"And I'll be in denial for at least a little while
What about the plans we made?"

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After Alejandro told Fez to leave he didn't. He sat in his car wanting to make sure Amelia was okay.

Knowing her she was about to take all the blame which is what she did and Fezco hated it.

While he sat in his car he was debating whether to go in or not, he could either save Amelia or make things worse which he didn't want to do he wanted to believe that there was some sympathy in alejandro.

Amelia was terrified not only for her but for fez.

She just loved him way too much.

She didn't know what to do and while she stood there in the kitchen watching her dad sit down next to her mom she was more scared that he hadn't started to scream at her yet.

"Really Amelia? Really? I let you do everything you want drinking, partying, staying out late, bringing friends around, I give you everything you want and this is what you do?!" He began to talk to her while she just stood there not knowing what to say. "How did this even happen? When did it even happen?!" He shouted louder and louder every time and Amelia kept standing there not knowing what to respond.

"Amelia, answer me!"

"Alejandro, give her a minute," her mom said in a soft tone.

"I don't know, it just did..." she replied, looking down to the floor. "I don't even know why it's such a big deal, you know who fez is, you know he's a good person..."

"Amelia you're seventeen he's almost twenty..."

"Like that was a problem for you two" Amelia commented making her sad look up to her even more mad.

"I'm not talking about us, I'm talking about you and him."

"What's your problem with us then? Why can't we date what's so bad about it?" Amelia began to talk back, losing her state of shock and getting more angrier now.

"First of all you didn't tell me! Maybe if you told me the situation would've been different..."

"No it would not and you know that!" Amelia interrupted him.

"Look Amy I love you and I love him. I've known him since he moved in with Marie and he's a good kid but this is where I cross the line" he stated, making her shake her head in disbelief.

"Why though? Why is it so bad?!"

"It just doesn't look right Amelia!"

"Why because he's a drug dealer and not the wealthiest person in town?" Amelia questioned crossing her arms in front of her chest.

"I would never judge someone by their lifestyle and you know that" he said, making her scoff.

"Then what is the problem?! Because I don't see anything wrong with it, both of us get along just fine. He makes me happy! He's made me feel something I've never felt before so I don't understand what is so bad!" Amelia began to shout louder than him which made him sigh.

"You'll understand someday..."

"Help me understand right now! Because I don't I really don't! Why can't you just let me be happy!"

"Amelia..."

"No me entiendes! This is not me being a brat and wanting something this is real this is not a joke at all!"

"You need to give me a minute to think about it all, that's it Amy give me some days and I'll take it into consideration" her dad suggested but she just rolled her eyes.

"And then what!? I wait only for you to say no?! What do I do in the meantime?! What am I giving you a few days for you to threaten him to leave?" Amelia asked, watching how her dad's gave filled with confusion and shock. "I know what you do, don't be surprised, which is why I didn't tell you! Because I knew you were going to take it too far that's why I keep everything from you! Because you do stuff that is unnecessary I'm old enough to make my own decisions and face the consequences"

"Amy I would never do that to Fez just please let me think!" Alejandro retorted, making Amelia sigh.

"So what? I go out there and tell him 'sorry we need to let my dad think about it'..."

"Do whatever you want Amelia! You're going to end up doing it anyways!" He interrupted shouting at her.

"Fine" she spat and stormed out the house leaving her mom and dad there.

If Amelia's mom was being honest he was being way too harsh and would have definitely handled it better.

The argument could've been avoided because at the end of the day Amelia's dad was going to let her do what made her happy. He just wanted to set ground rules first since neither of them took him into consideration.

"That could've been avoided..." she commented getting up from the table in an upset way.

"Yes it could if you two would've told me..."

"No! You know you would've done the same thing Alejandro you always do everytime she does something like this you go crazy I understand you care about her but you need to let her be" she said in a softer tone now understanding where he was coming from.

"This is life getting back at us, you know the trouble we caused your parents....it's all coming back" alejandro sighed and rested his hands on the table.

"This is nothing like that she was careful she took us into consideration she knew that eventually we would find out and I did and she told me everything because she trusted me that was way better than what happened with us." She looked at his face, seeing guilt written all over his face. "This is the first time she even dated a guy with this type of seriousness and she deserves to experience that so just let them be"

"What if she gets hurt? We all know how he lives anna. We both know that one day he's going to end up in a mess and trust me I will try my best to help him but there's only too much I can do..."

"That's the problem then? Amelia getting hurt? That's part of the process; they either work or they don't. Amelia is smart she's not going to let a guy cloud her judgement and I'm sure fez won't do that to him he cares about her way too much"

"This isn't going to end up good..."

The problem with Alejandro was he loved Amelia and he cared about Fez. His mind was clouded by him.

He thought that he could trust him but if he gave him too much trust he would mess it up. He was scared about Amelia; this wasn't something he could have at her hands. If fez were to leave her he couldn't just force him to come back he had to just leave her hurt and he hated that.

Amelia walked outside back to the car where Fezco sat there. When he saw Amelia getting in he turned to her immediately watching how her only emotion she was showing was anger. She wasn't crying like the other day she was just angry.

"You okay? What happened?" He asked, concerned for her.

"He was just unfair, he told me tk give him time but he didn't really explain to me at all..."

"So like then what are we going to do?" He questioned her and she just shrugged.

"Wait? I guess I don't know fez..."

"What do you want to do?"

"I want to be with you obviously but I have no idea what to do. The best thing we can do is wait for him..."

"So he'll say no?" Fez interrupted her, making her look at him with an apologetic look.

"I don't know what he will say..."

"Look amy..." fez began and sighed before he said what he needed to say to her knowing it was going to get a bad reaction from her. "I love you and I was to do this with you trust me like it just feels right you know but right now this shit is just all over the place this just showed us we don't have shit planned out we just taking it day by day..."

"But that's how it's supposed to be..." Amelia spoke in a soft hurt tone looking at him with hurt in her eyes making his heart shatter.

"I know ma but not everything is supposed to be taken day by day. I feel like both of us are in two different places right now and..."

"Please don't finish that..." Amelia said, trying to contain her tears from coming out.

She already knew where the conversation was going; she was just trying to keep herself from the heartbreak.

"I think we should take a while to figure things out there's just a lot going on with you and me and if eventually we get our shit together and we find each other again then we can take it from there but for now..." fez paused hearing Amelia take a deep breath. "Well you know what..."

Amelia just nodded knowing what he was saying she was glad he didn't say the whole thing if he did it just felt too official.

Fezcos intention wasn't to hurt Amelia he was just trying to figure himself out and letting her figure herself out too.

The whole relationship was a mess even if they tried to hardest to ignore it eventually this was going to happen because everything was out of place.

I liked to believe that Amelia and Fezco would find themselves again. That's just the type of love they had.

The type that would put them back together after going through all this. But then again that's just what I liked to believe because the contrary was just way too sad.

While Amelia sunk in the words Fezco said she looked out the window trying to hold in her tears but it was too hard.

She couldn't see because of the water pooled up in her eyes. She could simply walk out but she thought it would be rude not to say anything.

Finally her first tear dropped, making her turn to the other direction completely. Fezco noticed it and made her turn towards his direction seeing that she was crying.

"Come on baby...don't cry" he pulled her into a hug that's when Amelia let her tears fall freely.

Fez hated the fact he made her cry. He expected her to walk out crying from her house like she was crying the other day when her mom found out.

He was upset it was him who made her cry instead of her dad. That's how he noticed her dad hadn't hurt her; he just made her mad but he really hurt her and he hated it.

"I have to go...'' Amelia got out his hold and went to open the door but he stopped her.

"I love you okay and no matter what I always got you and if you need anything I'm here" he said holding onto her hand. Amelia just nodded and let his hand go.

She opened the car and walked back into her house. Fez waited until she was inside before he drove off even if everything in him just wanted to go back and get her and never let her go, but he couldn't.

When Amelia entered the house she was crying more now both of her parents stood in the doorway waiting for her once they saw her walk in crying her mom immediately sent a glare to her husband.

Alejandro felt bad he wanted to take everything back. He basically had ruined everything and now Amelia was hurt.

"You happy?!" Amelia walked past him stomping to the stairs.

"Amelia, wait!" He shouted trying to follow her. "Amelia ven para acá!" (Amelia come here)

"Leave her..." Mrs Gonzales said, pulling him away from the stairs. "Give her time to calm down right now she hates everyone and everything"

She was right Amelia hated everything.

She hated herself. She hated her dad. She couldn't bring herself to hate her mom or Fezco she tried to find something to hate them but she couldn't. She hated her room, her clothes, and everyone around her.

That day when she stormed to her room she showered and went straight to bed. The next day she didn't bother to leave her room for anything.

Her dad would knock on the door every once in a while to make sure she was doing fine but just as he expected Amelia didn't want to talk to him.

She spent her day thinking about what it was going to be of her life now.

She didn't want to sound too pathetic but Fezco was probably one of the only people she had felt seen by she didn't want to talk to nobody about her and fez because she knew no one would understand.

She felt empty and frustrated that she couldn't tell nobody how she felt and could feel heard like she felt with fez. It was times like this when Amelia wished Valerie was alive.

She had already mourned her friend long enough but when she felt this way she just wished she was there.

If there was just a chance of her or getting one last conversation she would take it because she really fucking needed it right now.

On Monday she got up to go to school even if she didn't want to. She looked like she hadn't slept in days and her outfit was basically pajamas and her hair was in a bun.

Her dad had been anticipating Monday hoping she would coke out her room and when she did she ignored him just as he expected.

"You're going to have to talk to me eventually Amelia..."

She didn't really want to talk to anybody; she wanted to sit in her room and cry. It wasn't about Fezco anymore, it was about her and her life.

She noticed how shitty and chaotic it was now that she was actually paying attention. In school she would go to class and wouldn't talk to anybody; she would just go listen, do her work and sit like the world didn't exist around her.

Lexi was the first one that noticed something was off with Amelia since she wasn't talking to her so she decided to ask to what Amelia decided to answer with:

"Drank too much on Saturday and got my period yesterday"

Lexi believed her to some extent. She didn't want to question her knowing whatever she was upset about she wasn't ready to talk about yet.

Maddy wasn't there that day so she didn't have her to talk to. At lunch she sat with Jules and I even though we were in a rough patch right now but managed to keep it cool in front of Amelia.

I didn't know what was going on with her until later that day I stopped by to see Fez and ash.

"Yo rue wassup kid!?" Fezco exclaimed while he sat on the cash register at the store.

"Nothing much just stopping by to say hi" she replied and sat on a stool that was there.

"Have you seen Amy today?" He asked hesitantly.

Fez was worried about Amelia. He wanted to make sure she was fine but they couldn't exactly take a break if they were talking to each other like nothing happened but he still wanted to make sure she was fine.

"Yeah, sat with me and Jules today. I think something was wrong with her. She looked like really bad like if she hadn't slept in days and she had taken a whole bunch of shit. I asked Lexi and she said that Amy told her she had gotten drunk on Saturday and was on her period so.." Rue just shrugged since she was clueless why Fez was asking her.

After I answered him he felt guilty. For Amelia not to care about her appearance at school it meant some shit was really bad. He hated that he did that to her he wanted to go see her so bad but he knew he had fucked up.

"Have you seen her? I think she's like having a hard time again. I saw her texting her friend, the one that passed away like big ass paragraphs" rue mentioned.

"What you mean?"

"Valerie, her friend, the one that got in the car crash, has she told you about her?"

"Yeah"

"When ever she misses her or she's having a hard time she just texts her phone she knows she won't reply but it's like a diary you know. I hadn't seen her do it in a while. I thought she had like moved on" Rue kept talking completely clueless.

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The next days Amelia did the same thing, ignored her dad, went to school and ignored more people there then went back home just to eat and sleep.

Then on Wednesday she saw Nate at school with maddy she didn't have time to even say or consider if she was mad about it she just tried to ignore them until maddy stopped her and pulled her into the bathroom.

Amelia didn't even fight her on it which maddy found weird but when she saw the state she was in.

"Are you okay?" She asked, setting her hand on Amelia's shoulder.

"Fine, what did you want?" Amelia asked in a dry tone. Maddy was weirded out but tried to just ignore it. Before she told Amelia she made sure no one was in the bathroom.

"They dropped the charges..." Maddy revealed which she expected a reaction from but there was nothing which made her more confused. "Nate covered it up I guess I don't know..."

"Don't worry maddy I won't say anything I don't even care anymore" Amelia tried to walk past her but maddy stopped her.

"Ok what the fuck is your problem?!"

"My dad found out about me and fez tried to take it into consideration but fez broke up with me before he could so can I go not?" Amelia pointed to the door and maddy just sighed and brought her into a hug.

"I'm so sorry I wasn't there I am really sorry you have blown off Fez for me and I couldn't even do the same" maddy disconnected from the hug and looked at her. "I'm sorry I've been such a bitch"

"Maddy you know I will always love you no matter what, let's just go" Amelia wrapped her hand around maddy and walked out the bathroom where Nate was waiting for them.

This is where it began to get weird. Amelia started to actually get along with nate. She didn't know why he was being nice to her but he was.

He was making sure she was fine. She would sit with Nate and maddy at lunch which worried me. Amelia was really crossing all her boundaries she had ever set like being Nate Jacob's friend.

I hadn't seen her with fez which is when I started to suspect everything. Amelia had gone back to being the girl she was.

The girl that followed maddy around and was friends with Nate just because he was dating her cousin. She stopped talking to Lexi as much as she used to instead she got closer to Cassie since one of them was always third wheeling.

Amelia was changing again and I was afraid that this is what it looked like for her to reach rock bottom.

I knew how much she loved how Fezco helped her figure out everything in her life and find herself only for her to just go right back.

It's not always about relapsing into drugs again is taking back lifestyles you had put in the past for good and trust me Amelia had changed for the good but she was going right back from where she started.

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-sorry but what do you guys think?