I know, I know I haven't updated and I know some of you are disappointed because half of my book is A/n

But come on, those people on the screen may seem cool or amazing but when you look behind the screen there also normal humans like you,celebrity or not there also humans.

My life has been gotten harder than before, usually when I was 5 and a half (or a quarter) I was cheerfull and then boom I became silent as ever.

I rarely talk to any body, and my family always criticised me to talk with people because they say I can't live with out communication,yes it is true.

I know some people also went through this, certain times family's don't understand you, you have secret that you keep locked up, you a have ticking bomb inside of every time you've been angered, and just waiting to be exploded.

Family's will never understand you because they were never in your spot, they want you to be like them in there own point of view, instead of you're own.

Certain family's tried to understand or help, but it never works until they fully understand you.

Family who are an extrovert and your a introvert will forced you to talk to people, well Its hard to straight up to talk to people if you have Anthropophobia.

Fear of humans or relation or social phobia.

And I have those.

Anthropophobia is an extreme, pathological form of shyness and timidity.

And when people straight up asked you to talk you either run or stay frozen.

We're also self conscious and are afraid of judgement but we also will snapped if you push to hard, we sometime put a mask to hide it.

We can also feel your judgemental eyed staring at us and we will get away quickly, but if you straight up said it, to bad we won't back away.

We're not depressed of it, were disappointed of it for making our self locked away from humanity.

We will talk normally to close one's but new one's, not so much.

That's when some of us went to the internet, they say relationship with each other in the internet is not real or don't last.

But, those people behind that screen of mine, they understand more than the person looking me face to face.

In the internet you just say something with out knowing there name or anything about them you instantly became friends, dating each other, sisters, brothers, a whole big family.

And for the people say certain fandom will never last, yes it won't, but sometimes in a fandom can become a family, we fight like siblings, we laughed, we cried, we shared.

They understand each other, yes there is cyber bullying, but just like I said, there humans behind those screen.

And once you meet in real life and made us snapped, you'd probably wouldn't be able to go ruining people life's.

Thank You for reading until the end and I will still update don't worry it'll be just slow for awhile so yes good bye.