to say what you are thinking.)

But still the confusion remained there. His heart was still racing.

Reena had always craved freedom. And she knew, she had got what she wanted. She was free now. Though Rocky felt the need to monopolize her thoughts and everything still he respect her choices.

That's what she needed the most.

She was little butterfly. Who loved roaming around freely, with nothing stopping her from exploring the world and her fascinating
everyone and everything with her different beautiful colours.

Rocky was perfect for her. Not only because he love her madly and obsessively but because he gave her freedom.

Attaching their forehead Reena closed her eyes. "Aur ab jab main azad hoon, mujhe sirf aur sirf jitni main dusron ki help kar saku utni karni hai. Aur rahi baat sameer ke fikr ki toh- Usne ne bhi meri ria ke torture wakt help ki thi. Bhale hi woh ek hi baar kyu na ho. Lekin uska karja mujhe mujh par nahi rakhna tha."

(And now that I am free, I just want to do as much as I can to help others. And as for my concern for Sameer, he also helped me during Riya's torture. Even if it is only once. But I did not want to keep his debt on me.)

She backed away, eyes pouring out the pure and immense love she have for him. "Tum meri jaan ho, Rocky. Tum hamesha first priority rahe ho aur mujhe woh proof karne jaroorat nahi hai."

(You are my life, Rocky. You have always been the first priority and I do not need to prove that.)

"Rocky, sirf tum hi nahi mujhe puri tarah aapna rahe ho. Main bhi apna rahi hoon tumhe. Yeh gold mining, kgf, yeh log, yeh business... yeh sab kuch difficult hai mujhe apna ne ke liye." She continued.

(Rocky, it's not just you who's accepting me completely. I am also accepting you. This gold mining, kgf, these people, this business...all these is difficult for me to accept.)

Her words stuttered, falling from her mouth messily as she poured honesty. "Because- ... mujhe pata hai yeh sab kuch galat hai-..like for god's sake who won't think that?"

(Because-...I know it's all wrong-...like for god's sake who won't think that?)

Her eyes softened again and smiled endearingly. "But still- i'm going accept it because I love you."

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Rocky's lips curved into small smile as he felt Reena stirred upon him when his fingers brushed over her back. After their intense love making, both of them were lying on bed naked wrapped in blanket with Reena completely on top of him.

He pushed her soft curtains aside from her back and pulled her up a little so that her head was near his neck.

Tonight he realised one thing- that before being his shona and queen Reena was her. She have her own dreams, desires and promise given to her father to fulfil just like him.

It's fine if he hasn't monopolize everything that of hers. It's fine if she never reached to the point of madness of love like him.

His limitless love will be enough for both of them.

After all, this was him.

Evil, destructive, corrupt.

And still she would sleep all right on top of him.

Titling her head up, Rocky pressed his lips on her mouth giving a small and quick peck.

If she was accepting his monstrous nature and his illegal work only because she love him then-

For her he will be sweet.

For her he will be innocent and pure.

For her he will be weak and fragile.

For her he will be soft and supple.

For her...he will be whatever she want him to be.

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