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Congrats to taeri for her solo debut!!~~~ congrats on ending promotions smoothly~~~ the baby worked very hard~ you did a good job taeri ~~~ now please rest a lot ~~ㅎ - TY

↳ to my members who care for me and love me so much, thank you so much~ i'll continue to work hard in the future to make you guys proud~~💚 — 사기

i was sad

i was on a diet, so I couldn't eat the cake that was currently in front of me

"just eat it, you can restart your diet tomorrow" said Johnny to me in english, he was a smrookie who recently moved in the dorms because he is going to debut next year with 127

"If i eat now I won't stop" I responded knowing too well how my body worked

"Heyheyheyheyyy you two, korean please" The japanese one said in a very broken english with his mouth full of chips.

The boys bought a lot of junk food from the convenience store, to celebrate that i have finished my promotions safely.

"No but honestly, baby you did an amazing job" Donghyuk spoke next to me

We were all around our table in the kitchen with junk food, trash and balloons all over the table and floor.

"Yeahh, your stage presence changed a lot" Jaeyhun agreed almost immediately with hyukie

"Yah, i was really surprised, like, while watching your stage i was like, is that really our taeri??" Sicheng spoke from the other side of the table

"Yeah, i think it was really obvious how hard you worked, at least in my eyes it was really obvious, i felt really proud of you" The second youngest one said.
All of them made a sound of agreement.

A laugh came out of me

"Eh??"
"What?? Why are you laughing?"
"Why is she laughing??"
"Suddenly??"

I continued laughing with my hand over my mouth

"Yah i think she went crazy"
"That, a long time ago"

I was honestly about to cry, the last couple of months were honestly, for the most part, really bad
I felt alone and really pathetic.
I was scared, and I didn't know how people were going to react to me going solo.

When i needed motivation there was nobody by my side, and while monitoring my stages i was really disappointed at myself, i know i can do better, but why was i still lacking so much?

I wasn't proud of myself, but hearing that they were, that the people who i care about the most, the ones who i love the most, that they were proud of me, it made me happy

"Why are you crying baby?"
"Eh? What happened?"
"Chenle, can you bring some tissues please?"
"Hey, we are here it's okay taeri.."

There were arms surrounding me,
giving me side hugs, somebody else was caressing my hair, the eldest one was whispering comforting words to my ear

I knew i wasn't alone, i had them
And that's all i need to be okay

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