I woke up on the chair of a hospital room. The first thing I saw was Taylor's body laying on a bed. Is he dead ? I was wondering if they let me here so that I could tell the police about the fact I killed him. As all I could do was think, a doctor entered the room and shook my hand not even giving me the time to realize he was here.

"Mrs Willson, how are you ?" He asked.

I simply nodded and he smiled as an answer.

"I don't care about what you were doing with him. I will not ask any question but I'm not sure of the nature of your relashionship with mister Carter.. Anyway, if you're close to him you should know that he has leucemia and those nasty games ar-.." He kept talking I guess but my brain stopped listenning.

My whole organism stopped reacting after I heard "He has leucemia" and it's probably the only words I really focused on.

"I'm going to leave you now.." The doctor said noticing something was wrong with me before leaving.

I suddenly felt a hand grabbing mine from behind making me froze before remembering it was Taylor.

"That's not your fault. I'm fine." I managed to hear.

I was feeling so culprit and I couldn't forgive myself. I quickly ran out of the room, out of the hospital and arrived at work in tears. I've seen nobody until I arrived into my office. A bunch of men were waiting for me and when I arrived, all of them gazed at me.

"We want to vote for the new boss." They yelled.

"Vote ? I'm the best worker here, that's the only reason why I'm the boss." I answered.

I knew why they wanted to vote, I knew that if I let them, it would kill the whole firm because no one of them is able to direct this company. Letting them lead would be an error but unfortunately, as we're in democracy, I cannot stop them. I rolled my eyes and nodded holding my tears avoiding they're sights. All of them went outside leaving me in a total break down. Three days passed before I heard about Evan getting the presidency. I didn't dare to go out of my home because I was still shocked. I acted like a slut and pratically killed the man I had a crush on. Fortunately, my best friend, Fati, was coming everyday to talk with me and have great time. I suddenly heard the door and quickly went to open it. I have been surprised finding Taylor standing in front of me. My mouth opened to say something but right before, his lips got crashed on mine nearly choking me. Without stopping the kiss, he pushed me inside to be able to close the door as he started pulling my shirt to leave me topless because I had no bra. He kept his eyes closed while kissing me and unbuttoning my pant to slip his fingers inside. I instantly pulled away but he brought me back in his arms and ripped my panty.

"Taylor !" I shouted.

I was already totally naked while he had all his clothes on, but he didn't take so much time to get naked.

"What are you doing ?" I asked as he wrapped my own legs around his waist.

"I wanna show you my way to make it. It's not like rape. I promess." he mumbled placing his length against my entrance.

"Wait ! I never made love since my rape !.." I let out.

He froze and looked into my eyes staring at my boobs sometimes.

"You're.. virgin ? If I could say.." He asked.

I nodded making him hesitate. I didn't know if I wanted to make it again but he teased me. I would have to put all my energy in rejecting him.

"Then it can't just happen that way.." he said.

"No, I'm fine with it." I told him.

He placed his hands on my ass to lift my back up in his arms before going upstairs. He put me on the bed and stared at my naked body for a while. It felt eternal but actually, it was only some minutes. Then, he started placing his lips all over my body. I could feel him licking and kissing my breasts before going to my neck, back to my boobs and then to my belly. My hands were all over his hair pulling them slowly to make him moan.

"I'm gonna go soft and very slow." I heard him say.

I noticed the sound of a sort of paper getting ripped before he slowly pushed inside me. It didn't feel good, it actually started burning and hurting as hell remembering me my rape. Tears started running down my cheeks to the pain I was feeling.

"Hey, it will feel great soon. I promess." He declared but I couldn't stop crying.

"I'm bleeding." I suddenly noticed.

"I know. It's okay. Do you want me to stop ?.." He asked noticing the fear in my sight.

"No. Keep going." I ordered after reflexion.

He restarted thrusting harder inside me hitting my spot until it felt good, provoking as many moans from him than from me. He lift me up from the bed to crash my back against the cold wall. His lips all over my neck, his member moving in and out of me and his muscular arms around my waist were making me feel like I was already in heaven. I was probably sort of high because all I was feeling was his fast pushes and a hot liquid falling down my legs as he went out placing me on the bed again. His body fell weakly by my side as he pulled me closer in his arms, kissed my forehead and caressed my hair until we both slept.

The next day, I woke up smelling eggs and bacon reminding me my childhood as my dad loved that breakfast. I stood up, surrounded my body with the sheets and walked to the kitchen. I surprised Taylor placing my arms around his chest while he was cooking. He instantly laughed and let the food fall from his hands.

"Good morning beautiful !" He exclaimed.

I nodded against his back and let the sheets fall down my naked body. His sight moved on it and pulled me closer to kiss my breasts. I moaned watching him devouring my entire body until he arrived to my feet lifting up the sheets to cover me back with it.

"You look stunning." He said smiling.

"And you're handsome." I answered carressing his abs.

I kissed him as he were squeezing my ass and finally went back to the bedroom to get dressed. Last night was my most intense sexual experience. He made sure it would be perfect for me even if I heard too many girls complaining about their first time. Taylor was definely the sweetest guy I knew.

As I was putting some makeup on, he appeared behind me and surrounded my waist with his muscular arms.

"You don't need that, you already know it, right ?" he gently asked.

"Stop.." I mumbled smiling "I'm falling in love."

He kissed my neck making me feel goosebumps all over my skin before he quit the bathroom laughing. I sighed looking at myself into the mirror remembering every single moment of our night. It became super hard for me to not love him.

When I finished getting ready, the first thing I did was to go find Taylor to kiss him in the hardest possible way.

"What was that for ?" He asked me.

"For last night.. and for everything.. I mean, no honestly, I just wanted to. I'm sorry." I admitted.

"You don't have to be sorry.. babe." He mumbled.

As I heard the word 'babe' coming out of his mouth, my whole body froze. It felt bizarre and I was in total frustration. I faked a smile, grabbed my purse and left quickly. After few minutes, I arrived at the firm with all my thoughts related to the word Taylor let out. He did it on purpose and didn't wonder if it would matter to me.

"Good morning boss !" I suddently heard.

"Morning." I answered and entered my office.

All I could focus on, is what Taylor said. He certainly wonder why I left that way. I've been stupid. Why didn't I wait for him ? Why have I been that stupid ? Why did I kiss him and why did I even sleep with him ?

I started having head aches due to all the questions and reflexion I was thinking about. I didn't even hear the door until I saw someone in front of my desk.

"What's wrong ?" Taylor asked.

"I'm sorry.. I-I don't know. Nothing. Can we just keep what happened yesterday to ourselves..?" I questioned.

"Do you have any regret about that ?" He answered with another question.

"..No-I-I mean.. Just don't-" I started to talk but he cut me off.

"I'm not the type of guy who'll go tell to his friend that he fucked his boss if that's what you're scared of." He said angrily and left.

"No Taylor !" I stood up and ran after him to catch him back.

"Let go Kelsey. You're just not ready to have this sort of relashionship. I was wrong to do that with you." He declared.

"No, you weren't wrong, it was the best night of m-" He cut me off again.

"Whatever." Taylor mumbled and left again but I managed to catch him back again.

I didn't know what went through my mind at that moment but I crashed my lips on his, in front of everyone and felt his hands holding my waist to pull me closer as our lips were moving in rythm.

"I'm sorry, I was just frustrated about the fact you called me babe." I explained.

"I can understand.." He answered as we both noticed all the eyes on us.

"What are you looking at ? Keep doing your job !" I ordered and they all obeyed.

After making sure nobody was looking anymore, Taylor slowly slaped my ass before I went to my office laughing. I was totally falling for Taylor and I couldn't even admit it. It sounded like I was 15 again and I had no idea how to get him out of my mind. I had no idea how those things worked and it would make me feel very bad. I started having belly aches and didn't knew how to handle it.

I saw the door opening to let Taylor enter before he closed it again.

"What do you want ? You should be work-" I started a sentence but he didn't let me finish.

"I'm falling in love with you." He said before crashing his lips on mine.

"I love you." I let out against his lips and his eyes instantly grew big. "I'm sorry." I excused myself as my eyes grew big too.

It felt like I wasn't the one who talked at that moment. I could only blame my mouth for letting out such a stupid thing.

"You don't have to be sorry. I wasn't expecting to hear that from you actually.. But I love you too." He said.

"Oh my God, this cannot happen.." I whispered.

"Hey, look at me." He murmured grabbing my face between his hands to make sure my eyes will meet his "Being in love is a beautiful thing.. You shouldn't be afraid of that."

"The last time I fell in love, I've been raped. This is not something I miss so no, I'm not afraid, I just received my lesson and it cannot happen again." I explained.

"You should give me a ch-" he started and for the first time, I was the one to cut him off.

"Get out please." I turned around to face my desk and heard him leaving.

One more time in my life, I was lost. I totally rejected him even if he was the sweetest person I've ever met. I was afraid of love while all he wanted, was to let me know that he'll do his best for me to feel better. I reacted like a kid, I messed up, as always, and I had no chance to fix it. A part of me didn't even want to try to make things better. I was too afraid remembering all my old sexual experiences totally forgetting the amazing night I had with him. I finally sat on the chair deciding that I would just wait and time would make things better.

I was right, it last two days before he was in front of my door again.

"We need to talk." He said and the longest conversation of my life started.

Every single time he was talking, I would just lose myself in his eyes, his body or just him in general. We had no secret anymore and I told him all the things that happened to me related to sex.

"I lost myself after rape. I used to.. cut myself, vomit all day long because I was disgusted of myself or because I was feeling as fat as an elephant. I totally lost my desire to live. I tried to kill myself. One time. Maybe you don't understand what I went throught cause for you it might be a simple rape but for me, it meant the destruction of my entire life. I didn't provocate that guy. He was just completely drunk. It traumatized me. Forever." I explained.

"Listen, I'm not that guy. The first time we made love, did I hurt you on purpose ? I know that it was hurtful, it wasn't my first time at all so I can guess what you felt but I didn't want to hurt you. I never will. I me-" he answered.

"I know Taylor. It's not about you.. I just feel that I can't be in a relashionship, it will hurt me anyway. Guys are assholes. All of them, no exception." I cut him off.

"I'll give you the time you need Kelsey. I just love you, okay ? If you'll never try to give me chance, it will be your decision but I'll wait for you 'cause no matter how many girls I made out with, I've always been attracted by you. I just felt you had no feeling, you looked super cold every time. I'm sorry about that and also about what happened to you in the past but I'm not going to hurt you. At the opposite, I would like to prove you wrong." He said and grabbed his coat ready to leave me in my thoughts "I'll see you tomorrow boss."

I lift my head up to watch him open the door as my body obligates me to run after him. It's what happened. I caught him again for a kiss that became super soft as he wrapped him muscular arms around my waist.

"So what ? I have a chance ?" He asked.

"You have as many chances as you need." I responded smiling eager to kiss him again "Would you.. Spend the night here..?"

"Of course baby." He mumbled against my mouth before lifting me up to wrap my legs around his body.

We went inside my bedroom and he put me on the bed before placing his lips all over my neck. I took my top off instantly exposing my boobs that he started kissing right after.

"I hate that.." I mumbled moaning.

"Hate what ?" He asked between my breasts.

"You're changing me.." I said.

I felt his tongue on my nipples before his fingers were rubbing my lower part.

"T.." I hardly moaned.

"Let's eat something." He took his hands off of me and left the room leaving me speechless.

I didn't know if I did something wrong or if he was just playing with me. Anyway, if he was about to play that game, I would win. I took all my clothes off and went down the stairs to join him in the kitchen. I sat down and watched his back moving while he was cooking something.

"It's just a little sal-" he choke on his own word.

I grabbed his shirt to pull him before throwing him on a chair in front of me. He was about to stand up again but I placed my heel on his chest. I was the only 'clothe' I kept.

"What are you playing at ?" He asked.

"Don't mess with me mister Carter." I mumbled looking deep into his eyes.

"I like to mess with you misses Willson." He whispered pulling me from my leg to place me on his lap.

"Do you like my outfit sir ?" I asked.

"Would you stay like that all days long ?" He answered.

"Only if you beg me to." I said and stood up to leave the kitchen.

I just walked a bit before he caught me back to kiss me.

"I love you Kelsey." He said smiling and carressing my hair while looking into my eyes.

"And I love you too mister Carter." I responded smiling back at him.

Four hours passed before I woke up to not find him anymore in the bed. Have I done something wrong during our love making..?

But suddenly he appeared again and came back into the bed while I pretended to be asleep. He wrapped his arm around my body and pulled me closer to him.

The next morning, I woke up due to his phone. It kept ringing during a whole hour or more.

"Taylor, your p-" I said before noticing he wasn't here again.

I sighed before grabbing it. He had 37 calls and 2 messages.

'Man, stop this game.' Followed by 'This girl is poison, I know you're helping but it's dangerous.'

I got dressed and went down the stairs to look for him but he wasn't here at all. Which girl was that person talking about ? Was Taylor in danger..?