It was one of the worst moments in my life. Waiting for an eternity for him to reply. I no longer cared how he reacted, I just wanted a reaction, to get it over with. I rolled over to face him.

"Will... I.." Nico stopped, trying to find the right words. "I don't know what to say to that..."

Gods. I should have known. Of course you don't love me back. I was an idiot to hope that you did.

"..I mean... I don't know how to.. tell you.."

That you now hate me? You don't have to tell me. You should just leave. I'm sorry for ruining our friendship. I'm sorry for ruining everything.

He looked at me, and I realised that he was afraid. He was shaking slightly, and looked like he was trying to hide fear.

"Hey, hey, what's wrong?" I asked, sitting up. Our friendship may be at an end, but I still  cared for him.

"I.. We... They..." his tone suddenly changed "It's nothing." he growled.

I moved his hair out of his face, and kissed him lightly. "Something is wrong, and I'm going to find out what." I whispered.

Nico stood up suddenly, like the kiss had jolted him into life. He looked at me, like he had been caught in headlights. He looked terrified.

Oh, gods. What have I done? I've ruined it all by kissing him. We would have been able to move on, and forget about all this, only then I was an idiot and kissed him.

At least I got kiss him. Even if it has ruined our friendship, at least I got to kiss him that once.

It had been the best kiss I'd ever had.

I'm not sure if it really was worth it. But our friendship was almost certainly ruined anyway. So maybe it was.

Nico left my room, as fast as it seemed humanly possible to go without running.

Fuck. I have utterly ruined everything.

I lay in my bed for a while after Nico left, until Clint walked into my room.
"I'm guessing something happened." He stated.

"Yeah." I groaned. "I told him.. And.. He left.."

"No, he's just downstairs, having breakfast. Are you going to come down and eat something?"

"I'm not hungry." I muttered, rolling over to face the wall again.

"Do you just not want to see him?" Clint asked.

I nodded. "I ruined it all." I cried. "I accidentally t..told him and then I.. I kissed him and... he looked so scared... and walked out.."

"It'll be ok." Clint said. "He was probably just shocked."

I heard footsteps, and Clint must have heard them to, because he looked round. "It's Nico." He whispered. "What do you want me to do? Ask him to leave you alone?"

"I don't care." I muttered.

Clint stood up, and left, leaving Nico and me alone. Together.