TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide and Self harm.

Alex's POV

*incoming message*

TurttleBoi: Hey Lexi baby~

Hamsamich: Hey John. 

Turttleboi: You okay? You seem really distant lately. 

Hamsamich:  Yeah I'm fine. Just tired.

Turttleboi: You sure? It's not the roommate is it?  You can tell me if it is.

Hamsamich: No no, my roommate is actually pretty cool. I'm rooming with Thomas Jefferson.

Turttleboi: Really? I'm rooming with his boyfriend James Madison. Maybe all of us can get together sometime and have a little fun ;)  

Hamsamich: Oh I dunno if he'd be up to that. Or if I'd be up for that.

Turttleboi: Oh James will make sure he's up for it. As for you, you'll be up for whatever I tell you to be up for. You're my little cum rag and you do what I say got it?

Hamsamich: ....... 

Turttleboi: What bitch?

Hamsamich: N-nothing.....

Turttleboi: Damn right nothing. God you're so pathetic why do I bother with you? You are nothing but a pussy. You're lucky someone like me deals with you! I gotta go by my little slut.

I threw my phone on my bed. He's right. Why does he bother with me? If he hates mew so much why does he stay with me? I felt the tears start rolling down my face. Why does anyone bother with me? Why am I still breathing? I've had enough close encounters with death, we're basically friends now so why doesn't he just come and take me home? I'm done! I've had enough of the pain, the abuse and the heartache. Why do I bother breathing when every breath feels like gravel in my lungs? 

I've locked myself in the bathroom, thankfully  Thomas isn't here I'm completely alone. I wrote a small note to whoever finds me. I feel sorry for whoever finds me. Leaving the note on the sink i start the bath. Waiting for it to fill, I was able to find some sleeping pills and my blade. 

"It's been a while.." I whisper to my blade.

The pills feel chalky in my mouth as I swallow them. In a few minutes I start to feel them kick in. 

1.....2....3....4.... the cold metal drags across my skin, blood instantly following. I haven't cut this deep in a forever. It hurts more than I remember but it also feels good. I feel the stress leave me, I feel everything leave me. Johns abusive nature, the taunting I got for years. I fade out, everything around me is black, there is no sound, it's empty. Then I see a flash of white light. I catch a glimpse of the other side, I see my father on the other side! He's with my mother is on the other side! I'm coming mom! I coming home! 

*BANG!!!*