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"Yo' ass be high everyday g." Rico said making me shrug as I yawned.

"That's the only way to me. If I'm sober all imma do is cry, while I'm high I'm jus' coolin' waiting on him to wake up."

"Ms. Gia been here today?" Qua asked making me nod, "Yeah she went back to work today."

They nodded as it got silent, besides the machines beeping.

"What if he don't make it g?" Qua asked barely above a whisper making me glance at them.

I sighed, "I can't even think about that. Life ain't life without Santana."

"Man I jus' know we finna get on these niggas ass. Let shit die down we onnat g."

"Last time I was inna hospital was when Zo died. Ya'll wanna know some that nobody know besides Me, Zo, the Doctor, and Granny."

"What?" I asked wanting to know what he was about to say.

"She was pregnant. Like 6 weeks g." He told us as he wiped his eyes and I sat there shocked not knowing that.

"We was gone tell everybody that Sunday after yo' birthday." He said making me shake my head thinking about how happy Zo was for India and her baby.

I frowned as tears clouded my eyes and I thought about how things could've been right now.

"Damn bro." Rico mumbled shaking his head, what Qua had just said had both of us in a different mindset.

"G you one hardbody ass nigga. You lost yo' first baby and yo' first love. Most muhfuckas be real fucked up after shit like that. But you picked yo' self up and kept moving."

"Just cause she gone don't mean she gone. She always gone be here wit' me in my heart. Besides I can't dwell on something I had no control over. God in control of everything, that's why you just gotta let shit happen." Qua shrugged as he wiped his eyes again and stared at the ceiling.

I don't know why for some reason I felt like he was talking to me specifically. He was right though, there is nothing I can do to make Santana get better. Everything is in God's hands.

I looked over at Santana and watched as his chest rose and fell with every breathe he took. Seeing him like this was fucking me up, I hate being in the hospital knowing last time we were in one of these situations we had broke up.

"SJ one of the grownest young niggas I eva' met g. I mean this nigga done seen some shit that even these old heads ain't seen. G he put Valley and Windey on and that nigga was only 12. Them niggas was 16 and 17. He was born into this street shit, but I pray to God that he don't die innis shit." Rico shook his head as I seen the tears forming in his eyes.

"Neva forget that nigga upped that piece on ole' dude Jimmy that day. He was like 13 g, and Jimmy thought he could try to play him out his bread. Pistol whipped the fuck outta Jimmy ass, nigga still got the scar on the side of his face." Qua chuckled making me shake my head, Santana ass wild.

"Bro ass a hot boy forreal. Always was on go, no matter the consequences. Kee you changed his ass a lot. Before he got wit' you, he ain't care 'bout shit g. Nigga was drinkin' and poppin' pills everyday. Then I remember like a couple days after ya'll linked the first time he was like "Man I can't keep fuckin' wit' them pills and shit, shorty ass ain't goin' for no crackhead ass nigga.". Bro quit allat shit, and was only smokin'. He so scared that he ain't good enough for you and shit. I keep tellin' his ass, you don't want nobody but his dumbass." Qua said making me smile remembering the first day we hung out.

"The first day we hung out, he was so high and I did not like that. Like he wasn't just weed high he was high high, and that shit was not coo'. I wasn't fuckin' wit' it forreal forreal." I shook my head remembering not texting him back or nothing, and then posting something about not liking niggas who popped pills and shit.

"He love the fuck outta' you forreal. And you love his ass back. Real love don't go away even when that person ain't here no more." Qua told me as I nodded taking in everything he said to me.

"Man can we talk 'bout some else. This shit fuckin' me up, ion wanna be depressed and shit." Rico said making me nod agreeing with him.

"Aight ya'll look, so I went to fuck this one bitch. I think this a sign from God that ian ready to move on yet. This bitch son kept comin' into the fuckin' room g. So then I'm innis bitch and she on top this nigga jump onna bed. I neva' got dressed so fast in my life." Qua told us making us laugh as he shook his head.

"Man that lil nigga had me so fucked up, then she got the audacity to text me talm 'bout some my bad you can come back later. BITCH FUCK DO I LOOK LIKE!" He snapped making me bust out laughing as he shook his head.

"Aight I need some advice." Rico said as he looked at his phone then shook his head.

"What you do?" I asked since Qua was still looking mad about ole girl.

"I fucked besto." Rico shook his head making me smack my lips.

"I knew some was up."

"Nah it wasn't none up forreal forreal. I ended up fuckin' her two nights ago. On some high and drunk shit g." He explained making me shake my head as Qua looked at him.

"Boy you done fucked up na! You neva' supposed to fuck yo' bestfriend if ya'll ain't onnat kinda shit."

"I know shorty, a nigga off his square. But I blocked her number, because ion know what to say to her."

"Do you wanna be wit' her?" I asked him as he sighed running a hand down his face.

"I got love for shorty, but ion see us like that forreal."

"Was it good?" Qua asked making me smack my lips and look at him as he shrugged.

"Some of the best pussy I done slipped into inna while." Rico said making Qua shake his head.

"You done fucked up my boy. Good luck wit' that one, because you in some trouble. Then you blocked her number, yeah you in some shit shorty."

"You ain't no kinda help." Rico smacked his lips as Qua looked at him crazy.

"Boy you inna fucked up ass situation, can't nobody help you but God."

"Imma jus' text her and be like my phone black out and it jus' turned back on." Rico said looking at him as Qua thought and nodded.

"Yeah say that." He said as I shook my head knowing that was a dumbass lie.

He been on social media and stuff, so I know she done seen him on there.

"Aight I sent it, damn she textin' back already."

"She been waitin' onnat. You gave her drunk dick she in love. I'm tellin' you that's how I got Zo." Qua shrugged as Rico looked at his phone shocked.

"G this bitch is out her rabbit ass mind!" He snapped making me laugh as Qua looked over at his phone.

"Kee g! This bitch jus' told his stupid ass, 'Bitch you can suck a sick dick! All I was callin' you for was to say that I take my fuck back. So that mean it didn't count and it never happened.'. She ova' wild for that shit. What you gone say back?" Qua asked as I shook my head laughing as Rico smacked his lips.

"She got me fucked up, gone drop that good ass pussy on me then tell me she take it back. I'll be back." He stood up putting his phone to his ear and walking out of the room, just as Dolla, Man Man, Windey, Valley, and Juju walked inside.

"Fuck wrong wit' him?" Valley asked slapping hands with Qua.

"He a fuckin' jackass." Qua shrugged as I chuckled and hugged Juju.

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I heard the beeping of Santana machines speed up causing everybody to look up and rush over looking at him.

He opened his eyes and looked around, "Look at my boy." Dolla smiled nodding his head.

"Tana you good?" Qua asked as Santana looked around before his eyes rolled to the back of his head and he started shaking.

"He havin' a seizure, Kee press the nurse button. I'm finna try to finnd somebody!" Man Man yelled as he ran out of the room and I pressed the button.

It was like everybody was stuck as a doctor and some nurses rushed into the room, "We need everyone out now!" One of the nurses said as they rushed to his bedside.

"Come on." Qua tapped me making me slowly turn walking out of the room, as tears ran down my face.

We sat down in the waiting room and I just sat there staring at a wall crying.

"They said everything was good, fuck is this shit happening for." Valley snapped as Qua shook his head.

"Jus' calm down, gettin' mad ain't gone fix shit."

"Fuck you so calm for? That shit real weird g. That lil nigga is our brother and you over here jus' calm and shit." Valley snapped at Qua as Qua smacked his lips.

"Man anybody innis bitch know how I'm comin' behind Tana, but this shit ain't in my control. I'm not finna get mad and yell in this people shit. All we can do is hope for the best because at the end of the day God the only person that can make a change in this."

Valley looked at him before he shook his head, "Qua I love yo' ass g, but I won't hesitate to get at you if I find out you behind this shit." Valley said making Qua look at him crazy.

"Man Valley calm down you talkin' real crazy g." Man Man said as Valley shook his head.

"Ya'll musta' set this shit up, ya'll all calm and shit like ya'll don't care." Valley snapped as I just watched everything not even being able to say nothing.

"What's goin' on, why ya'll in here?" Ms. Gia asked as the boys looked at eachother before Qua spoke up.

"He opened his eyes and then he started havin' a seizure." He explained while she sighed and sat down shaking her head.

I could hear her praying under her breathe, she grabbed my hand and continued to pray.

"Ya'll needa get ya'll shit together and come together as one. Ya'll is brothers and if I hear about ya'll arguing like some random niggas on the street imma personally beat ya'll ass." She gritted to them after she finished praying.

"So fix ya'll faces." She said as Valley mugged Qua and sat back in his seat.

A doctor walked into the waiting room and I looked at his face trying to find a sign of something good, but I couldn't read him.

We all stood up and approached him as he sighed, "He had a seizure due to blood being on his brain. We did everything we could to keep him with us, and to bring him back. I am extremely sorry for your loss." He said as I felt my heart stop, I couldn't hear nothing anybody was saying.

The room started spinning and then everything was dark.
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I'm crying thats so fucked up.

x C.A.