this is gonna be based off of the song 'strange' by celeste. this ones gonna be a little longer

... = time skip

italics = flashback

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"STRANGERS TO FRIENDS"

y/n's pov:

i walked into the mess hall for the first counselors meeting of the summer. i saw arnie and walked over to him,"hey arnie."

"y/l/n there you are!" he pat me on the back and slung an arm over my shoulders.

i looked around before whispering,"you have it right?"

arnie scoffed,"of course i have it y/n. look at who you're talking too." i laughed as he pulled a blunt out of his pocket and handed it to me.

"thanks arn, i owe you one." i put it in my pocket and looked up to see cindy berman looking at me from across the room.

how long was she staring at me?

she realized i had caught her and sent me a small smile. i sent one back and we both jumped back into out own conversations.

...

after the meeting i walked out of the mess hall towards my cabin. i opened the door and saw my bunk mates things were moved in.

the past few summers i've bunked with alice but she decided to stay with arnie this year. i flopped on my bed and pulled out a comic book while i waited for my new roommate to make themselves known.

a few minutes later i hear the door creak open and in stepped the one and only cindy berman.

we've known each other for a while, with going to the same camp and school. but we've never really talked, so this summer would be interesting.

"oh hey y/n."

"berman," she smiled at the name as she walked towards her side of the cabin,"so i guess it's you and me this summer."

she nodded as she sat on her bed,"yep guess so,"we made eye contact before she spoke up again,"you better not smoke that thing in here."

i was too caught up in her eyes to realize what she was talking about,"sorry, what?"

a small smirk formed on her lips,"i saw you and arnie in the mess hall."

i thought for a minute before remembering the blunt in my pocket,"oh right. you got it, i'll go to arnie's to smoke it."

she nodded before standing up,"ok well i'm gonna go check on ziggy. i'll see you in a little bit yeah?"

"yep. see you soon berman."

...

it's been almost three weeks and me and cindy have gotten really close.

we choose each other as chore partners, we sit together at meals, we even stay up late talking about things even our parents don't know.

every time i look at her it feels like the first time. i get butterflies no matter what. i want to make a move but i don't want to ruin what we have. because i'll be happy just having her in my life.

cindy's pov:

y/n is amazing.

i've always maybe had a tiny crush on her but i've never done anything about it because there was no way in hell she could feel the same way.

i mean could she?

but i'm too much of a wimp to make a move.

...

i woke up to someone lightly shaking my shoulder. i rubbed the sleep out of my eyes and saw y/n standing next to my bed with a smile on her face,"morning berman." jesus how does she look so good so early in the morning.

"hi. what time is it?" i looked at the clock to see it said 8:12,"shit! y/n i slept through my alarm why didn't you wake me up?"

"cindy it's ok. breakfast isn't until 8:30 anyway. your alarm woke me up and you were still sleeping. you looked really cu- comfortable so i let you sleep in."

was she about to say cute?

i bit the inside of my cheek to hide the smile that was forming,"ok thanks y/n," she sent me a smile and a dorky thumbs up. i laughed at the gesture,"well i should probably get ready."

she nodded and stepped out of the cabin to give me privacy. before the door closed she peeked in one more time,"don't keep me waiting berman."

god she's adorable.

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"FRIENDS INTO LOVERS"

y/n's pov:

i finally did it. a week ago i confessed my feelings to cindy.

it took a lot of smoking and brainstorming with arnie and alice but it paid off.

one night after dinner i stopped her outside of the mess hall...

"hey berman wait up!" she turned around and smiled as i stopped in front of her,"um i was wondering if you wanted to go on a walk?"

"sure, i'd like that." we started walking in the direction of the lake.

a few minutes in our hands brushed together for the fifth time. every time they did i got butterflies.

slowly i moved my hand closer to hers and linked our pinky's together.

cindy's pov:

she linked our pinky's together and a spark ran through my body. i did something i wish i had done a while a ago and took her whole hand in mine.

it felt right. like we were meant to be together. like we were made for each other.

she looked down at our hands and back at me with a smile. the smile that makes my knees weak.

we made it to the dock and walked to the edge. i went to go sit but she lightly pulled my hand,"wait um, i uh i wanted to talk to you first."

i was a little confused but i stood up and turned to face her,"ok, what's up?" i tried my best to hide my nervousness. she used her free hand to scratch the back off her neck and she started biting the inside of her cheek. over the weeks i've noticed that was a nervous habit of hers,"y/n relax. what is it?"

y/n's pov:

i looked her in the eye and just decided to go for it,"i like you cindy. i have for a while now and i've just been too scared to tell you because i don't wanna lose you. you're the most amazing person i've ever met and i've been so happy having you in my life and i was afraid that if i told you this you might not feel the same way and i'd loose you for good. but im telling you now and i- i guess now i just have to wait and see what you say." i took a deep breath and closed my eyes scared of what was going to come next.

after a few seconds i felt her grab my other hand and lightly shake them,"y/n. look at me."

slowly, i opened my eyes and was welcomed with a small smile. she leaned up and connected our lips.

i could've sworn there were fireworks. nothing had ever felt so right in my entire life.

this had been one of the best weeks ever and i knew it was only going to get better from here.

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it was the last day of camp and cindy and i were packing our bags. i opened my dresser drawers and saw them nearly empty except for socks and underwear. but i'm pretty sure i had an idea of where my clothes were.

"hey babe?"

cindy stopped what she was doing and walked over to me,"what's up?" she placed a hand on my back and her head on my shoulder.

"do you know where all my clothes went?" i looked down at her as she thought for a second.

once she realized she raised her eyes brows,"ohhh so that's why my bags are so much heavier now,"i laughed at her response. she repositioned herself so she was between me and the dresser. her arms went around my neck with mine around her waist,"but i don't think you mind it that much right?"

"you're right. you look better in my clothes than i do," she giggled and i pecked her lips,"but i am going to need them back."

...

cindy's pov:

it's been a little over a year since me and y/n started dating. its been the best year of my life.

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i was laying in my bed finishing up a piece of homework when there was a knock on my bedroom door,"since when do you knock ziggy?"

the door opened and y/n peeked her head in,"maybe because it's not ziggy."

i put my work on my nightstand while she walked over to me,"baby what are you doing here i thought you had work?"

she shrugged before laying down next to me which gave me the opportunity to straddle her abdomen,"i took the night off. i thought we could have some time together. is that okay?"

"what kind of question is that?" she sent me one of her famous smiles before i leaned down to kiss her,"i love spending time with you. i love you forever."

"i love you more, always."

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"AND STRANGERS AGAIN"

cindy's pov:

two years.

two and a half to be exact.

i've gotten to know y/n more and she's beginning to show her true colors. don't get me wrong she's still amazing and is always there for me. but there's somethings about her that i haven't known about until now.

she drinks. and not just at parties or occasions but almost daily. it hasn't gotten to a point where she's putting anyone in danger but it's still a problem.

she also isn't exactly the favorite student in school either. her grades just make the passing point and her teachers aren't to fond of her.

when she's with me she a totally different person though. she's soft and basically the opposite of what the rest of the world sees.

i love her i really do. i just want her to be safe.

as our relationship has grown it's like she's becoming a different person. or at least the person she was before we started dating.

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it's 1:52 am.

i've been up all night waiting for y/n. she said she was going to stop by after work. she gets off of work at 6, 7:30 the latest.

i worried. scared even. 

what if her car broke down?

what if she's hurt?

i haven't gotten a call either. she usually calls when she's going to be late.

finally my the phone in my room rings. i pick it up,"hello? y/n?"

"hey babe! it's me!" she's slurring her words. fuck she's drunk. her words were still coherent and she was forming complete sentences telling me it was starting to wear off.

"y/n where are you?"

"i stopped by arnie's after work and crashed there for a few hours. i'm leaving now though just wanted to let you know."

"no no! y/n don't you dare get in your car!"

"why not berman? don't you wanna see me?" berman. she called me berman. she hadn't called me that in a while. shit get it together cindy.

"y/n you're drunk. you cannot drive right now."

"relax babe it's fine i'll see you soon."

"y/n! y/n no!" she hung up. fuck.

i tried calling three more times but nobody answered.

she had already left.

i put on a hoodie, which happened to be hers, ad waited for her outside on the steps of my house.

i was upset. how could she be so stupid?

arnie's wasn't that far so i waited until her pick up truck turned the corner of my street.

she wasn't speeding nor did her driving look reckless so i let out a sigh knowing she got here ok. but i was still angry at her.

she pulled into the driveway, parked her car and got out. i stood up and walked towards her.

i looked at her for a second. she seemed to have sobered up a little,"y/n what the hell is wrong with you?"

"cindy it's ok. i'm ok." she stepped towards me to grab my hands but i took a step back.

"don't. you scared me. you drove here under the influence. you could've gotten pulled over hell y/n! you could've killed yourself!"

she hung her head. she knew she fucked up.

"y/n i'm worried about you."

"cindy i'm sorry. i really am. it won't happen again i swear."

"no it's not just what happened tonight. you're different."

she scoffed,"what? what the hell does that mean?"

"you weren't like this when we started dating. you were responsible and smart. you made sure you and the people around you were safe. i just- i don't get what's happening."

"cindy i haven't changed. i'm not like this at camp but it's who i am. you just didn't know that because before we started dating we didn't really talk."

"y/n. that's doesn't matter. yeah we didn't talk but our first year together you weren't like this. now it's like your more comfortable and think i'm okay with you doing things like this and i'm not. i'm tired of it. you keep scaring me and i'm worried one day your going to seriously hurt yourself. it's like i don't know you anymore. it's like you're a stranger."

y/n's pov:

cindy said that and i was a little shocked. i thought about what she had said.

i really screwed up.

i cant believe i screwed this up.

cindy is the best thing that's ever happened to me and i just fucked it up.

"y/n," i looked at her. she had her arms crossed and her jaw clenched,"do you have anything to say?"

there's was only one thing i could say,"i'm sorry."

i saw tears start to form in her eyes. she was trying her best to hold them back,"that's not gonna cut it anymore,"i felt the sting in my eyes but i just looked anywhere but her,"i think you should go."

i had sobered up by now fully aware of what was happening i knew there was no way out of this one. i slowly turned around and walked back to my truck.

i opened the door and stopped before getting in. i looked at her one more time,"hey berman," she looked up at me, her bottom lip quivering,"i love you, always."

with that i got in my truck and drove away.

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ok i really hope this didn't suck lol this took such a long time to write
lmk if you guys want a part 2