Chapter 18

Autumn's point of view


"Taylor, we need to talk." I said as I closed the sliding door to the backyard. She turned around and then looked at me. "We seriously need to talk."


"Can't it wait?" She asked me and I crossed my arms. "Autumn, please, can we talk tomorrow or something baby?"


"No, we cannot." I said and she sighed. "I'm tired of pushing this away. We need to talk and I am not going to let you get out of this again." I said and set my hands on my hips.


"What is it?"


"I want to know why you're always sneaking around with Luke." I said and she shook her head, telling me it was nothing. "It's nothing? Taylor, you're cheating o-"


"I'm not talking to you about something that is completely untrue." She said and walked back into the house.


"Taylor!" I shouted and she stopped. "Don't turn your god damn back on me and tell me it's not true! I saw you! I have proof!" I said and she turned to look at me. "You and Luke, you're a thing. You're cheating on me with Luke."


"I am not." She said and I saw Michael and Ashton walk out for the kitchen. "Why would you accuse me of such a thing? I love you." She said and I gasped.


"You love me? Oh yeah? Is that what you say when Luke's fucking you? 'I love you Autumn'? When you're making out with him, do you think 'oh, I love my girlfriend so much'?" I asked and she backed away.


"I can't believe you. How could you accuse me of this? Something so obscene?" She asked and I ran a hand through my hair.


"Because I fucking know you're lying to me right now. I know you have this fling with Luke. I know you're more than friends. The question fucking is, why?" I asked. "I trust you and yet you go and fool around with him. How does it feel knowing I trust and love you and yet you're in bed with some boy after you told me you have no interest in them?"


She didn't answer. She just stood there and told me to show her the proof I had. "I can't fucking believe you." I grit and called Calum. "I deleted the message because I was so upset but he has the photo on his phone."


"What?" He asked as he and Luke walked downstairs. "What do you need?" He asked and I grit my teeth because I didn't want to see that blonde fuckhead.


"Phone." I said and he tossed it to me. I unlocked it and then went to his photos. I showed her the photo and I could see her glare at the phone. "I fucking have proof of you cheating on me. You're kissing Luke."


"He was just telling me-"


"Don't fucking lie to me Taylor." I said and tossed Calum his phone back, which Michael demanded that he see the photo as well. "Stop lying to me."


"Okay, fine, I slept with Luke, once, twice, maybe even more than ten times, but-"


"Ten!?" I shrieked and took a step back. "You fucked over ten times? Oh my god." I gasped and pushed my bangs out of my face, tugging on them slightly. "What the hell Tay-"


"But," she shouted and I looked at her. "What about you and Calum? Huh? I know you're a little closer than you two should be. What? Are you cheating on me too?"


"I pushed him away," I said. "He tried kissing me, and I pushed him away. He tried sleeping with me while we were drunk, but I told him no because I was with you. Everytime I pushed him away, but-"


"So you did sleep with him. You did cheat on me too." She said angrily. "You're not some saint either Autumn."


"I only slept with him because you were messing with Luke for so long behind my back. I gave in because I was done with this. I was done with us because you lied, you cheated, and you ignored me. I was sick of it." I said and she grabbed my flannel shirt.


"Is that fucking why you're covered in hickies? You slept with your brother's best friend you whore." She hissed at me and I pushed her away.


"Sure, yeah, maybe it is, but don't fucking turn this all on me." I said. "This isn't about me and Calum. This is about the fact you lied to me and that, for god knows how long, cheated on me." I said.


"Fucking hypocritical of you to say that when you'd fuck guys left and right before we left." She said loudly, making sure the whole house heard her as she spilled my secret. "Tell me Autumn, did Calum pay you too? Huh? Thirty bucks? Twenty?"


"No!" I yelled and slammed my hand over her mouth, probably making the area red. "Who the fuck do you take him as? He's Calum, he would never do that. He's not that low. He's too attractive to need to pay for sex."


"But you fucking would and you have." She said after she ripped my hand from her mouth. "Little miss Autumn Grace Irwin was a prostitute." She screamed and I heard a loud thump. Like a body hitting the floor.


I'm sorry Ashton...


"You say it as if I was willing to just sell my body like that!" I yelled as tears filled my eyes. "You and I both know if I had a choice, a say in what happened, I wouldn't have." I said.


"How would I know that? Maybe you just like fucking oher people while you're with me." She said, somehow managing to turn this all against me. Making me the bad guy here.


"Autumn, calm-"


"Well fuck Taylor," I shouted. "I would think the fact that I tried to ruin my own body to get it to stop happening would be enough for you!"


"Taylor, that's en-"


"You're fucking sick." Taylor told me and grabbed me by the flannel again. "I can't believe you."


"Me? You can't believe me?" I asked. "Oh, so I tell you my deepest secret, one that disgusts me to no end, and you shout it out for the whole world to hear. I trusted you, with practically eveything, and after promising me you'd keep them, you went and ruined it." I said.


"All I wanted to fucking know is why you were cheating on me Taylor. That's it. Yet you go and make this huge scene and decide to make everyone hate and be disappointed in me." I said. "And you say you love me."


"You want to know why I got with Luke? The exact reasons?"


"That's what I just fucking said Simpson."


"It's because not only does he have less baggage than you, but he's not as fucking needy." She aid and pushed me. I stumbled back and then fell on my ass because I fucking knew it.


"He's everything Autumn, blonde, hot, a guitarist, a good singer, not to mention fantastic in bed." She said and I glared at her. "He's got it all darling, and what do you have? Divorced parents? No friends? Fucked up mental issues? STD's maybe? All you can do is give someone about an hour of fun, that's it."


"Taylor, that is enough. Go to-"


"I should have fucking known better than to trust you. I should have known all that you were going to do is lie and hurt me. That's all everyone does to me, ever since I was six years old." I said, my heart breaking and to falling to my stomach. "Lie to me."


"It's not my fault you have daddy issues."


"Did I fucking say it was your fault?"


"Okay," I yanked my arm away from whoever grabbed it and then I stood up. "Autum, come here."


"Yeah Autumn, go to Calum. Let him deal with your shit because I'm done." Taylor told me. "Luke was right, I deserve better than you. I deserve him. He can give me the world and everything you can't." She said.


"He can, but that doesn't mean he fucking will." I said and then looked between her and Luke.


"He will. I know he will. He said he will."


"Well then, I fucking hope he breaks your heart Taylor." I said. "I should be happy for you because you're right, you deserve better and I love you enough to want you to be happy, even if it is without me."


"He wouldn't-"


"But God fucking damn Taylor, I hope he breaks your heart and I hope you cry a river over someone who doesn't want you anymore. I want you know what it's like to love and trust someone so much and then have them screw you over. I hope you regret letting me go and I hope you end up getting screwed over." I said.


"From the way your life turned out, I don't think I have anything to worry about it. Nothing you wish for comes true unless someone does it for your needy ass." She said.


"Karma's a fucking bitch Taylor." I said and then grit my teeth. "I need some fresh air." I said and then walked away.


"Autumn-"


"Don't touch me Michael." I said as I passed by him. I opened the front door and then slammed it shut. I walked away from the house and then I heard the door slam shut again.


"Autumn! Wait!"


"Fuck off Calum." I said as I continued waking on the empty sidewalk. "Leave me alone. I want to be alone." I told him and I felt a hand on my shoulder.


"Please-"


"No Calum." I said as angry tears filled my eyes. "Leave me alone." I said but he kept following me.


"Autumn, just stop and look at me, please." He said but I didn't. "Autumn Irwin, fucking stop." He said and then turned me around. He pressed me against a light pole and I looked up at him.


"What?" I asked and he looked at me. "What do you want? To say 'I told you so'? To make fun of me? To yell at me? God, I don't fucking need this right now Calum." I asked as tears fell.


"No, not one bit." He said and then grabbed my wrists. He pressed his lips agaisnt mine and then he pressed my wrists against my thighs so I couldn't push him off.


It took awhile, but I kissed him back and then a sob escaped my lips. He pulled away and then he kissed away the tears that slid down my cheeks.


"You're way too beautiful to be crying over someone as shitty as her princess." He said and then entertwined our fingers. "You deserve so much better than her." He told me.


"I-I love her Calum." I said and sniffled. "She's my world and she's left me for that blonde asshole." I told him and then looked down. "I knew it Calum. I told you he was better then me and she'd want him more." I said.


"He's not better than you, not one fucking bit. He isn't as perfect as you think he is and you're more perfect than you think you are." He told me and I just looked at him. "You're better than the both of them."


"Why are you here? With me? I'm disgusting. You should be disgusted. You should hate me." I said as a van passed by. It stopped a little in front of us but I didn't think too much about it.


"I couldn't never hate you for something you said you have no control over." He told me. "I'm with you because no matter how much I love Luke, he's being a fucking dick and you don't deserve this." He said and a guy got out of the van.


"Can we go Calum? I'm a bit scared, he's scaring me." I said and he subtly looked over to the car. He nodded and then grabbed my hand. The guy walked over to us and my eyes widened. "Calum!"


"Wha-" He turned around and then grabbed the guy's wrist before he could hit him with some empty bottle. "The hell?" He asked and I pulled my phone so I could call for help.


I quickly tried typing in the password but I couldn't do it because I was shaking too much. "Go fucking run Autumn. The house isn't that far away." Calum said and I looked at him worried as he fought the guy off. "Go!"


I nodded and then ran away from the scene, not missing the door of the van opening again. "Help!" I screamed as I ran barefoot on the concrete. "Someone, help us!"


It was when I was right in front of the house that I felt arms around me. "Let me go!" I screamed and a rag was pressed against my mouth. I screamed against the rag but it was probably a bad idea because I was out of breath faster.


"You're not leaving me again Autumn."

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