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"I'll go everywhere you go
I'll go everywhere you go
You know I'll go, I'll go
Everywhere you go"

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Amelias ex was a fucking dick.

Not Nate Jacobs's type of dick but he was a dick.

Well atleast in my opinion.

If you were to ask Amelia what she thought about her ex she would say he was a good person and that he needed more love than the one he got growing up.

Maybe that's why Amelia cared so much about him.

They started off as friends that didn't know much about each other. It was Amelia's first relationship which was why she thought it was easy to take it slow but he didn't. He was just too desperate to receive love.

He opened up to Amelia easily and told her everything about him and his life. Both of his parents were dead and he lived with his grandparents but his grandmother had passed recently from when him and Amelia met.

The only one left was his grandfather but he was close to passing too which he was terrified of he would tell Amelia about it which worried her.

He also had a sister but she was in and out of jail which caused him to have to take care of her kids.

When that would happen he would shut out Amelia completely until he didn't. She thought maybe it got too hard on his own and he was finally letting her know what went around him.

Amelia was willing to help him, that's all she wanted but even when he would allow her to know what went on it was still hard.

He still wouldn't let her know everything.

They only acted like they were dating but they barely knew anything about each other.

Amelia was too busy worrying about him to even tell him anything. She thought it would be selfish of her to complain or even have him hear her problems which weren't even close to the problems he had.

Then they started to argue a lot. He claimed that Amelia never really liked him or that she wasn't interested at all.

This conversation went to ways it was either she argued back or she told him she did and told him how much she loved him which worked.

Amelia sometimes thought that that's what he needed to know someone was actually there for him but Amelia wasn't enough not at that time at least. She just simply didn't know how to be there for someone.

I don't blame her. She was still a kid while he was forced to grow up with all the bullshit in his family.

Anyways now I look bad for calling him a dick but Amelia poured her whole heart out to him and he couldn't even try to do the same. Maybe if he did they would still be together who knows.

I probably shouldn't be saying that since she's with Fezco now but you get what I'm saying.

He ruined Amelia in some way but she didn't see it that way; she just saw it as a life lesson. She knew he meant to just love her but maybe that's not what the universe wanted even though she tried for it to happen.

There was a point where Amelia had given up completely on him where she couldn't take anymore arguments or any more worried nights awake making sure he was fine but instead of talking he would just argue with her.

She decided to leave him but then...Valerie happened which only broke Amelia even more. I've never seen Amelia more heartbroken than in those few weeks where everything went down.

The night she broke up with him she texted Valerie telling her everything. The conversation was brief since they didn't talk much anymore like they did. Which was this fault but let's not blame him when it was Amelia who decided to be with him instead of listening to her.

Then the next day she had received the text of what happened. She was on the phone with me when she did. Both of us couldn't believe it she couldn't either.

I used to be close with Valerie too but not the way Amelia was but her death was still sad to me.

We just continued to talk on the phone trying to figure out what happened seeing how the car crash happened but there was still not much on her.

Later that night Amelia had to tell her parents which she thought would be easy too since she hadn't been affected by it yet but once she told them she broke down and she cried the whole night.

She just wished what she was living was all a nightmare and it would just end. She talked to all the people that knew Valerie trying to figure out more of what happened.

Then she thought about him. She knew that he was close to Valerie too even if they didn't talk anymore and if Amelia was being honest she needed him so that made them start talking to him.

That whole week he was there for her. He even put aside everything he was feeling for her. He knew Valerie dying was probably one of the hardest things that could've ever happened to the point where she couldn't even say Valerie's name for a while.

When that passed the arguments picked up again but this time it was different he was ignoring her and when he did argue with her he was more rude about it.

Usually Amelia woukd just tell him to fuck off knowing she deserved better than how he was treating her but this time it was her the one that was begging him to stay and to fix things instead the other way around like it used to be.

Amelia didn't know why she wanted him around so bad until later on when he actually lost him.

He was the last thing she had that made her feel like Valerie was still around and maybe that isn't healthy but that's the way Amelia saw it.

If she had him that meant Valerie was still around him too. Since it was always like that if she was with him Valerie was there but they wouldn't talk so she tried to imagine it that way but now it was different.

Amelia was left completely alone which only broke her more, but now all she felt was frustration.

She would die for just one conversation from either of them; it's like she depended on it. She was left stuck on him for a while refusing to let go but he had moved on and she didn't.

She was still stuck on what it used to be which was hard on her until she finally moved on but once in a while she thinks about what would've been if the both of them were still around.

Fezco knew a bit about all this but Amelia never really got into the depths of it. She thought it was better to be kept in the past since now she had something way more amazing with him.

She didn't think of her ex as someone she hated but someone she once loved and made an impact on her life instead of being the bad ex everyone would talk about but nobody really knew the real story but her.

It had been almost two weeks since everything had gone down. Everything was calm now other than the crazy outfits Cassie was showing up to school with Nate.

Amelia and maddy tried not to pay too much attention to it but sometimes it was just too hard to ignore like right now.

Cassie was currently walking down the hall with Nate with a pink outfit on and her hair pin straight with her winged eyeliner which kinda looked like Maddy's.

Kat and Amelia stood leaning on the lockers waiting for Maddy to finish putting her stuff away when they were interrupted when Cassie walked in with nate.

The three girls stared down the blonde who walked past them like she never even knew them.

Amelia didn't care about cassie and nate at all she cared about maddy who seemed to be doing well but in reality she felt betrayed and she hated the fact that nate chose cassie.

"Well she certainly looks the part..." Maddy eyed the blonde then turned to Amelia and Kat who had looked away from Cassie by now.

Amelia and Kat just laughed and brushed it off.

"Whatever anyways Alex said we could use his house for my birthday so I guess that's what we'll do" Amelia told the two girls.

"Is it a big party type of thing?" Kat asked her.

"I don't think so I just...there's just too much drama here I just thought it would be better for just us three plus fez, Lexi and maybe rue but I still don't know what's going on with her and then a few friends from over there what do you guys think?" Amelia mentioned the two of them.

"I think it would be better, we could still have fun, probably way much more than with a whole bunch of randoms" maddy replied to the girl.

"You're right, you're coming with Kat?" Amelia turned to the girl who was distracted.

"Oh yeah of course...just keep me updated but I have to go..'' Kat awkwardly dismissed herself which made Amelia frown then turn back to Maddy watching how she had a sad expression on her face.

"You okay?" Amelia asked while maddy shut her locker.

"Yeah I'm fine" maddy fake smiled. "I have to go too. I'll see you after school?"

Amelia nodded and watched her walk away.

Maddy was still staying at Amelia's house. She refused to go back to her room. Only thing she saw was Nate putting his gun up to her head.

Amelia knew she was struggling and let her stay. Her parents thought maddy had an argument with her parents since that's what usually happened for maddy to stay with them and Amelia let them believe that since she didn't want them to know what really happened.

Amelia walked through the hallways looking at all the text she had received.

Ash<3
Thursday 12:33 pm

Bro what the actual fuck!

What?

Got to be fucking kidding me rn bro

What?!

Cami
Bro wtf
Her out of all people?!

Oh I know I was ugly crying when it happened

Yeah...shit sad but I'm not crying

Fez<3
Thursday 12:20pm

Wyd beautiful

Walking down the hall
Sorry just now checking my phone
Wyd?:)

Is all good
I'm just chillin watching ash cry like a fucking baby look
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He said he wasn't crying...

He a fucking liar yiu see that shit
Should never be that serious

Leave him alone
It's sad

Shit is funny.
Why you ain't call me this morning

I didn't even get ready that much just fixed my hair I was too tired to even think about my phone

Is ok baby
I'll see you later tho

No stay I'm bored

Well shit what you trynna do

Alr fez
Maybe I will leave

Na come on baby I ain't mean it like that
Yk I love u

I love u too

Amelia smiled at her phone while she walked down the hall. When she was done texting she looked up to see rue standing in the bathroom entrance.

Now I know I've been MIA but I had to get my shit together which I do now and something I've been wanting to do since my whole scene shit was apologize to Amelia.

I loved Amelia way too fucking much she was a fucking angel no one deserved. I certainly do not deserve her. She's way too good but she was one of the people that kept me sane and she tried to help me when everything went down and I needed to show her I appreciated it.

"Hey Amy" rue said in a low voice scared of what Amelia's reaction would be. Amelia paused and looked at her with a big smile.

"Hey rue" Amelia immediately brought her into a hug.

Rue felt like she could break down right there from how tight Amelia was hugging her. Not a painful hug but a loving hug.

Amelia had been wanting to see rue but she didn't have a chance to. She knew rue probably needed time but seeing her in a good state was enough for her.

"Hey um could I stop by later? I just want to talk" rue asked Amelia while she pulled away from the hug.

"Yeah of course just text me when you're there" Amelia told her and Rue nodded.

"Okay then I'll see you later. '' Rue walked away while Amelia watched and then entered the bathroom to see Lexi walking out a stall.

"Hi lex" Amelia smiled at the girl and set her stuff down on the counter.

"Hey Amy..." Lexi walked next to her to wash her hands.

"How's your play going?" Amelia asked since Lexi didn't really talk about it to her at least.

"Oh it's going good...it's almost done"

"Will Alex be back by the time it happens?"

Alex had gone back home to sort some stuff with college and family.

Well that's what everyone was told but in reality his dad wanted to see him which was never good.

"Um yeah I think..." Lexi replied in a vague tone again which made Amelia worried.

"Are you okay?" She paused and turned to her.

"Yeah I'm fine..."

"Is it about Alex? Did he do something?" Amelia kept showering her with questions.

"No I..."

"Wait, is something wrong with him?! What did my uncle do?"

"I don't know he hasn't texted me since he left..." Lexi said in a sad worried tone.

The truth was that everytime Alex didn't reply, Lexi would worry.

She had heard all these stories of him playing girls left and right and she was worried he was doing that to her.

Lexi had already fallen for Alex but she wasn't sure if he did too which is what made her scared and insecure. She would try so hard.

It should be sad but all I hate is the fact Alex is making her feel like this.

She thought Alex had gone back home to mess with girls because that's what everyone told her he did that's why she was upset and now Amelia was noticing it.

"My uncle probably has him on a leash trust me it's okay he'll text you as soon as he gets away from him which will be soon since my dad was on his over there this morning" Amelia reassured her but she knew Lexi wasn't convinced.

"I'm serious lex he really likes you I've never seen him this way before he is serious about you two he's told me before oh and everytime my mom and dad mess with him he gets red" Amelia then reached out for her hand making sure she was listening. "Trust me he's probably just busy"

"Thank you...but I have to go. I'm so behind but I'll see you last period" Lexi grabbed all her stuff and went to walk out. "Bye amy"

"Bye lex" Amelia sent her a soft smile knowing her words didn't really affect her at all.

Ash<3
Thursday 12:57pm

Bro I was not crying
That picture not me

Oh yeah I know fez is always photoshopping

I'm serious amy

Me too

Amelia just laughed and walked back out to continue her day.

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Everyday after school Amelia would hang out with Fezco...and maddy since she lived in her house now basically.

She wasn't invasive at all. At some point she would leave to let them be but for a while they would sit in the living room or outside just to talk.

Today they were outside. Fezco had just returned from getting some snacks and maddy and Amelia were sitting down on the couch chairs outside.

"Have you heard from Alex?" Amelia asked Maddy while both scrolled through their phones.

"No, why?" Maddy asked, looking away from her phone and to her.

"Because Lexi told me he hasn't texted her since the day he left"

"Uncle probably got him doing his dirty work or he fucking some other bitch or bitches" maddy told her with a smirk on her face.

"Stop that Lexi is like actually worried he's doing that since that's all we've been saying about him we need to stop before we ruin this for the both of them" Amelia said to her while fez set some stuff down listening to their conversation.

"You right..." maddy just drifted off to her phone again.

"What about you?" She turned to Fez "have you heard from him?"

"Just once after he left he told me he was busy doing some shit" he replied to her moving her legs off the seat next to her and sat down placing her legs back on his legs. "When he coming back?"

"We don't know, I think my dad might get him back..."

"No fucking way..." maddy yelped jumping up from her seat looking at her phone.

"What?" Amelia turned her attention back on her.

"Have you seen this shit?!" Maddy continued but still left them confused since she wouldn't show the phone.

"Seen what?!" Amelia was now interested to see as well. Maddy handed her the phone waiting to see her reaction as well as Fezco who was clueless at what was going on.

Once Amelia took the phone and looked at the post she saw it was an engagement picture she just didn't know who's until she went through the account to find out it was her ex.

"Wait, this is the same girl?" Amelia asked her while looking through the post. Fezco tried to see the screen but it was no use since he didn't know who it was.

"Yep, same bitch" Maddy replied to her.

Amelia just stared at the screen until her mom yelled her name from inside which made her snap out.

"Well that was quick and impulsive. Good for him" Amelia gave her back the phone and got up from the couch to walk in the house where her mom was calling her.

When she was gone Fezco turned to look at maddy who was laughing at her screen.

"What was that about?" He asked the girl, making her look up from the phone.

"Oh look" she got up and showed him the phone but only saw the post clueless.

"Who's this?" He asked, looking at the screen.

"She didn't tell you? About her ex David?" Maddy questioned him, looking at his confusion.

"Yeah but what does this mean?"

"Oh he got engaged to the girl he cheated on Amelia with"

"What that got to do with her though?" Fezco questioned, still not understanding why Amelia was affected by it.

"Cause it's David, that boy had Amelia messed up, he really had her under his spell" maddy scoffed and sat back down.

Fezco just sat back thinking if Amelia was actually upset by it. If she did that meant she still felt something for him and that bothered Fezco.

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Amelia had gone to the front door to see Rue standing there cracking her fingers nervously.

"Hi rue what's up" Amelia walked out and shut the door. Rue just pointed to the step for them to sit down.

"Amy I was a bitch to you and everyone..." Rue began as soon as they sat down and Amelia stopped her.

"Hey take your time, calm down" Amelia took her hand stopping her from cracking her fingers.

"Yeah okay..." she took a breath and began again. "I know everything has just been a lot and this whole shit was me I know I was affecting people around me and I'm sorry for everything I did during that all the mean words I said to you when all you were trying to do was help me and I appreciate you for that for not giving up on me you're a really good friend when I was shitty you didn't deserve everything I did"

"Rue no matter how much stuff you do to me I'll always forgive you every time..." Amelia said to her, watching how Rue was close to breaking down.

"You shouldn't though because I messed with your life. I messed with you and fez several times and I'm sorry I know you guys are happy and I'm happy for that" rue replied to her now crying which only made Amelia cry.

"I forgive you rue but I know I shouldn't ask this of you I really shouldn't but I want you to promise that you'll start caring for yourself because..." Amelia paused to gather herself back. "Everytime you go on paths like this I'm afraid I'll lose you and I can't. I know this is selfish but I really can't go through that again so please promise me you will try"

"I didn't know that it was making you think of that..Amy I'm so sorry..."

"It's not your fault it's mine it's okay just do better." Amelia told her and rue nodded and looked to the other direction thinking of Amelia and how scared she must've felt.

"You know..." Amelia spoke again. "I was thinking of her this morning when I saw you. You looked so good and happy and I thought to myself that this was one of those days where she would've been happy for her friends because that's all she wanted she wanted us happy and when she was gone I just felt like I would never be happy again because she wasn't going to be there to get me through"

"She always made sure I was fine even if I didn't. I was too focused on myself. I never thought about asking her..."

"She wasn't, we all knew she wasn't okay but she hid it from the world. I don't know how she managed to do it but she was always there to make us happy even if she wasn't" Amelia groaned in annoyance and wiped away her tears.

"It's frustrating I want to talk to her so bad right now and I can't and it's frustrating all the times I had to opportunity to talk to her and now I'm realizing how much I wasted"

"She understood she would ask me how you were doing she just wanted to know if you were happy but we all know you wasn't happy with him" rue told Amelia who just nodded her head. "You'll be okay though I know it"

Rue pulled the girl into a hug. "I love you Amy"

"I love you too rue" Amelia hugged back then let go. "Now go and apologize to whoever is next you already made me cry"

"That's why I take my time can't do this shit everyday" rue got up the step laughing. "Bye Amy..."

"Bye rue..." Amelia waved as she watched her walk away.

Amelia sat there for a couple of minutes trying to pull herself together to walk back in but before she could Fezco went to go see her.

He wanted to know she was okay and he was also concerned about what Amelia felt from the picture.

He was going to question her but all he was feeling went away once she saw the girl crying which made him sit down immediately.

"What happened ma? Who was it?" Fezco questioned her, setting his thumb and index finger to take her chin and make her look up to him.

"It was rue, she wanted to apologize...and then she started talking about Valerie so...I'll be okay though just give me a minute" Amelia told him wiping her tears.

"Nah nah is ok come here" fez moved her hands away and brought her into a hug letting her cry. Fezco heard her little sobs while he rubbed her back.

He was hesitating on asking her or not so he decided to wait until she was more calm.

"Is this about what maddy showed you?" He asked finally when the girl was calm.

"What? No not at all" Amelia pulled away wiping her face then looked over to him still seeing the expression on his face. "You're confused..."

"I mean yeah you see that and you just storm off you seemed pretty upset so I'm just out here wondering if it's bothering you that much" Fezco explained to her.

"It's not, it doesn't bother me, it's just...I never thought he would settle down that fast. I knew he was about that but with her? I never knew about her until later I found out he had cheated on me and by the time I found it I had already moved on '' Amelia began to explain.

"I'm happy for him if the girl really makes him happy then that's good and know it didn't bother me in that way I'm just confused and I never expected that"

"So he got engaged with the bitch he cheated on you with?" He asked, making sure he understood and she nodded. "You right that shit weird"

"It's not like I care at least not in that way. I care about the fact if he's doing okay he completely shut me out and moved on sometimes I just want to ask him personally if he got everything he wanted. If his sister was doing better now. I know his grandpa passed away and I know that wouldn't of been easy he was so scared of being alone I want to know if he made it out of that because that's all I wanted and I couldn't help him do that but if she did that's good and I mean when I say I'm happy she helped him out" amelia continued to rant to him while he listened.

"I know he was important to you because of your friend and I know it sucks y'all not close no more" he said to her while he still held her.

"She probably knew we weren't good for each other but I think she would've still wanted us to be close to check up on each other I know if I told him about all this excluding the bad parts he would've been happy he wouldn't be mad we just weren't meant for each other" Amelia sighed and took Fezcos hand. "If we ever break up can you promise we'll be close still I want to see you live and be happy..."

"No I'm not cause we not breaking up, we going to make a life together and we'll see each other go up" Fezco pulled away and took her head in his hand. "I would never leave you Amy. I love you way too much"

"I love you too" she smiled and laid back on his shoulder.

Fezco pulled her in again and connected his free hand with hers. The other was wrapped around her rubbing little circles on her arm with his thumb. Amelia looked up and left a small kiss on his neck and Fezco returned it on her forehead.

Maybe Amelia's ex wasn't a complete total dick he was just afraid to love someone since he kept losing people he loved.

I know he loved Amelia but just not in that way. He saw her as someone impactful in his life that helped him out and I know he will always be grateful for it.

Just like I was.

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-long intro i know I'm sorry

Anyways this was hard to write but I love it such a beautiful chapter.

Thanks to my amazing ex for giving me something to write Congratulations I guess.

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