Maddy 

    The burning in my throat got stronger as I downed another shot. "Ugh, what the fuck is this, Kat?" I scrunched my face up in disgust as I felt the aftertaste of the drink coating my mouth. 

    "A fireball? I don't know, Mads. Ethan got it for us. Just enjoy it, will you? Lighten up! It's New Year's." Kat said as she snuggled into Ethan. I involuntarily rolled my eyes at the happy couple. Just what I needed, another reminder of how single I am. 

    Then I felt someone hug me from behind. Strong but soft hands wrapped around my waist, I felt the flicker of hope light up in my chest, but then I turned around, and it was just Jules. "Why so pouty, Maddy? Cheer up! It's New Year's!" Jules screeched as she twirled me around. 

    "That's exactly what I told her!" Kat screamed to Jules. I forced on my biggest fakest smile at the two of them. "Happy now?" I asked as I showed them my wide grin. 

    Jules patted my cheek as she nodded her head. "So much better." She laughed out sarcastically. 

    "So, Jules, where's your friend?" I asked Jules, not taking another minute of not knowing where she was. I still felt terrible that I lied to her about the whole picking Nate over her thing. I still want her, incredibly so that I ended things with Nate for good. 

    "She should be around here." I quickly raised my eyebrows at her reply.

    "Yeah, where exactly?" I asked directly.

    Jules shrugged her shoulders. "Dunno, actually. She just talked to her sponsor, so I'm not sure."

    I involuntarily rolled my eyes again, not being able to stop it. "No, Jules, I meant. You know," I tilted my head side to side. Jules looked at me weirdly as she tried to decipher what I asked. 

    "Oh, fuck me! Jules, where's Y/N!" 

    "Y/N? Where is she? She here?" Lexi walked towards us as she asked question after question about Y/N. I wouldn't have guessed Lexi would be one of those girls who'd thirst over Lopez.

    "Well, where is she? I think she's with Cassie, and Cassie has been MIA ever since we fought earlier." I breathed out a breath of relief. "Oh, my God! I'm so sorry, Lex. We don't know either. Plus, it's Cassie. She won't miss a New Year's party." 

    " I guess you're right. I just wish she'd text me or something, you know?" We all nodded our heads sympathetically at Lexi. Cassie will show. I'm not too worried; she always does.

    ***  

        After my fifth shot, I needed to pee so badly, and when I was making my way to the bathroom,  Y/N finally walked into the party. No Cassie by her side, which drove Lexi absolutely crazy. "About time you showed up," I told Y/N as she strolled past me. 

    "Yo, where you waiting for me?" Y/N chuckled as she spun around, standing in front of me with a big ass grin. To say I was shocked that she wasn't pissed anymore would be an understatement.

    "Depends, are you still pissed at me?" I asked, hoping that that wasn't the case with every fiber of my being. Y/N licked her lips before she leaned into me. "I'm not that pissed anymore, Maddy. But I just can't shake the feeling that maybe, just maybe, you were lying."

    "Lying about what?" 

    "What you said when we went to Cassie's house." She responded quickly. Did she think about this a lot?

    "About that..." Suddenly, I remembered why I was in the middle of the living room. I needed to pee. "I gotta go." I walked right past Y/N, feeling my bladder about to explode. 

    Y/N immediately followed me. "Can I come?" She asked so desperately that I found it kind of endearing. "Whatever," I responded blankly, but I was actually stupidly happy inside. 

    Me and Y/N walked side by side as I tried to find the bathroom to this place. When I finally found it, the door was locked. I immediately started to pound on the door; manners be damned. 

    "I'm using the fucking bathroom!" Nate screamed out through the door. Y/N instantly scoffed as she leaned back on the door. "What are you doing? Jerking off? What's this gonna take, huh, Jacobs? An hour, two maybe?" 

    I lightly slapped Y/N's arm playfully, smiling as I did. "Shut up," I told her as I rolled my eyes. 

    Finally, Nate was done doing whatever the fuck he was doing. "I would shake your hand, but I don't want to get AIDS," Y/N said as she glared at Nate as he stood at the door. 

    "Yo, Maddy, can we talk somewhere private?" Nate said as he looked at me. I didn't get to answer as Y/N said. "Uh-uh, homeboy. She's coming with me. You've had your chance." Y/N said as she took me by the hand and led me to the bathroom, making sure to bump Nate's shoulder as we walked right past him. 

***

    "Turn around," I told Y/N as I squatted at the toilet, making sure not an inch of my skin touched the toilet. Y/N turned around as she lighted a joint. "So, you were saying earlier?" Y/N said as she took a hit.

    "Why are you asking about it?" I asked her, looking for toilet paper to wipe on but finding none. "Can you see any toilet paper?" I asked Y/N, and she spun around, seeing me still squatted at the toilet.

    Her eyes immediately widened as she took her time staring at me. Red blotches appeared from her neck up to her cheeks. I guess she gets that way when she's feeling too much. "Fuck, Maddy. I'm sorry. But damn, though." 

    "You're lucky I don't have anything to throw you with," I said as I stared daggers at Y/N as she quickly turned around. 

    "What about this?" Y/N said as she pointed to a small hand towel hanging by the tub. "You have to be fucking kidding me," I told her.

    Y/N snatched the towel and walked up to me with her free hand covering her eyes. "Oh, come, Mads. I jerk off into a sock—same thing." 

    "You are such a dude- wait, what?! What do you mean 'jerk off into a sock?'" I instantly stared at Y/N, who stumbled backward. She removed her hand from her eyes and took a hit from her joint. 

    "Shit, Maddy, I didn't want to tell you like this." So that's what Cassie meant when she said she wished it was Y/N and why Y/N got pissed at that party. Cassie fucking Howards tried to trap her ass. 

    "So you're like trans? That's cool. Jules is too, you know." I said with a smile as I gestured to the towel Y/N was still holding. "Can you toss that to me?"

    "Not even bothering to cover up, huh? Guess you want a piece of this!" Y/N said with a goofy smile as she playfully gestured to her crotch. I quickly threw the towel that I wiped with on her face. 

    "Maddy! Oh, my God, dude. I wanted to taste you but not like this. Nasty." Y/N said as she shook her head vehemently. 

   I laughed at her misfortune, and as my laughter died down, Y/N stared at me longingly. "No, I'm, uh," Y/N said as she nervously scratched the back of her head. A nervous habit of hers I observed from weeks of watching her. "I was born like this. My parents thought I was a boy, but then puberty came and then... tough times." Y/N finished with a sad smile. 

    "Poor baby," I said as I rolled my dress down and made my way to Y/N. I laid my hand on Y/N's cheek as she leaned into me. At first, I thought she was going to kiss me, but then she said, "Yo, Maddy, you didn't even wash your hands. Ew! But it's a good thing I really like you." 

    I don't even know who leaned in first, but all I knew was that we were making out. Her lips were a bit chapped, but they still felt so good. Her hands on my hips were a great fit, unlike Nate's, whose hands were rough and massive. 

    Time eluded us as we stayed in our little bubble for God knows how long, as we made out. Things were getting kind of handsy as Y/N's hands strayed and landed on my ass. I moaned out when I heard a vibration. 

    Y/N pushed me away as she asked, "What the fuck was that?" Y/N walked to the bathtub as she peeked into the bathtub's curtains. She got quiet for a sec, worrying me. "What the fuck is taking so long, Y/N."

    "It's nothing, Maddy. Listen, what do you say we get out of here. As in, out of this house. My place? You've never been." Y/N said with her back still to me as she stared into the bathtub. She quickly turned around and kissed me passionately before she grabbed my arm and pulled me outside. 

    "Ugh, I guess so," I told Y/N, feeling kind of weird. What the fuck just happened? But honestly, who cares? I finally got what I wanted. This is going to be a great fucking year. 

***

A/N

Yo, Y/N or you didn't even take that much time to move on, but in all honesty, you didn't really like Cassie that much to begin with, so yeah. I just thought I should clear that up.