I'm Pathetic (Zayn)

I did it again. I attacked Niall for no reason. I mean there is a reason, seeing him hold Louis' hand pisses me off. That should be me! No, what, what the fuck am I talking about. Im not gay, I have Perrie. I like her, for the most part. She's really fit and she actually cares about me. I hadnt always treated him like this. When he first moved here he didnt speak, ever. That was until Louis started talking to him and for the first time, he was smiling. That smile took my breath away, and it pissed me off that he didnt even notice me. So I started calling him names, I mean he even has it on his facebook profile that he's gay so he doesnt care who knows. I didnt mean for it to get this bad, I really didnt but I couldnt just stop. What would Harry think? Although, harry would probably just follow me because he's a great friend but thats beside the point. I cant help but think about those blue eyes, they're like the ocean and the sky had a baby and thats the color it ended up being. When  he first came here they were dull, until Louis befriended him and then they always sparkled. It was adoreable and I wished he paid me more attention. So I started messing with him, and the look always turned to pure fear but atleast he was paying attention to me. God im so pathetic. I cant even admit that I like this guy, but I want to admit it to atleast myself. I like Niall Horan, and he hates my guts. Lovely, just lovely.

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