This is just an information chapter so y'all know where I'm at

Tysm for almost 1k reads, I've never gotten this many and I'm actually freaking tf out

Pretty much, I can't write

I fee like I constantly have something on my back because I know soon I'll have all sorts of shit to do at school, and I just dread the thought of going back

And it sucks because in the holidays I was finally starting to make peace and get somewhere with my mental health. My disassocistion was something I was making peace with, but while back at school, i just lose all thought. I genuinely just csnt think, which sounds great, but it means I don't feel like a person. And i cant write.

I wanna write, but whenever I have time and I sit down to write, I'm just not relaxed enough to and nothing comes to me. I know where I wanna go with the next chapter, and it'll probably be one of the last ones, and it's not like my head isn't on straight. But I just can't think. I can't relax. My brain feels like a cloud, it's misty and confusing, and I can't see through it. There's turbulence trying to throw me around, but the clouds are too thick for me to feel it anyway. I can only describe my emotions with visuals lmao, the misty or cloudy head is one of many examples I give, along with concrete head lol.

Anywayz, that's why I might not update for a bit, thanks for letting me vent ✌🤪