I was rolling around in my bed. I had done his for the past hour trying to sleep, but with no result. We had moved to the hotel in Abu Dhabi for the weekend and the few extra days of the week as I was staying for the post-season testing with Lando before we would fly to London where I would spend some time before going home for Christmas.

I got up and walked to the bathroom washing my face. I had no idea how to get some sleep and I was starting to feel anxious. It was only like eleven o'clock. I had sneaked to my room and decided to get some sleep while the rest of the people had headed out. My mood had been down since the talk with Carlos if you could call that even a talk. I had smiled once after that when we had bumped into Max and Ria and the rest of their gang, but that didn't last long either. I knew that Max had a lot of questions now that he knew who I really was, but I think he had figured that there wasn't everything alright with me and let me go for now.

I didn't know how I finally had done it, but I woke up on my bed the next morning. Not feeling fresh but at least I had gotten some sleep. It was race day and I decided that I needed to forget all the bad thoughts for now. I wanted to enjoy this. Also, I had promised Arthur that I would have lunch with him, which made me weirdly excited. Bad news were that today was also the day that one of my friends would end up heart broken losing the championship and I would end up heartbroken after I would tell Mattia that I wouldn't take the job.

Happy thoughts, I needed happy thoughts.

I ended up distracting myself with nice makeover. I really went for it this time and looked even good. I had promised to go to the track together with Lando, as Emma had told me that she would catch up with me later. I was guessing that had something to do with the bottle of tequila I had spotted on her hand last night. I even curled my hair before planting a cap on my head and looking at the mirror one last time. I really had outdone myself. I felt confident and good.

I had this cute little dress on, but for now I had thrown a hoodie over it. It was less warm yet so I thought it would be a smart thing to do. The cap I had on was a birthday present from Daniel. It said all good all ways in a white letter on the black cap, I liked it a lot and I was wearing it just as much. My purse hang from my shoulder leaning into my hip and I had my white sneakers on. I looked casual but at the same time you could tell I had put some thought on it. I left the room happy with what I had come up with heading towards the lobby where I was supposed to meet my boy.

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The weather was going to be hot for sure. There was no clouds in the sky and the sun was shining straight to us as I sat in front of the Ferrari hospitality waiting for the younger Leclerc to show up. Soon enough he did with his older brother Lorenzo, if I remember the name right. Lorenzo said hi to me and after that disappeared inside the motorhome.

"Hey" I said the guy in front of me.

"Hi" he told me back with a smile. I was weirdly tense in the situation that would've been much easier seven years ago while we still hang out quite a bit when racing. I didn't really know the other guys from the category, so Arthur had took me under his wing.

"So food?"

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He had just done it. Max Verstappen, for the first time ever, was the world champion. The way it had happened was more than questionable, but he had deserved it. I mean the race had been a joke from the Race control, but it wasn't his fault nor was it Lewis' fault, but it was done and there was no taking it back at the moment. I knew that there was going to be a long discussion of the whole event after today but for now, Max was a world champ.

The whole pitlane had exploded and I ran out with the rest of the Ferrari people. Arthur had talked me over to stay in Ferrari garage for the race, so I had. Tightly on Charles' side hiding from Carlos. Talking about Carlos. I couldn't help but feel proud. He had finished on the podium once again, which meant that he had won the battle between him and Charles and even scored more points than Lando, which made him a P5 in the driver's championships. And that was amazing.

Lando had been unlucky once again, but I think that the last race was still the last race and everyone was already looking into next year with the regulation changes and new cars, so I had a feeling that he wouldn't be too down today.

I walked towards the podium congratulating every single Reb Bull team member on the way that I possibly could. I bumped into Alex who had hard time keeping in his pants and he pulled me into a wild hug while still jumping up and down. It was crazy, I had never seen anything like this. The fireworks were still going off and everyone was gathered out to the pitlane. I could see a lot of smiles all around. I knew everyone had a huge respect to Lewis and his work, but it was refreshing to get a new champion. I felt for Lewis though. He had driven an amazing season and even thought Max deserved it, he would have deserved just as much and the way it was taken from him, it was for sure even more painful.

It was hard to get around not to even talk about closer to the podium. There was people everywhere. I kept bumping on everyone, but until now I had managed to stay up. Not too much longer though as I ran into someone and backing away found myself tumbling over a leg and finally from the ground. It was a bit scary to be honest laying on the ground while hundreds of people ran around me.

"I'm sorry, come on" there was a hand, and I took it. It pulled me up and I was met a little concerned but still smiling face.

"Thanks" I smiled to the guy in Alpine shirt. "Oscar, right?" I asked realizing who I had stumbled across.

"Yep" he nodded.

"Oh congratulations" I smiled to the guy who had just won F2 championship.

"Thanks" he said before I was once again making my way towards the podium. I found my way to Emma and Charlotte who were waiting for Charles to appear and Carlos to get his glory on the podium. I could see the congratulations Max was getting from every driver which was great to see. The whole scene in front of me was pretty unbelievable. There was a lot going on and finally we were ready to start the ceremony. There was many RedBull shirts on the sight as well as Alpha Tauri as they supported their sister team. Ferrari red was there too but not too many Mercedes shirts, which I understood.

Charles walked to us smiling. He had had a pretty bad race for sure finishing P10, but it didn't show outside. I think it was nice for these younger drivers to see one of the other younger drivers succeed like this. We watched the rest of the thing together before I headed up to paddock to wait around and see if I could say goodbyes to one or two of my friends. I knew I was probably going to see Daniel still and Lando, but with rest of them I had no idea where my life would take me. I knew there was a huge chance that I would stick around as Lando wasn't going to stop any time soon, but it was still different.Now that I wouldn't be working here. Oh shit. I needed to find Mattia to tell him about the job. I had totally forgotten that in the middle of it all. I headed back to the Ferrari motorhome, but before I was able to get there I heard some one shouting my name. The voice I knew very well but didn't really think I would hear again.

I turned around to see Carlos jogging towards me and I froze.

"Hey," he said quietly.

"Hey, congrats" I told him just as quiet.

"Take the job"

"What?"

"I need you to take the job. I can't live with myself if you give up your dream job because of me" he said and I watched him in disbelieve.

"I'm so sorry" I told him weakly and could feel the tears gathering behind me eyes.

"I know you are" he gave me a soft smile. "Look I was a bit of a jerk, you couldn't know how I felt, but I love you and you really are my best friend, I just need some time, but I think after the break I have it all figured out and I can happily help you move back in" the guy really smiled and there was a tear breaking free for just happiness.

"Are you sure?" I asked him to really make sure this wasn't something he was going to regret.

"Yeah, I want to see you happy, and I know how happy that job makes you" he nodded and I threw myself on his neck.

"Thank you" I cried. "I'm so sorry about everything" I told him once again. "You know I love you."

"Yeah, but you need to go get that job now" the guy let out a small laugh letting me go as I sprinted towards the red building.

"Hey I'm sorry I'm this late, but I would love to take you up on that job offer if it's still on the table" I basically ran to main man's office. Mattia shook his head amused to me.

"Of course, we can work out the contract first thing on Tuesday when the testing starts" he smiled at me and I thanked him before getting back out. I was going to work for Ferrari like for real. I was going to live in Italy and travel the world for my living. It was hard to believe. I knew my goals had been in somewhere else but right now this felt a dream come true. '

I needed to tell Charles, but first I was dying to congratulate the champion himself. I had no idea how that would be possible but I was going to try. I found my way to the Red Bull garage and from some magic power I found the courage to walk straight in. Looking around there was singing, happy faces and I could tell that it had been a long way coming and a long time waited that it would be their turn again. I couldn't help but smile myself too as I made my way even deeper into the garage. I probably shouldn't be here but..

I couldn't finish my thought as I was grabbed from behind and once I got to the ground again I turned around to meet smiling Max and a huge smiled broke into my face as I wrapped my hands around him and squeezed him tight.

"Max I'm so proud of you congratulations" I yelled over the music.

"Thanks, I'm pretty proud of myself too" he said taking a couple steps backwards. I could tell that the party had already started.

"Have a good time tonight" I laughed to the guy.

"You too" he pointed me before disappearing in to the crowd again. I left the garage and got back to my latest mission trying to find everyone to say goodbye for now.