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"Have you ever been fingered?"

His question is incredulous beyond belief. But the way he asked it so casually for some reason didn't make me feel as awkward as I should be.

"Yeah, just not by another person though" I answered, making his brow raise.

His eyes calmly gazed into my eyes as his hands that were on my waist were lightly stroking me. "By yourself then?" He asks further to clarify, kinda dazed as he fixates on me.

I nod my head. "I tried it once"

"And how was it?" He Deadpanned. I could feel the grip he had on my waist vaguely tense.

"Umm.. I couldn't finish.." I admit a bit reluctantly. It was embarrassing to be honest, the fact that I even did it in the first place but also that I couldn't finish at all.

"How come you never tried again?"

"I don't know, I guess I just gave up after" I honestly just gave up after one failed attempt and never did it again.

A dangerous grin looms on his lips when hearing what had just been revealed. "Take this off" Namjoon said without notice as he gestured at my towel that was miraculously still clinging onto my body.

I however only cling tighter when hearing his request. "Why?"

He laughs. "I wanna see you"

I've never been naked in front of this man, actually I've never been naked in front of any man in my life. What if he sees my rolls and thinks I look ugly, what if he's disgusted when seeing me.

I look at him and see him patiently waiting for me to let my towel go. I sigh when lowering my head. "B-But I'm naked underneath" I muttered as I shifted a little in his hold that had slowly loosened.

Just then, I was unprepared when I felt a hand find its way to my neck.

His grip was firm and yet not too constricting as he harshly lifted my head up. My eyes shot open wide as I met his fierce gaze. I immediately knew he wasn't about to choke me out but for some reason I felt a little scared and slightly turned on.

The coldness of his wedding band that I hadn't noticed he was wearing until now, rubbing harshly against my skin as he lightly squeezed his fingers around my neck.

"What did I tell you about looking at me when you're talking to me?" He said calmly as he leaned forward, fanning his breath on my cheek.

"Sorry" I say as when keeping my eyes on his own, never breaking eye contact with him.

Slowly moving his other hand that was on my waist upwards till his hand was over mine. He pulled my hand away from the towel and just like that I felt cold air wrap around my body making me gasp.

"Fuck" His gaze was fiery and intense as he scanned his eyes down to my now completely exposed body.

The feeling of being consumed just by looks was something I hadn't known till I met Namjoon, the way he looked at me felt like he wanted to consume every inch of body for his own need and pleasure.

"The things I wanna do to you" He mumbled under his breath when reaching his free hand presses a pointer finger on my chest. "So many ways to defile this perfect body" He continued as he slowly brought his finger down my chest till the end of my navel making goosebumps attach on my skin.

"Like what?" I whispered.

"You don't want to know, trust me" He says, making me feel a strange pit form in my stomach. What does he mean by that?

Suddenly letting his hold on my neck, he then bends down. Wrapping both his hands under my thighs before picking me up and placing me on the cold sink. Before I knew it, his lips were on my jaw placing a rough kiss. Stirring up my stomach with butterflies that felt like they were about to break through.

Letting his tongue escape, he glided slowly along my skin before he bit down gently, gaining a soft moan to leave my mouth.

My hand found their way to his chest to steady myself, only to mentally drive myself into hysteria at the feeling of his soft and yet firm tiddes in my hands. They feel fucking amazing.

Moving my hair that was still wet behind my ear, exposing my neck as he slowly traveled kisses down to my neck. Grazing his lips, his mouth to my neck and kissed along my pulse, sucking it hard.

"N-No.. no hickeys" I moan helplessly and he completely ignores me, only sucking harder.

I knew my neck would be a mess with hickeys in the morning but his hot mouth felt too good to stop him. While his mouth went to town on my neck, his hands grasped at my thighs and he spread them open. His grip tight into my thigh as he made sure to open it wide enough to fit in between my legs.

My nails lightly scraped against his chest as his lips trailed from my own down my jaw, to my shoulder and then down to the hollow of my collar bone. I sucked in a sharp lungful of air as I suddenly felt his finger close to my opening.

Teasing my slit as he slowly moves it up and down. "You're dripping.." He whispered, his breath now fanning my chest as his fingers still toys with my opening.

I breathed a shaky breath.

My hands now finding a way to his hair as those glorious lips continued further down. He glanced up at me, a question in his eyes as he stopped at the top of my breasts.

I nod my head a bit to give him the go and immediately one of his hands reached to cupped my boob. His finger slowly circles around my nipples and his thumb momentarily stroking them. A cold shiver spread through my whole body.

His hands continued to circle and define my breasts when putting his mouth to my free nipple, sucking hard and chewing very lightly with his teeth. He cupped and emphasised my boob that was in his hand, giving me an uplift from underneath.

"Oh my god" I let out, as he continued the assault on my nipple, tongue swirling around my hard bud before doing the same to the other one. The sensation left me dizzy, and completely intoxicated in lust as his tongue brushed over a sensitive spot I didn't even know I had.

So blinded in lust that I had only just realized Namjoon had slipped his finger up into me. My eyes are shut and lips parted as a soft moan escapes from my lips.

A second finger snapped to my clit and quickly went to work, pumping inside me while pressing, rubbing up and down, left and right my clit. I bit my lip trying to not scream as he used as much force as he could.

Speeding up his fingers, keeping the movements just as small. He then teases me a little bit, as he brushes his fingers.

My eyes shot open when suddenly he inserted another finger. "Ah.. too m-much" I moan as he stretched me out the farthest I've ever been. His eyes looked up at me.

He pumps them at a moderate pace, monitoring my face as he again bit my nipple harshly. Building up momentum from a slow but deep rhythm to shallower quick movements. Now and again, dipping his fingers as my hips moved a little in unison with him.

Getting closer, I concentrated on my clit, rubbing it vigorously. "You like that?" He asks as he curls his fingers against my walls here and there as he pumps me harder.

"Y-Yes" My hips buck up to meet the thrust of his fingers, and my pants are getting heavy. He focuses on how my walls contract around his fingers, how my sounds get softer with each stroke. I was overwhelmed.

My clit was throbbing, my body was aching for release and I clung to Namjoon's hair still in my grasp, yearning so badly for that orgasm I was so close to feeling. His eyes were still locked with mine, watching my face, my mouth as I moaned and bit my lip with each thrust.

I moan out loud. "Namjoon I-"

My legs began to strain on the sink as I clenched and dripped onto his hands and the counter.

I whine when he quickly pulls his fingers out. Standing up to no longer hunch while spreading the wetness that clings to them around and against my clit.

I watched the man before me bring the fingers he'd just had inside me to his mouth. He sucked it, maintaining eye contact.

"How was your first time having an orgasm baby?" He says when pulling his fingers away and wrapping his arms around my waist again.

"It was amazing, I want more" I say when leaning in closer to him.

A small grin displays on his lips."How much more do you want, should I fuck you hard against this sink?" He whispers when inching closer to me.

"Yes please..."

Our lips just barely touched as his breath mingled with mine. He moves just a tad closer to brush his lips against mine, and just when he was about to lean in more he pauses when hearing a sudden knock on the door.

Namjoon and I stayed still, only slightly moving back to look at each other before turning to look at the door. "Honey, we have to be there in an hour, are you done?!" I heard mom's voice from behind the bathroom door.

It was at that moment that it dawned on me. I just got fingered in the bathroom by my mom's husband, aka my stepdad.

We quickly parted from each other, as I hoped from the sink Namjoon picked up my towel that was on the floor and shook it off before wrapping it around my body again.

I hear the door handle moving, making me panic. I hurry and go to the door to put my hand on the handle. Looking back to make sure Namjoon couldn't be seen, I opened the door slightly to poke my head out.

"I'll be done in a few minutes" I say when looking at the annoyed look on my mother's face. She was already dressed, wearing a long sleeve blue dress with matching heels.

"What's taking so long in there, you're not doing drugs in there, are you?" She asked with a curious raised brow and I immediately shook my head.

"No mom, I'm just getting ready, I'm almost done I promise" I say quickly to reassure her all the while feeling guilty knowing what I was actually doing in her for so long.

She just sighs. "Whatever, just hurry up"

Walking away before I could say anything back. I then close the door again and turn around and without warning I feel lips on mine. It was a short and sweet chaste kiss, leaving me practically breathless when he parts.

I don't even get a chance to react before he then leaves without a word.

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A/N:
I just wanna say that I'm sad that our boys didn't win, especially since we all know how much they wanted to win.

The Grammys were honestly not even subtle when purposely pushing the award so far to the end of the show to milk all the views from us.

Anyways, even though I'm not going, I can't wait forward for their concert!!