Sleep has never really been my thing. As a gay kid with clinical depression and ADHD, I'm practically nocturnal. I can only sleep around people I trust intensely or if the sun is in the sky.

Staying up till dawn talking to Kazu makes me smile and blush and just Oh MY GOSH!! They're words and the way they are makes me so happy. We don't even have to use words but we get each other.

They love my writing. I love their words. A message from them makes me bolt up from my seat next to my cat.

" Cohen, I honestly cannot believe how someone so amazing could fall for me, you're just perfect, I'm not exaggerating I can't name a single thing about you I don't like."

I'm suddenly very aware of my heartbeat. My breathe hitches. They're so cute, and kind, perfect, funny and free-minded.

I don't mind staying up till 4 AM if it means I get to talk to them.