I franticly looked around.

AJ promptly pointed to the right direction. ''That way.'' She smiled.

''Thanks.'' Seth replied.

He walked away.

''Do you think he heard?!'' I whispered.

''I have no idea.'' AJ replied scratching her lobe. ''Let's go back now.''

''Yeah, ok. I'm screwed.''

We went back to the hotel and I felt so trapped.

AJ tried to comfort me, but the truth was that someone was going to get hurt and that someone was everyone.

Dean is going to feel so betrayed.

Seth is going to realize I still deeply love Dean.

I am going to lose both of them.

Roman will have his best friends fighting over a stupid girl.

AJ is going to have to give up on Roman because of me.

I am a disaster.

I buried my face in an insanely soft pillow and let out a growl.

It felt relaxing.

Someone knocked on my door.

I dragged myself in front of it to open.

''Do you want to talk about it?'' Seth shrugged with his hands in his pockets.

''Nope.'' I said trying to shut the door.

He blocked it with his hands.

''Very funny.''

He let himself in.

''You are very welcome to come in.'' I said sarcastically.

''I heard you... earlier today.'' Seth frowned.

''I have no idea of what you are talking about.'' I stated with confidence.

''I want to be with you, Aimee. Let's be reasonable here, ok?'' He said without hesitating. ''If you are not happy with Dean, then--''

''Wha... Seth, who says I'm not happy with him?'' I cut him off.

He let out a bitter laugh. ''You gotta be kidding me... You guys have been together for like two days and you are already having second thoughts. Stop pretending it's all your fault!''

''I am not pretending!'' I said locking my ankles. ''Wait... by you, you mean just me or...?''

''I might have said too much...'' He said fixing his see-through tank top. ''Look, I want to be your first choice, not your spare tyre.''

''Is this what you think?'' I whispered. 

''I didn't mean it...''

''If you feel like I am this awful, then why do you want to be with me so badly?'' I cried.

''Aimee...'' Seth pulled me into a hug. ''You feel so attached to him, because of all you have been through together. I do not expect to talk you out of loving him, but just...think about this, ok?'' He said pulling my face out of his embrace. ''For me.''

''I will.'' I said staring into his eyes. 

He leant in to kiss me and his lips barely touched mine.

''You have all the time in the world.'' He said giving me a kiss on the hand.

''I... do?'' I asked in disbelief.

''Yeah.'' He replied, completely changing facial expression.

''Alright what's the downside?'' 

''I am offended.'' Seth gestured dramatically.

''Mh-hm. What's the downside?'' I insisted.

''Well, it's only fair that, if you keep seeing your boyfriend, I have every right to see whoever I want.'' He shrugged.

I left his hand. ''So you are going to be a whore.'' I smirked.

''I see you are a smart girl. You are gonna beg me to wear this top.'' Seth said with a daring smile.

''We'll see.'' I whispered in his ear.

As much as I tried to focus on that little game me and him had going on, I couldn't stop hearing my heartbeat.

''Alright. I should go now. You know... before we rip-off each other's clothes.'' He winked.

''Keep dreaming, Sethy boy.'' I smiled.

He shook his head with a smirk on his face and walked out of my room.

I threw myself on the bed and let out a big sigh.

''At least wait until I'm gone.'' Seth winked right before closing the door.

That smooth fucker. 

I mean that smooth 12-year-old.

So, now that I had replaced my biological mother in the family business, (ruining everyone's life, that is) I could focus on more important things: ruining my own.

I kept thinking about what Seth had told me about my affection for Dean.

Could that only be linked to our misadventures? 

The more I thought about it, the more I felt my feelings fading away.

I really was shallow.

Just like I was scared that he could be thinking what I was thinking.

What if he was reconsidering it too?

I have to break up with him... right now.

I took a breath and got out of my room hoping not to chicken out at the last moment.

I knocked on his door.

''Hey. Come in.'' Dean smiled as he kissed me.

I took his face between my hands and enjoyed the kiss.

It felt good as usual.  

''So, why are you being weird?'' He smirked gleefully.

Good, now I will have to spoil his mood. I thought.

''It's just... We've been through a lot together.'' I said putting a lock of hair behind my ear.

''Yeah... Does it bother you?'' Dean frowned.

''No, not at all!'' I replied in a high pitched tone.

Wow. That was going to be so hard.

I really loved Dean, but there was something wrong with us... with me.

''Then... I don't... think I get it.'' He giggled uncomfortably.

''It's just that I... really respect you, as a person, as a friend... and I don't feel like lying to you. I have been feeling different lately and I want you to be the first person to know.'' I said taking his hand.

Alright. I wasn't being very clear, but at least I was saying something.

C'mon Aimee. You don't choke. What's happening to you?

''I'm worried now.'' Dean raised his eyebrows.

''I'm sorry.'' I shook my head, letting out a frustrated laugh.

I don't know how that happened, but  my vocal cords vibrated without my command, my lungs freed the air without my permission, my mouth moved without any cerebral stimulation and all that scientific stuff, but the point is that I found myself saying.

''Dean,  I am a lesbian.''