We're currently on our way to our first award show for outer banks season 3. We're nominated for favorite bingeworthy show and we're all so excited. We've been talking about it this whole week and we truly can't believe the fan's response to our show has been so amazing.

It's my first red carpet so i've had so much fun choosing my dress and the makeup i wanted to go for. I'm wearing a beautiful long satin dark blue dress that i've kept previously in my closet for a month now.

It all still feel so surreal to me. This whole experience has taught me so much and me me meet so many people i call my family.

It's 7 pm and i'm sitting in this gorgeous van with madelyn, chase and Drew. The rest of the cast already arrived there but we had to take longer cause our stylists wanted to make sure we matched correctly. Madelyn with chase and me and Drew cause we're the only couples in the cast.

Drew and I have been dating for 3 months now and he's truly been the best thing that's ever happened to me. We started having crushes on each other during the filming of season 3 but we only did something about it after we were done filming. I remember when he asked me on our first date he was so nervous and kept stuttering. He drove me on the beach at sunset in his gorgeous car. He had prepared blankets and pillows in his truck for us to chill and watch a movie on his laptop. We had our first kiss that night and i've been the happiest ever since.

I'm put out of my thoughts by Drew's soft voice in my ear.

"You look absolutely gorgeous baby." he says and my heart warms.

"You look really handsome too." i say checking him out. He's wearing a gorgeous dark blue suit that fits him so well. I don't ever see him in suits so that's really a sight for sore eyes.

He smiles and kisses my forehead as i look back out the window. We're in California for a little and it's so pretty i could almost consider moving here.

The driver stops in the parking of the building so we don't enter by the red carpet yet. We first have to meet the rest of the cast, hang out a little and then walk the carpet.

Before leaving the car Drew pulls me close and kisses me tenderly. He's careful to not ruin my makeup when he puts his palm on the side of my cheek as i place my hands on his chest. We pull away and he puts his forehead on mine.

"What was that for?" i ask chuckling.

"Just my lucky charm kiss." he says smiling.

Drew steps out of the car first and grabs my hand to help me.

"What a gentleman!" i smirk and he kisses my hand proving my point even more.

"Only for you darling." he says smiling making me playfully roll my eyes.

I intertwine my hand with his arm as we make our way to our designated room followed by chase and madelyn.

We're welcomed by JD who lets us in.

"Ouhhh you guys look so cute matching and all!" Madison yells from the other side of the room.

"We sure do" Drew answers making us go sit on the couch.

"So when do you have to go to the red carpet?" madelyn asks grabbing a water bottle form the small fridge.

"Hmm they said in about 15 minutes." Austin informs us.

Some time later it's finally time to leave for the carpet. I'm starting to feel nervous but it's probably just excitement stress so i try to not think too much about it.

By now it's dark outside and as we make our way to the glass door i can see a lot of photographers already taking pics of other people.

Those are not the people paid by the event but more of independent paparazzis placed on the street, right before the carpet.

"Are they supposed to be there?" i ask my manager when she passes next to me.

"technically no but because they're not on the award show territory we can't do anything about them." she says and i nod.

"Ok so Rudy, JD, Madison and Austin you go first then chase and madelyn and Drew and y/n" we are told and so the first part of the cast goes outside.

We hear the paparazzis screaming and the flash lights go off. I watch that from inside waiting for our turn.

When we're asked to step outside i grab Drew's hand a little tighter. He looks down at my giving me a questioning look and mouthing 'you okay?'.

I nod but i feel some palpitations in my chest as my heart beats faster.

Shit

As soon as we step outside we're bombarded by the paparazzis, the flashes, the screams. And i guess because we're couples they're even more hungry for pictures.

I feel my breathing increase and i start to freak out cause i'm definitely staring to have one of my panic attack.

I've had those since i was i kid but they started being less and less frequent recently. But this is really triggering it.

My hand starts sweating in Drew's grip and i feel really dizzy. The street seems like it's never ending and i start trembling.

Drew's immediately alarmed by my shaking hand. He looks down at me worriedly and his eyes meet my watering ones. He frowns and seems to understand the situation cause he starts walking faster.

"Y/N DREW LOOK OVER HERE!"

"ON YOUR LEFT"

"Y/N SMILE FOR ME"

"LOOK AT ME"

i hear the paparazzis scream as i try to walk faster but my vision gets blurry.

"We need to go inside!" i hear Drew say to the security.

"But the carpet-" the guy starts but Drew's not having it.

"Now!" he says holding me closer to his body, bringing a hand in front of my eyes to try to stop the camera flashes.

The security makes us turn around, back towards the entrance we just left from.

The paparazzis seem confused but i can't focus on anything right now. My cheeks are now completely wet and i can barely breathe.

"What's going on??" i hear my manager ask as we walk past her but Drew's not wanting to waste time so we keep speed walking towards the room.

As soon as we get in he locks the door and helps me sit down on the couch.

He knows he has to keep his calm and so he softly brushes my hair away from my face.

"Baby do you have your medicine with you?" he asks now concern clearly present on his face.

"I- no..- i think- no." i try to say as i remember i haven't brought it with me cause i didn't think this was gonna happen. I was doing great these past few months.

He stands up and i watch him as he makes his way to the bag he brought with him. And i swear i sob harder when i see him come back with my medicine.

"I always have some on me for if something happens to you." he says handing them to me with a bottle of water but i can't move cause i truly can't believe he's real.

he really fucking cares.

"I- thank you" is all i manage to say as i grab the pill and the water.

"You can get through this. Concentrate on your breathing. Stay in the present." he says wiping my tears.

"I'm proud of you. Good job." he says as i start taking deep breaths

"Tell me what you need now." he asks and i'm so happy he remembers what to say in these kind of situations.

I've had 4 big panic attacks last year and he was there for 2 of them. Of course he was worried at first but then he did some researches and learned what to do when it happens.

"Hold me" i say in between breaths. And so at my permission he pulls me in a hug, softly massaging my back.

"I'm here. I'm not going anywhere." he keeps saying as i feel my breathing come back to normal.

We stay in each other's embrace for a while until we hear a knock on the door.

Drew stands up and go check. As he opens it i see the rest of the cast.

"Is she okay?" madison asks.

Drew looks back at me as to ask me the question and i nod already feeling slightly better.

"She's feeling better but we're gonna stay here a little more" he answers and they all nod.

"We were on the carpet and when we didn't see you behind us anymore we got worried." chase explains.

"yeah then we made our way back here. They're gonna be pissed but we really don't care." rudy says trying to look at me behind Drew's shoulder so i smile at him.

"Do you need anything y/n?" JD asks me.

"No i'm okay" i say calmly and he nods.

"We're gonna leave you guys but Drew call us if she needs something." austin says and my heart warms at how much i love my friends.

Once they leave Drew comes sit back next to me.

"I'm feeling better we can go back there." i say not wanting to ruin the night.

"baby i think you should rest now." he says stroking my cheek with his thumb.

"I-" i go to say i'm fine but my phone starts ringing. When i see my manager's name on the screen i answer and put her on speaker.

"Honey how are you doing?" she asks.

"A little better, still trembling a little but i'll be fine" i answer and i hear her sigh.

"You sure you don't wanna go back to the hotel and relax?" she says.

"No i swear as long as i can skip the carpet and go straight to my seat inside, i'll be fine." i say looking at Drew who's giving me a 'you sure?' look. i nod and turn my attention back to the phone.

"I mean you know yourself best y/n. So if you think you can go then i can't say anything." i hear her say and i smile.

I'm feeling better and honestly i really think the paparazzis triggered the attack so i'll be fine once i'm safe inside the area.

"yup i'm sure! Thanks for calling me Meghan it means a lot." i say standing up.

"Of course sweetie! I got so worried but i'm glad you're feeling better." she says and we finish the conversation.

Once i put my phone back in my purse i'm engulfed in Drew's arms

"So we're going there?" he asks. I can see he's still worried but he knows i wouldn't push if thought i couldn't handle it.

I nod and we make our way out the room.

The night goes smoothly and a few other shows have already won their awards. Our categories is the next one and we're all getting nervous around the table.

I meet rudy's gaze and he shows me his crossed fingers. I chuckle and cross mine too.

"And the award for favorite bingeworthy show goes to..." the host starts to say and my hold on Drew's hand on my lap tightens.

"OUTER BANKS! Congratulations guys!"

And it feels like everything goes in slow motion.

We all look at each other our smiles big on our faces. We stand up and before going to the stage we all join for a group hug.

And right here right now is exactly where i feel complete.

I feel like i've found my second family and as i look at Drew he's already looking down at me smiling.

"I'm so fucking happy right now!" he tells me grinning and his happiness fills my stomach with butterflies.

"Me too baby!" i say reaching up to kiss his lips softly.

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