NARRATOR:

Jeongin sat still, refusing to turn around.

"Seungmin, what are you doing?" Jeongin whispered, as he felt the older snuggle his head in the crook of his neck.

Seungmin kitten-licked Jeongins neck, causing Jeongin to shiver.

"Min.." Jeongin turned around to look at his lover.

As Jeongin turned, Seungmin jumped onto him.

Jeongin felt his arms being pinned up against the bed, Seungmin brushing his lips against his neck.

"Agh, S-seungmin", Jeongin whispered, partially out of breath.

Seungnin began to kiss Jeongins neck, trailing up to his lips.

"Seungmin, why did you do that", Jeongin rubbing the marks that Seungmin left on him.

"It's because y-your a meanie", Seungmin pouted.

Jeongin lifted a brow, "What? How am I a meanie?"

Seungmin rested his head on top on Jeongins chest, "You like Jennie more than me".

"That's not true", Jeongin rolled his eyes and flicked Seungmin on the head softly.

"Y-yes it is true! Jennies been to your house more than me, you talk to her more, you meet up with her more and you guys are always together", Seungmin wrapped himself around Jeongin protectively.

Jeongin cupped Seungmins face in his hands, "Awhh, is my precious baby jealous?"

Seungmin shook his head quickly, huffed, and turned away with his arms crossed.

"Not Jealous"

"Your Jealous"

"Not Jealous"

"Your totally Jealous"

"I SAID IM NOT JEALOUS"

Seungmin shouted desperately, startling Jeongin.

"Fine, if your not jealous, I guess I'll just call Jenn-", Jeongin picked up his phone, ready to call Jennie.

Seungmin snatched the phone from him, "No..."

"Why?" Jeongin smirked victoriously.

Seungmin hid under the blanket, "Fine. I am jealous, just a little bit. Maybe a bit more than a little".

Jeongin tilted his head with a bored expression plastered on his face.

"Fine, I'm very jealous", Seungmin finally caved.

Jeongin chuckled as he watched Seungmin bury himself amongst the blankets.

"You're so cute, especially when you're drunk", Jeongin lifted the edge of the blanket, revealing Seungmins head.

Seungmin flushed a soft shade of pink, "N-no, not true".

Jeongin bent over and placed a gentle kiss on his nose, "Point proven".

Seungmin sat up as he felt a vibration in his pocket.

"H-hellooo?" Seungmin said as he accepted the call.

"KIM SEUNGMIN, WHERE ON EARTH ARE YOU?!"

Seungmin felt his heart drop for a second.

He stared at the plain wall, gaining his sense of reality back, waiting to be sober again.

"I'm at home?" Seungmin whispered softly.

"LIAR, WE ARE AT HOME. DO YOU KNOW HOW WORRIED ME AND YOUR MOTHER ARE?"

"I-i thought you said that you'd be g-gone for a w-week", Seungmins voice cracked.

"THAT ISN'T THE POINT. IT IS FUCKING 3AM, SEUNGMIN", the loud voice startled Seungmin.

"I-im sorry"

"DOES IT LOOK LIKE I GIVE A SHIT ABOUT YOUR APOLOGY? COME HOME RIGHT NOW"

"Yes father", Seungmin sniffled, before hanging up.

As silence filled the room, Seungmin dropped his phone onto the bed.

He lifted up his head, closing his eyes, trying to hold back tears.

Jeongin engulfed Seungmin into a hug, "Don't hold in your tears Min, it's unhealthy".

Seungmin rested his head onto Jeongin.

His forehead pressed against Jeongins shoulder.

Jeongin wrapped his arms around Seungmin, "Min, you should go home now. Call me when you reach home, alright?"

Seungmin nodded, lifting his head up to look at Jeongin.

Jeongin caressed Seungmins face, wiping away his tears.

Jeongin helped Seungmin off the bed, allowing Seungmin to cling on his arm.

- - - - - 3 Hours later

JEONGIN:

I stared at my phone, waiting for a text or a call from Seungmin.

I couldn't help, but let my negative thoughts run wild and consume me.

I was so worried for Seungmin. I want to protect him, make him feel safe.

I was so desperate to be his comfort person. I want him to feel comfortable enough, to share with me his troubles.

ding

I pulled the phone up to my face swiftly.

- - - - - - -

Mine ❤️

  Min please text me

Are you okay love?

Please text me or smth,
I'm so worried
read at 3:57 am

I'm ok

I'm gonna go sleep now
Gn

- - - - - - - -

I sighed in relief, "Thank God he's alright"

I didn't realise how tired I was until my head hit the pillow.

- - - - - Next day

I ruffled my hair, adjusting to the sharp rays of sunlight, that poured into my room.

I brushed my teeth, and got ready for the day.

As I opened my closet, I plucked out a plain tee and some widely fitted denim jeans.

"I.N, BREAKFAST IS READY", I heard my dad shout.

I grabbed an oversized zip up hoodie, before running down the stairs.

"Morning dad, what's for breakfast?" I sighed.

"Hm, Pancakes", My dad grinned at me.

I nodded my head slowly, slightly confused at his behaviour.

"Don't act dumb I.N", my dad said as I was taking a bite of the pancakes.

"W-what?", I muttered, partly choking on the food.

"When are you going to introduce me to your boyfriend?" My dad happily chirped.

"WHAT?!" I felt my jaw drop onto the floor.

"Yesterday, you must've forgotten that I live with you. I saw that boy clinging onto your arm as he was leaving. I also saw you ki-"

"Okay okay, you can stop there", I gushed a dark red.

"Are you embarrassed now?" My dad teased, as he picked up his work jacket.

I burried my head into my arms.

"Anyways, you can invite him to stay over after next week. I'll be going to a business meeting for a few days. Just make sure you remain PG", my dad chuckled.

"DAD NO-", I shouted as he quickly shot out the door.

I massaged my temples, completely conflicted about what to do.

'I want to invite Seungmin over, but his dad is so, strict. I don't have good history with his dad either', I thought to myself as I headed out the door.

- - - - -  2 weeks later

It's been a while since Seungmin has come to school.

I'm still in touch with him, but his texts are always so quick and dry.

I've been trying to visit him lately, but his dad got sick of me. He threatened to call the police on me.

I stared at the empty plate in front of me, completely lost in thought.

"I.N, aren't you going to school now?" My dad patted me on the head, awakening me from my daze.

I nodded quickly, putting away my plate.

I was slightly earlier today, as I took the shorter route.

Those guys haven't disturbed or picked on me lately.

"Uhm, hey, Jeongin"

I stumbled as Kai approached me slowly, his hands behind his back.

"Look, Jennie told me to apologise. After deep consideration, I've decided that it was kind of childish of me to bully you", Kai bit his lip.

I let a soft smile dawn upon my face, "It's okay, thanks for apologising".

Kai nodded his head and ran off.

'Well that's a good start for today', I whispered under my breath before walking to my locker.

As I arrived, I saw Seungmin looking into his locker.

I was filled with mixed emotions, happiness, concern, and slight confusion.

"Seungmin?!" I tapped him on the shoulder.

He flinched out of his daydream and turned to look at me.

"Oh my God, Min are you okay?" I pressed my hand on his forehead.

His skin was sallow, and his eyes were dimmed. Dark eyebags lurked beneath his eyes.

He said nothing, he just hugged me, his head rested against my shoulder.

I held him by his waist, he seemed to have lost weight.

I held his fragile body close to me, I heard his soft heartbeat.

I didn't want to let go, I missed him too much for that.

"Jeongin, I'm leaving", Seungmin mumbled.

I pulled away, "What?"

"I'm leaving"

I felt my heart drop, 'How can this be true? I must be dreaming'

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN?!" I pushed Seungmin on his chest, making him stumble back.

"My brother, he's back. He needs to move to a different place for work, and my parents want me to move with him", Seungmin whispered with zero emotion.

I held eye contact with him, as I watched his lifeless eyes dart around the room.

He pursed his lips, before turning back to his locker.

I trembled as I realised what he was doing; He was taking his things home.

I felt my eyes begin to water, "You'll come visit me right?"

Seungmin stood still, a deadpan expression on his face.

"..."

"YOU WILL VISIT ME RIGHT?" I shook him by the shoulder, desperate for an answer.

No response.

I let go of him as he pulled away from me lightly.

"This isn't gonna work out, let's break up, Jeongin"

I turned around and covered my ears, 'It's isn't true'

I repeated the words to myself, tears streaming down my face.

I saw some people giving me weird looks, but I didn't care.

All I cared about was Seungmin. How can he just break up with me like that?

I felt Seungmin brush past me, gripping onto the box of items.

I leaned back onto the lockers, deep in thought.

'Why me? Everytime I love someone, they leave me

FLASHBACK
  ⚠️ Mentions of Suicide ️⚠️

N/A:

"Jeongin-ah"

"Yes eomma?"

"I love you so much. Tell your father I love him as well"

"Huh?"

- - - - - 4 hours later

Jeongin ran into his eomma's room, "EOMMAAA, I GOT FIRST PLACE FOR MUSIC QUES-"

"Eomma?"

"EOMMA?!"

Jeongins father ran into the room, "What's wrong I.N-"

The two stood still, hovering over the lifeless body in front of them.

A gun in her right hand, her clothes were ripped and scorched.

"Eomma, please wake up", Jeongin shook his mother.

Ignoring the blood that stuck to his hands and clothes.

"She's not waking up", A father tried to keep his cool for the sake of his son.

"NO YOUR LYING. EOMMA, WAKE UP!"

"She's gone"

"STOP LYING"

"SHES DEAD. SHES GONE OKAY?" Jeongins father snapped at the young boy.

Jeongin let out silent whimpers, as he came to realisation of the blood that flooded the room.

END OF FLASHBACK

JEONGIN:

First my eomma, now you. Except you both didn't have a choice.

My eomma was suffering from depression. She's happier now, I'm sure.

Will you be happier without me? Maybe you will find someone else.

I crouched in the corner of my room. I felt my head throb.

The room was silent, my heartbeat thumping slowly.

Knock Knock

"I.N, please come eat something. Its been two days since you've had a proper meal"

I remained silent, I heard the door creak open.

My dad sank in front of me, "Do you wanna talk about it now?"

"Why? Why did he have to leave me. I know it's not his fault, but he never tried", I cradled myself, letting my tears stain my sleeves.

"Would you like me to cancel my meeting and postpone to a better time?" My dad had a worried look on his face.

I wanted him to stay and help me. But that would be so selfish. What if he left me as well?

"No. It's okay, you can go to the meeting", I whispered.

My dad nodded, "Alright, let me know immediately if you need anything then. I'll be leaving in about an hour".

I nodded.

He patted my shoulder and walked out of my room, shutting the door behind him.

I sat in utter silence, no one loves me. My heart ached, it felt like something was holding pressure against my chest.

I spluttered, as I broke the silence with my cries.

'Universe, can't you see how much I love him? Why must you take him away from me?' I slammed my journal shut.

My thoughts lingered wherever I went.

I felt like a burden, so heavy that I could no longer lift my feet from the ground.

I dragged myself over to the window.

I slipped on my shoes and ran wherever my legs would take me.

I came to a stop as I arrived at an abandoned petrol station.

A single muddy car was parked, whilst a hose was plugged into a wall, next to the car.

A boy was rested against that same wall.

"Hello?" I approached the handsome boy.

"Hm? Are you crying?"

I wiped my tears away, "Maybe."

He chuckled, passing me the hose.

"Clean the car", He urged me to take the hose.

"What?"

"Trust me"

I picked up the hose and sprayed it onto the car.

The water splashed back onto my face, covering my tears.

I cried, watching the water clean the car.

As the car slowly became cleaner, I put down the hose and hopped over to the boy.

I cracked a smile.

"Fun right?" The boy had puffy eyes from crying.

I cracked a smile, tears still streamjng down my face, "Yea"

We both laughed.

At one point, the boy turned to me.

"What's your name? I'm Taehyung, but you can call me Tae or V", He wiped the last of his tears away.

He held his hand out to shake mine.

I smiled, "Hi, you can call me I.N".

I shook his hand back.

"Your names Ian?" He looked at me to make sure.

I found it funny, so I nodded as a joke, "Yea.. It's Ian."

"What's the occasion?" He laughed.

"Heartbroken", I laughed through the pain.

I looked at my new friend, using my eyes to ask him why he was crying.

He sniffled, "Parent things"

I raised my eyebrows, "Your a father?"

He laughed, "No no, I'm just having problems with my parents. Mostly my dad though. He always has high expectations of me, and he biases me over my brother".

I nodded, acknowledging his problems.

"You might think that im being weird for not wanted to be the biased child. But my brother and me are no longer close, because of my parents", Tae bit his bottom lip.

"I don't have any sibilings, but it must suck to lose your relationship with one", I sympathised with him.

We sat in a comfortable silence, before Tae looked over at me.

"So, tell me bout this relationship of yours", he grinned at me.

"I can't seem to understand my boyfriend. Well, ex boyfriend now, I guess", my lip quivered as I spoke.

Tae nodded, "Relationships can be confusing. But if you truly love each other, I'm sure you guys will figure it out".

"I know, but he's leaving to a different place because his brother has work or something. He never even told me where he was going, and he just broke up with me", I grumbled.

Tae shivered a bit, he leaned in closer, "Uh, would you mind telling me his name?"

I nodded, "We're probably never going to see each other ever again, so yea, I'll tell you his name".

He tilted his head, looking at me with a desperate facial expression.

"Seungmin, his name is Kim Seungmin"

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Hope you're doing well today! My school is beginning soon, so I'm trying my best to keep up with the uploads :)
This book will probably stop around chapter 20's, so I think that should be enough time to settle everything.
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