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Hawks woke up to an annoying alarm ringing in his ear. He noticed (Y/n) was still asleep so he rolled out of his bed and went to her side. "Good morning baby bird," He whispered in her ear before kissing her cheek, "time to get up."

She hazily opens her eyes and gets out of bed. As her back faced him, he grabs her from behind and pulls (Y/n) close, nuzzling his head into her neck and planting a multitude of kisses. "Today's the day!!" Hawks said happily, referring to her surgery later.

"Today is the day." She repeated but not with the same excitement. "You nervous?"

"A bit but I'll be fine. We'll be fine." She replied with a bit more confidence in her voice. "We'll?" Hawks asked as he was confused as to why he was included. "Yes, we. You have work today don't you?"

"Oh yeah I do."

"Then," (Y/n) removed Hawk's hands from her and started to walk away, "we should go and get ready." He groans but follows her to get dressed. As he had heavy duty amour, weapons and more layers than her, she got changed faster and Hawks found her sitting on her bed, writing in her journal while humming her song.

"♪Two birds of a feather♪
♪say that they're always gonna stay together♪
♪but one's never going to let go of that wire♪
♪she says that she will but she is a liar♪"

She hears Hawks close the door so she turns and smiles at him. "You ready?" She asked him, seeing as he was already in uniform. "Almost. Just got to put on my eyeliner."

"You wear eyeliner?" She chuckled, almost bursting out laughing. "Don't judge me. It brings out my eyes." He pouted at her as she went over to his side. "Let me help."

He agrees but a smirk grows on his face as an idea pops into his head. When (Y/n) goes to get the eyeliner he grabs her by her waist and pulls her onto his lap. As she was on her on top of him, one leg on each side, he looked up to her face. He smiled seeing a light red tinge her cheeks.

Hawks stayed still as (Y/n) put eyeliner on his eyes but he moved slightly as he ran his hands up and down her waist. She had seen him enough times on tv to know how he did his eyes and quickly finished, although she would have liked the moment to last a but longer.

She cupped his face in her hands and softly smiled. "I'm done." Hawks looked up and leaned closer to her soft lips. His hands that where formerly around her waist slid further down until he was holding her by the ass.

He smirked seeing (Y/n)'s flustered expression but closes his eyes and seals a kiss on her lips. Before he could go too far he pulls away. "Thanks kid." he stands up, holding (Y/n) in his arms, her legs wrapped around his waist before he carefully lowered her onto the bed. "I gotta go."

She groaned slightly, sad to see him leave even if it was only for a bit. "Be safe and don't do anything stupid. Come back soon, okay?" She kissed him one last time before parting ways. "Yeah. Bye baby bird."

"Bye baby." Hawks reluctantly walked out of the room and down the hospital corridor. He wanted to stay with (Y/n) longer but he's got to do his job and try to restore everyone's faith in himself and heroes. But that didn't change the fact that he wished he could skip over this part of the day.

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Hawks walked back into the hospital very confused on what just happened. He was certain that he had just left for work in the morning but now it's the evening and he's still in the hospital.

Hawks looked down at his scruffy, dirty uniform indicating that he had gone out and fought villains even if he didn't recall doing it. He did want to skip over this part of the day but he didn't think he actually would time travel.

However he didn't have the time to worry about this as (Y/n)'s surgery is really soon and he wanted to be there before she went under anaesthesia. Hawks rushed to his and her hospital room and found her sitting on her bed.

Her eyes were red and puffy and she was sniffing like crazy as if she was just crying. Yet she still put on the same smile she always had. "Hey," she rushed over to him and wrapped her arms around his neck, "how was work?"

"Okay, I think." He kisses her forehead and pulls her close. "What do you mean by I think?" She asked but Hawks could see that she was upset and didn't want to trouble her with his problems. "Don't worry about it. Are you okay?" She releases him from her hold and her smiles drops slightly. "I'm fine."

Hawks lifted his hand and held (Y/n)'s face, his thumb caressing her cheek. "Is that really the truth?" He could see the sadness in her eyes and it was almost killing him knowing something was wrong but not knowing what. "No, it's not the truth." She said with her voice practically breaking.

A tear streamed down her face and Hawks immediately pulls her into a hug. "I'm scared." Hawks felt her squeeze him tight and his heart practically shattered. "It's okay it'll be okay."

"No it won't."

"Yes it will." Hawks spoke again but with a more affirmative voice. "No it won't!" (Y/n) shouted, pushing Hawks away, "I lied. I'm a liar." Tears were streaming down her face as she cried uncontrollably. "What do you mean?"

Hawks pulled her into his arms once more and started rubbing her back and kissing her head, anything to calm her down so she can explain.

"I told you after the surgery I'd be fine but I lied. The surgery is incredibly risky and it's not certain that I'll actually live," she managed to say through the tears, "Even if I do there will probably be complications stopping me from ever getting better." Hawks was so shocked at what he heard he had to sit down. 

He was mad. He wasn't mad at her for lying, he was mad because he didn't realise it sooner. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry." (Y/n) started to recite her apology over and over, getting more desperate as she went. Hawks could see in her eyes that she was begging for forgiveness but she couldn't see that she was already forgiven.

"It's okay." He held out his arms calling her to him and she went straight to him, taking a seat in his lap. Hawks cradled her and pulled her into his chest.

He soon moved to laying on the hospital bed and cuddling her, his wings wrapped around her tightly. "It'll be okay. I know it's scary and there are a lot of uncertainties but we'll face it together." Hawks wished he could have done something more as his empty words don't hide the fact that her survival wasn't definite.

At that moment multiple nurses and doctors walked into the room, all wearing the same look of pity. "It's time." One of them said. Hawks got off the bed leaving (Y/n) to lay there but knelt by her side and squeezed her hand tight.

They start to hook her up to machine and do checkups, preparing for her to go under. Panicking, (Y/n) frantically looked around at everything going on and Hawks could see how terrified she was. "Hey," he grab her face and turned it to face him, "look at me. It's you and me. Just you and me. You and me, okay. Just take a deep breath."

She nods and starts to breath deeply and slowly. "We'll be putting you under anaesthesia now." The doctors informed us. "Wait," (Y/n) said all of a sudden before going to the grab her journal, "you have it. It means a lot to me and I want you to have it."

"(Y/n) don't-"

"No. No Hawks. Take it." He stared at it and started shaking his head. "Hawks," she looked deep into his eyes, "take. it."

He takes the book out of her hands and looks at it. Hawks knew this was her way of saying goodbye and he hated it. The doctors grew tired of waiting and injected her. (Y/n)'s vision grew blurry and Hawks could tell she was loosing consciousness.

"I be here when you wake up." He smiled warmly at her and she smiled back. He used the feather on (Y/n)'s necklace and made it caress her cheek. Hawks quickly kissed her but was interrupted by the doctors and nurses moving her to the operation room.

Hawks tried to keep up but wasn't allowed any further than the waiting room as he wasn't allowed in the operation room. He stared at (Y/n) disappear behind the doors and his heart sank. Now he couldn't do anything but wait.

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