Kajol blew in anger when she looked at her phone knowing that the time passed the afternoon and Shahrukh hasn't woke up yet. She pushed away her books when she was sitting at her desk. She wanted to wake him up but Rani stopped her and told her to let him wake up alone.

Preity had already left and Rani was busy with her kids. Kajol kept twirling a lock of her hair around her finger, while she was all alone; Preity's words jumped to her mind 'damn it Preity, don't play with my mind' she said shaking her head and kicking away those thoughts.

She thought about her relationship with Shahrukh, cousins, friends, more than friends then love. Kajol knows that she wants to marry Shahrukh in the end and she has dreamt of that, but Preity's question made her really think about her dreams; would they come true?

'okay enough' Kajol stood up and said to herself. She walked towards the door and went out of the room. When she reached Shahrukh's room, she opened the door without knocking. She came in and found that he was still asleep, she tiptoed to his bed and sat at its edge.

Kajol just kept looking at Shahrukh who was deeply sleeping, not sensing what is going around him or what time it is. She stayed like that for a while then she gave up the idea of waking him up.

"am I even ready for him waking up?" a question popped up in her head. The whole thing was like an episode of a weekly serial, you wait for the whole week sitting at the edge of the chair waiting for the next episode and its events, but what was different that serials don't turn our lives upside down even if the events in it were shocking. She wished her life was a serial, she could turn off the tv anytime or even stop watching the whole thing and look for a comedy film in another channel. "would she be ready for the next events?" another question popped up in her head. Kajol suddenly ran away from the room and she wasn't sure why she did this.

'you finally remembered your dad?' Arjit asked sarcastically, Kajol came into the living room where her father was sitting alone and looking at some papers 'I think I will take care of the work until Shahrukh feels better' he said

Kajol sat next to him and wrapped her arms around him 'I know you are angry with me'

'not only you, all of you' he said still fixing his eyes on the papers

'I am so sorry, don't be sad' she said and pouted; still holding him but he nodded in denial 'okay, Rani and Shahrukh will apologize too' she said consoling

'you all have been very bad; I am so angry with you. You keep acting crazy and you all take stupid decisions'

'yeah, I know. I am really sorry' she said and kissed him then he smiled 'can I ask you a question?'

'yes beti'

'are you really proud of what she did?'

'I didn't say that and by the way your cousin has a name' he said kindly blaming

She pulled back 'if it is not for Shahrukh, it is for me. Even though I defended her; I am angry with her. How could she leave us like this?'

Arjit sighed 'okay. She is the only one who could break your mother's control'

'and Shahrukh's heart broke too' she said sadly

'I don't agree with what she did and I admit it was wrong, yet it was the only solution to remove Abhishik from the picture' he said calmly explaining

'I wish there was other way out, or she could even wait a little bit after the exams' she said sadly and he shrugged

"to come in or not to come in, that's the question"

Kajol stood in front of Shahrukh's door hesitated to come in, or even knock the door. She took a deep breath, closed her eyes then finally managed to knock on the door. There was no answer, then she remembered Rani's advice to not leave him alone so she opened the door quickly, saying her prayers she stepped in.

Kajol gave a short smile when she found him sitting over his bed, she was sure that he doesn't want to see anybody and that's why he didn't ask whoever was knocking to come in; even if it was her but she didn't care and came in anyway. He looked at her silently when she came in 'you finally woke up, it is like you haven't slept in years' she said, walked towards him and sat down at the edge of the bed 'how could you manage staying away from me all these hours' she said again trying to be funny and he just gave her the shortest smile ever.

'um, you know? Preity came today, but you were asleep so she couldn't speak to you obviously, but good for you. Preity was very talkative today. She kept talking and talking and talking, she barely took her breath and she told us about a lot of stuff...' Shahrukh interrupted her by placing his palm over her lips then he placed his head over her shoulder, she stretched her lips in embarrassment. She wanted to cheer him up a bit but ended up causing him a headache.

She cleared her throat 'do you want me to get you something to eat?'

'no' he said in boredom and she just rubbed his back silently. They just stayed like that for the whole night without saying a word.

In the morning Kajol heard a knock on her room's door 'come in' she said and Rani came in 'good morning'

'good morning. How did things go? I haven't seen you at night'

Kajol shrugged 'surprisingly nothing happened'

'I don't know if this is good or bad' Rani said and felt confused

'well I am thankful, I was really scared for him; let's go and check on him together'

'good idea' she said and went out with Kajol.

When they reached Shahrukh's room; they knocked twice and came in. They heard water running and the bathroom's door was ajar. They called his name but they heard no answer and that made them feel worried.

They ran towards the bathroom, pushed the door and both girls screamed seeing Shahrukh standing in front of the sink holding a blade in his hand.

'What was all that for?' Shahrukh asked placing his palm over his chest from the shock

'put it away Shahrukh please' Rani said calmly

'what are you doing with this blade in your hand?' Kajol asked shouting

'sh... Shaving!' he shrugged still confused

'since when did you start using blades?' Kajol asked in confusion

'since I suddenly realized that the batteries of the...' he didn't continue his sentence and just looked at them silently understanding the reason behind startling him 'I can't believe you' he scoffed 'you thought I would kill myself!'

'we were just...'

Shahrukh interrupted Kajol 'get out please, let me finish what I am doing' he said calmly but Kajol and Rani looked at each other silently and didn't move 'please leave' he said again politely

Rani cleared her throat 'sorry we scared you' she said, took Kajol's hand and went out of the bathroom

'thank god' Kajol said and gave a relieved sigh then looked at Rani 'we scared the man for nothing' she said when they were still in the middle of the room

'I said get out' Shahrukh suddenly shouted startling both girls that they ran out of the room silently and closed the door behind him. Suddenly they both burst out laughing.

'oh my god that was crazy' Rani said taking her breath

'he won't forget it' Kajol said and shook her head 'but really our thoughts went too far' she said reassuring herself

'that won't stop us from watching him, but of course not in that stupid way. We nearly gave him a heart attack' Rani commented

'Rani please don't scare me' Kajol pleaded

Rani sighed 'fine, I will shut up'

'you better do'

Kajol and Rani stood near the dining room, waiting to see if Shahrukh will join them 'do you think he will have breakfast with us?' Rani asked

Kajol replied 'anything can be predicted. Why was he shaving anyway? Where is he going?' she asked

'would he go to the company?'

'in this case, I hope not' she said then saw Shahrukh coming downstairs and walking towards them

'why aren't you inside?' he asked calmly

'we were waiting for you' Kajol smiled nervously

He shrugged 'okay let's come in' he said, went inside and the girls followed him. He suddenly called for Anarkali startling everyone, and Anarkali came running.

'yes sahb' Anarkali said politely

'remove that chair please' he said and pointed at his sister's chair

'you could simply shift your place' Kajol said and shrugged

'it is not comfortable, I hate it' Shahrukh replied coldly. Anarkali just took the chair away and went out of the dining room. He moved his chair next to Kajol's and sat down silently. Rani and Kajol did the same and sat to the table.

'can I use it?' Shahrukh held a small knife in his hand and looked at Rani and Kajol sarcastically

'Shahrukh we said we are sorry; we were scared for you. That's why we behaved like this' Rani said calmly

'what are you talking about?' Arjit asked

'we saw a blade in his hand in the bathroom but it turned out that he was just shaving his beard' Kajol replied explaining and Arjit shook his head blaming

'don't worry, I haven't gone mad yet' Shahrukh said and sipped his coffee

'but we are still worried for you, what happened wasn't easy' Rani said kindly

'what happened?' Shahrukh asked casually

'your... sister' Poja said breaking her silence and raising an eyebrow

'whose sister?' Shahrukh asked narrowing his eyes that Poja didn't reply and just sipped her tea silently

'Shahrukh, what is wrong with you?' Kajol asked 'your sister...' Kajol took a deep breath then said '...Amira'

Shahrukh smiled 'I don't know what you are talking about' he said calmly and continued sipping his coffee quietly. Kajol looked at Rani and at her father then back at Shahrukh 'Whatever. I hope you aren't going to the company today' she asked changing the subject

'no, I need to rest a little bit, I realized I have never had a vacation or time for myself, and there are some things I need to discuss with uncle'

'Awesome. Yeah, stay with dad; this is a great idea' Kajol said smiling nervously 'oh my god' she mouthed looking at Rani

'uncle, can I ask you something?' Shahrukh asked nicely

'anything my dear' Arjit said smiling

'can I ask you for Kajol's hand?' Shahrukh asked confidently

Poja spitted her tea over the table 'what the hell he just said?' she asked in a shock

'finally' Arjit said happily giving a big sigh

'what?' Kajol asked looking at Shahrukh and feeling lost

'that is too much' Poja said and left the dining room

'will you marry me?' Shahrukh asked Kajol

'Shahrukh you don't know what you are saying. You are in a shock' Kajol said trying to keep herself calm 'let's talk about it later, okay?'

'will you marry me?' he asked again calmly

'Shahrukh please don't do that. You aren't in your normal case'

'for the last time Kajol. Will you marry me?' he asked starting to lose his patience

Kajol stood up 'no' she said and left the room

Shahrukh followed her out 'what did I do wrong?' he asked pulling her hand and stopping her

'what is this all for?' she asked coldly

'that is what I am trying to know Kajol' he said then asked 'what is this all for?'

Kajol wiped her face with her hand 'you are not feeling well. You don't know what you are saying; so please don't play with my feelings and regret your decision later. You aren't ready for what you are talking about' she said kindly

'Kajol please...' he tried to say but she interrupted, she took a deep breath but she still felt a lump in her throat 'Shahrukh I feel so overwhelmed, let's talk later please. Go to your room and rest' she said sadly and ran away towards the stairs.

Kajol heard a knock on her door 'I want to be left alone' she shouted then she leaned her head back to her desk. The door was opened and Arjit came in, he walked towards her and placed his palm over her shoulder. She rose her head and hugged him.

'I thought that his proposal to you would cheer you up' Arjit said sadly

She pulled back and stood up 'I wished that too, but he really doesn't mean it. Why now dad?'

'because he is ready now'

Kajol nodded in denial 'no, he isn't, he is acting out of shock. Shahrukh isn't feeling normal yet' she said sadly

He shrugged 'what do you want him to do more?'

'he needs to go back to his senses. We can't get married like this, I don't want him to regret it later and find out that he rushed everything' she said and ran her hand through her hair 'what has changed? Mom is still not agreeing to anything...'

'I don't care about what your mom thinks' Arjit said interrupting

Kajol furrowed her eyebrows 'what? Then what was all this drama for?'

'I wouldn't break my marriage with your mom for nothing' he said then placed his palms over her shoulders 'I would never beg or push Shahrukh to marry you, I was waiting for him to be ready and say it himself'

'Shahrukh isn't being himself. He is not feeling okay for god's sake' she said angrily

'maybe this is the best for both of you. He needs you by his side'

She sighed sadly 'I will be by his side; you don't have to ask me this. It is just... I don't want to take benefit of his case'

'don't worry; you aren't doing anything bad' he said reassuring

She hugged him 'thank you dad' she said and pulled back 'but we will have to postpone everything until he is really okay, that's my only condition'

'as you wish darling' Arjit said and kissed her forehead then walked out of the room. Kajol wiped her face and decided to look for Shahrukh.

She searched the whole house but she didn't find him anywhere and his car was in the parking. She didn't even find him sitting at the swing, she laughed at the idea that this swing is making enemies day by day; Rani and now Shahrukh, but then she remembered a place they haven't been to for so long. The roof. She went back in and ran upstairs. She finally found him and she went towards him panting.

'Kajol please go down, I want to be alone; and don't worry I won't jump' he said without looking at her and she rolled her eyes

'we need to talk' she said, still catching her breaths

He nodded in denial 'no we don't. There is nothing to talk about'

'there is Shahrukh' she insisted

He sighed 'then I don't want to talk about anything. I have no energy'

She said kindly 'let me at least make sure that you aren't angry with me'

He looked at her coldly 'I don't think it matters to you'

She ignored what he was saying 'why now?'

He ran his fingers through his hair in anger 'whatever I do doesn't please you' he shouted

'we have been like this for a long time knowing that you aren't ready and things weren't going well. We were making stupid plans and trying our best but never spoke about marriage. So why now?' she asked and he looked at her silently, she took a deep breath 'what was in the letter Shahrukh? What did she say to you?' she asked calmly

'who are you talking about?'

'that's it Shahrukh, that's why I said no to you. You are not feeling okay; you are in denial'

'then why do you want me to face it' he asked her angrily placing his palms over her cheeks

Kajol held his hands kindly 'she asked you to do this?' she asked

Shahrukh put her hands away, sat on the floor and she did so, he smirked 'she apologized, knew that I would be angry yet she did what she did. She told me to focus on my life because I deserve a chance and that I wasted my time on her'

'no one blames you for being angry at her, what she did wasn't easy; yet you can't take revenge of your sister by deleting her from your memories or just moving on with your life and act like everything is okay, because it is not' she sighed

'so you agree with her? I am the villain now?'

'Shahrukh I didn't say that. But she was right when she asked you to focus on your life and try to make things work, but not like that. You need to value your sadness, don't feel shy to cry, smash things, speak about what hurts you. You need to get yourself together first'

'that won't change the fact that you said no' he replied ignoring all what she said

'Shahrukh, I did so for your own good. I really care about you; you really need some time to yourself'

'yeah? Should I wait until your mom finds you someone else to marry and a new partner for the company?' he said sarcastically then continued 'You want us to go back to the very beginning? Whom should I lose this time? Tell me' he asked with anger

'whatever mom does or whatever happens; that won't change the fact that I will always be there for you. I really love you' she said reassuring him 'trust me Shahrukh'

He sniffed 'I am sorry for pushing too hard, but please take some time to think about it' he said looking at her in the eyes

'Let's focus on you first, okay?' she said and tightened her hand over his hand but he looked away hiding his tears.

Shahrukh remained in his room for the rest of the day taking Kajol's advice to face his sadness and admitting it, ignoring Kajol herself that was jumping around him and trying to cheer him up.

He finally managed to stay alone; he didn't even join them for lunch; not because he was in a hunger strike but because he didn't feel like eating. He was also embarrassed of how he behaved at the table and his sudden proposal to Kajol. He himself was surprised to hear those words being said from his own lips. 'but why not?' he asked himself. He has the company, Abhishik is out, Kajol loves him and he will try his best to persuade Poja. He felt less embarrassed when he thought that way, yet he still has the toughest part to think about; his old family.

Shahrukh grabbed his mobile that was over the nightstand next to him, he opened the gallery and scrolled all the photos until he reached the one that he was looking for. It was the same one which was in the frame. He didn't know what happened to the one he kept stepping on with his shoe on that day and he won't dare to ask about it, at least for now. He just found himself looking at the picture he captured with his mobile, not knowing at that time when he took it that it would be very useful later.

He put the mobile away on the bed and looked away closing his eyes. He took a deep breath then opened his eyes, took the mobile again and looked at the photo. Rivers of tears started rolling down his cheeks.

'All of you left me when I needed you the most. Yes, I am angry with all of you. I am broken, depressed and scared. You all had good intentions but all I needed is to have you by my side' he said sadly and burst out crying, then he leaned to the bed and closed his eyes.

Shahrukh was woken up by someone who was laughing, he opened his eyes slowly and found out that Poja is sitting over his bed and looking at how broken he was. He sat up and looked at her feeling lost.

Poja pouted sarcastically 'what happened? She said no?' she asked then took his mobile, looked at the photo and smirked 'it is sad to be ignored by all the people you loved the most' she said and smirked again 'now you know how it feels'

Shahrukh just kept looking at her in disgust so she spoke again 'Arre! Why aren't you saying anything like you always do? Did the cat eat your tongue?' she asked sarcastically

He nodded in denial, smiled confidently and she narrowed her eyes 'I will never be like you. I am surrounded by people who still love me, I have Kajol, uncle, Rani and Preity. I trust Kajol and I know she will say yes to me one day, I will wait for her to say it even if it took a hundred years' he said and stood up 'why aren't you saying anything? Did the cat eat your tongue?' he asked calmly

Poja shook her head 'if she was so sure that she wants to be with you she won't think about it' she said folding her 'face it'

'Kajol loves me'

'Kajol feels pity for you'

'that's what you want to believe' he said feeling frustrated

'or maybe it is the truth and you are just denying it like denying having a sister today at breakfast'

He covered his ears with his palms and closed his eyes 'I am not listening to you' he said

Poja burst out laughing 'oh my god, I don't know how you deal things back at the company with your teeny tiny brain. Your sister, who shares the same blood with you and the same pathetic genes has left you and ran away. It won't take a long time until Kajol gets bored of you and looks for another man. It is you who doesn't want to see the truth' she said and continued laughing

Shahrukh put his palms away from his ears then looked angrily at Poja 'You are just jealous of Kajol. You hate to see her happy or in love with someone' he said and Poja silently looked at him while he continued 'I am sorry that he didn't love you back, but now I can see why'

Poja stood up at once and slapped Shahrukh 'badtameez!' she said furiously 'you won't marry my daughter even in your wildest dreams. You will never be a part of this family, no matter what you do' she said firmly and stormed out of the room

Kajol stood in front of her dressing table in the morning to comp her hair. She had to go to college, it was only a few weeks for her final exams and she had to be ready for it despite what was going on in her house. She didn't want to leave Shahrukh alone but she was obligated to go out to college. She had no energy for the breakfast events so she decided to pass by Shahrukh in his room. She knocked and heard him asking her to come in, she opened the door and walked towards him. He wasn't sleeping yet he was still in bed and covering his face with the blanket.

'are you okay?' Kajol placed her palm over his forehead

'I faced my sadness' he said still closing his eyes

'and?'

'it is horrible'

She sat down in front of him 'I know it is not easy, but trust me; things will be okay' she said kindly and he just nodded silently and kept closing his eyes, Kajol blew then took a book out of her bag and started turning its pages

Shahrukh opened his eyes and looked at Kajol 'what are you doing?' he asked

Kajol shrugged 'studying, final exams are so soon'

He sat up and looked at her surprisingly then he placed his palm over her forehead 'Kajol are you okay?'

'very funny' she said coldly putting his hand away 'you are so lucky that you finished college. God I am dying to graduate'

'do you have any plans for after graduation?'

'taking you and Rani for a trip is my first plan, we all need to chill a little bit' she said then started reading the book in her hand. Shahrukh looked at her silently and remembered that his sister's exams were also so soon; he remembered that she also had plans for after graduation, but life will always be full of surprises.

'what was in your letter?' he asked sadly

Kajol suddenly remembered that he saw that she also had a letter in her hand, when she shockingly ran to his room without thinking. She didn't know back then why she ran to his room like crazy; but she just did. She didn't even know that his sister left him a letter, and if she didn't; would she let him read hers?

Kajol cleared her throat then smiled 'she apologized for leaving without saying goodbye and she asked me to take care of you' she pulled his cheek sweetly 'okay, time to go' Kajol said after looking at the hanged watch, kissed Shahrukh's cheek and went out of the room.

Kajol walked towards the parking, she hasn't drove to college alone since her hunger strike. She was about to go towards her car but she retreated. She walked towards the burnt car and looked at it for a few minutes. She closed her eyes and recalled burning the letter she had before somebody sees it and prayed that things go well in the next days, then she opened her eyes, walked towards her car, got in, turned on the engine and left to college.