2:30
I woke up from my very enjoyable nap and took a shower. I got out and styled my ver messy curly hair. As I was finished I got a text from the one and only Rue.

Rue😮‍💨

Heyyy what r u doing rn?

Hey nothing rn why?

You tryna hang out?

Uhhh sure thats cool
K be there in 15.

Really fucking 15? I get ready as fast as possible and throw on some cargos and a white crop top that showed a little cleavage . I put on my dirty ass air forces, put a little mascara and lipgloss and put my hair in a half up half down.
I got a text from rue saying she was here and I grabbed my purse and left out. I grabbed my bike and went to rue

Ally: Hey rue how u been?
Rue: Hey you know chilling and whatever
Ally: dope. Where we going?
Rue: i gotta stop somewhere to pick up sum then we can go somewhere
Ally: bet

I get in my bike and we pedal off where she has to go.

2:55
We get there very quickly I search around noting were at a fucking gas station. I put our bikes to the side and I walk with rue to see her approach this older guy.

?: sup rue how u been
Rue: Hey fez I been good I'm just here to pick some stuff up

I look at the ginger with a questionable face.
I heard about fez before, but I never got to put a face on him.

Fez:You relapsed?
Rue: eh not really
Fez: look ion judge. Who is this?

He points at me while turning his eyes and attention to me. I slightly smile at him and wave awkwardly

Rue: Fez this is my close friend Ally, Ally this is my brother and dealer, Fezco

"Hey" i say with my arms crossed

Fez: Yoo nice to meet you

He Said dapped me up and gave me a reassuring Smirk. Thank god he didn't mention my awkward wave.

"Ash is in the back"
Fezco says pointing to the back of the store. I walk to the back with rue and we go into the gas station and into the room in the back and I see a boy with his head down counting money. Fucking prick

?:Were out rn come back later
Rue: Whats good ash

For some reason his voice sounded so familiar. I go back in my mind trying to recall when I last heard this very familiar voice. When rue talks the boy didn't once budge to look up at her and continued to count money.

"I thought yo ass was dead. Where u been? You go back to rehab or sum shit?"
He said with his eyes still focused
on the money, Still not looking up at either of us

Rue: Nah Juss decided to stay clean but I'm back and ready

"ok ok. So what the fuck you want?"
He says finally looking up and looked at rue then stared at me making eye contact with me and just staring like he was trying to figure something out.

Then it hits. It all comes back. This is the boy who literally scolded me for smoking and bumped into me in the hallway. Damn he's actually hot.

"Uh C 22,Morphine,Opium and weed

"Alr hol on"
He gave her a nod and walked away to get the drugs. This is actually sad. Having to sell people their own death. Minus well put a gun to her face and blow her brains out.

The boy named I guess Ash gets the stuff and comes back handing it to her.
Rue: Also this is my friend Ally
Ash: mm and would Ally like anything. Weed?

I look at rue with the most terrified face and look back at him. He knows what he's doing. I have no choice but go say no or he will probably do worse then yell at me in the hall.

"No I'm good"
I whispered in the most quiet tone ever.
Wow so bold. I would have never thought I could turn down weed that easily.

"Speak up I cant hear you"
I look down and look back up to see him staring directly at me.

"No I'm fine" I said making him smirk like the asshole he is.

Ash: That will be 145
"On the house"

Ash: U fucking lying but bye Rue and Ally, see you around

The way he said my name sent waves through my stomach. For some reason I hate this boy but he's in my head. Why I don't know. We walked out and I felt ashes eyes burning holes through me as I walked off.

"BYE FEZ"
She yells as she's walking out the store
"bye rue and ally"
He says in the calmest voice. I said goodbye to him and me and Rue got on our bikes and left. As we were biking i could feel rues eyes on me like she was confused.

"Yes"
"You know ashtray?"
"Ashtray? good to know. "
I say figuring out his name finally.

"Yeah but wassup with tha?"
"Nun I Juss see him in school and shit"
"Oh wrd"
Rue said finally letting go of it. We make it to the top of this hill and bye now the sun setting

Ally: so Rue what we doing today?
Rue: Ima chill off allat right now and just smoke some tree
"ard coo"
Im Relived. Don't like being around her in that state at all.

Rue: want sum
Ally: hell yeah

She pass me a rolled blunt and a lighter. I lite the rolled paper then take a long drag.
"Hows life" I say as I exhale slowly

"shiii... a lot y know. So much pressure and I like this girl but she fucking with sum bitch online. And then it's this......"
She continues talking as I zone out replaying me and ashtrays conversations. Fuck him bro. He's ruining my high while being miles away.

"You?"
I snap back Into reality after barely hearing the speak.

"ok ok.... I don't kno. Tbh what people don't understand is its hard to be a sister of someone thats so perfect. People except me to be the same. Im not obviously though."

Rue: tru shit
We talk about hella shit until we were completely zooted. We talked about shit that made no fucking sense. When we left, she pedaled to my house to make sure I was safe.
"bye ally it was nice seeing you"

"bye Rue thanks for the weed text me when u get home"

"anytime and i will"

I walked into my house as rue pedaled off and went in the direction of her house. I lock my bike to the side of the front yard and walk up to my front door unlocking it with my key.
I walk up to my room and see Maddy in her room laying on top of Nate on her phone through her cracked door. Nate looks up at me and we make eye contact. I roll my eyes and continue walking to my room.
I hate Nate woth every bone in my small ass body. I get tired of how he always treats my sister. He always is arguing with her and sometimes I see bruises on Maddy. I sometimes dream about killing him.

12:45
I get in my room and take off my purse and shoes. I walk in my closet and get some pajamas out. I change and walk to my bathroom to take off my makeup. I get in my bed and turn on shameless and went to sleep.

A/n: Im sooo scared i hope this blows up 🥲