-Morning- 

"agh, that was a nice sleep" I sarcastically say, 

I don't know what happened and how did I end up on my sofa with all my things on me... when did I got to my apartment???? The hell. I kept on searching my phone and shit, I didn't even brought my phone with me. Stupid dog. ugh guess I'll walk back to our dorm. 

I packed up my stuff fixed my hoodie, of course If you're going to wear a hoodie the hood should be up, fix my facemask and eyeglass then proceeded to go down, as I went down I bumped into a tiny girl. 

"watch where you going dude" I said, 

"oh uhm hi Yujin, hope you're okay now" she said while smiling,

uhm what the fudge happened last night....

"oh uhm you too....uhm sorry I really have to go..." I said, 

then walk my way out the apartment the headed back to the dorm. 

-Arrived at the dorm- 

I knocked on the door and... 

THUD. 

"owww.... guys what the fuck." I said, 

"Yujin language." Eunbi sternly said, 

as everyone except her and Chaeyeon tackled me to the ground while crying

"guys, please let go of me, I can't breathe" I said, 

everyone stood up and gathered themselves up...

"where were you been? We can't reach you anywhere." Eunbi angrily said, 

"sorry I kinda forgot my phone and left it here at our dorm" I said, 

"you don't say asshole" Youngz said and threw my phone onto my face

"OW"

"Haha deserved and Wonyoung language please." Eunbi said, 

"guys I'm sorry that I left, I just needed to unwind myself and I don't know how I got to my apartment" I said, 

"WTF YUJIN DID YOU DRINK AGAIN?" Eunbi angrily shouted, 

"uhm yes...." I murmured,

" I TOLD YOU BEFORE DO NOT DRINK ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGE, AND WHO THE FUCK DID SELL YOU BEER?" Eunbi angrily said, 

"uhm... I... some store nearby my place?" I replied, 

"I SWEAR IM GOING TO BEAT SOMEONE'S ASS TODAY" Eunbi shouted and proceeded to go to the door but Hyewonie calmed her down before it escalates again 

"babe..shhh... she's okay, she's here now." Hyewon comforted her

"WAIT BABE????" Duck Unnie shouted 

"UHM YUJIN YOU'RE GOOD HOPE YOU NEVER DO IT AGAIN UNTIL YOU TURN 18 BYE-BYE" Eunbi said proceeded to drag Hyewonie away from us 

"UNNIE EXPLAIN..." Yena shouted and followed them along

"uhm guys I'm okay now, sorry for making you guys worried." I said to the rest of the members

"nah, we understand it bro, we all have different ways to cope so its cool, just next time please bring your phone. We don't wanna play find waldo with you being waldo." Wonyoung said then fist bumped my arm 

"thank you unnies, Chaeyeon Unnie, Chaewonnie, Minju-nie, Dwarf unnie, Bread unnie, Bratty unnie and Youngz. I'm going back to my bunk to rest now." I said 

then proceeded to go to our room, I laid down and started getting sleepy....

-April 29, 2021- 

"Hi, how was your day today? It's a bit sad to think that this email is really the last one, right? I've been watching more today. It's a bit cold. You have to ask me if I ate every day or if I had a happy day. Make sure to eat delicious meals and stay healthy. I'm sure WIZONE knows better about that. Don't worry and have fun day by day. Thank you so much for loving and supporting us the last time. I'm very lucky to meet 11 members and WIZONE. Most of all, there are 11 people I can contact when I'm tired. And lastly! They always send me letters of love. I felt sorry for not being able to reply to them. Thank you so much. I will be a better person so that I don't regret the times when I liked and cheered. I love you. Bye. 💙". 

and done, posted my last message to our fan mail, I'm sure going to miss this, miss my family.

you maybe wondering what IVE been up to, so during that 3 month hiatus it was the most downing experience for me I always sneakily drink beers from my unnies and did smoke a little bit... I mean a lot after all the stress I experienced is really difficult to cope so yeah and don't even ask how I managed to have access on that... well I know a person so that should have a reasonable explanation, after that when I went to my house my parents decided to just vacate the house and leave a single letter stating that they don't want anything to do with me. So yeah, good thing about it was I left a little bit of clothes there so nonetheless my valuable stuff wasn't really thrown away. 

Nobody knows anything about it up until December when all of the members will have to go home to for Christmas up until the new year, of course I wouldn't let them know the problems that I had, I always had an excuse every time they've mention when I was going to visit my so called "home", so when I was asked what would I do in the upcoming Christmas and new year celebration I lied that I'll be staying home with my "family" then inquire them on what they'll be doing in Christmas and new year so after that I thought that no member will return... 

Allas she did, Chaeyeon Unnie did. So she started asking me questions about it then after that it all  just came out how I was disowned and abandoned by my "family" the only person who actually know about my situation was Hyolyn sunbae, so the story goes as...