(TW: self-harm & drug abuse)

JIKIKA

Thursday 4:00 pm

"BYEEE LOVE YOU HOES!" Yami yelled waving goodbye to Maddy and Kat while we put the bags in the trunk. Going to the mall was absolutely a MUST cause a bitch needed more makeup and sweatshirts.

"BYE YAMI , BYE KIKA!!" Maddy yelled back blowing the both of us a kiss before getting in the car with Kat.

"Let's go homeskillet" Yami said while getting in the driver's seat. I made my way around to the passenger seat then got in, I started hitting my pen as my sister started talking "What's the move for the rest of the day?"

I turned up the music then adjust my seat getting more comfortable, "I'm gonna go chill with Fez tonight" I told her taking another pull from my pen before giving it to Yami.

Yami gives me a look while taking a pull before saying, "Yall just gonna "chill"?"

I hit her while rolling my eyes trying to hide the fact that I was embarrassed, "Damn look at the car" I said pointing out of the window to the car with the broken windshield.

"BITCH, I know you heard me" My sister says hitting me in my chest. I coughed glaring at her snatching my pen back from her, "ANYWAYS" 

"Jikika I'm not finna play with you" Yami said clearly getting impatient with me. See, I don't want her evil Gemini side to come out so I finally answered her, "I mean I don't know. He invited me over to chill but last time I helped him do some runs so maybe we'll do that again"

"Damn girl that's all you had to say really" She laughed at my dramatic antics to not answer her questions.

"Niggaaa, a pimp got stressed" I frown looking back out of the window.

"So you want me to drop you off at his house before I go home, or do you wanna go home and get ready first?"

"Home, I feel like homeless Squidward right now" I responded making Yami laugh which made me laugh as well.

"Okay girlfriend" She giggled

The rest of the ride home was pretty fun we listened to the personal playlist we both made catered to our music taste. Around the 10 minute mark we made it home since the mall really wasn't that far from our house.

Yami pulled into the driveway and parked it before getting out and taking her bags from the trunk. I did the same getting my bags of clothes and makeup that I dropped more than enough money on, Yami was already unlocking the door when I made it to the door with her. The two of us walked in and I heading upstairs as she locked the door then followed me upstairs.

"Do you have any plans tonight?" I asked while setting my bags on the floor making a subconscious note to put them away in my dresser when I got back.

"Um..I don't know really, either Sil and I do something or I just stay home and chill," Yami said shrugging as she took off her shoes, plopped down on the couch, and then pressed play since the tv was already on showing the paused episode of Bad Girls Club I was watching this morning.

Nodding knowing she isn't even looking at me anymore I started to brainstorm what to wear. It was slightly warm outside today, but tonight the temperature is supposed to drop so something to keep me warm but not too warm.

"Imma just keep it simple," I said to myself as I walked to my dresser and pulled out grey sweatpants, and an oversized t-shirt.

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. . .

Sitting down on the floor in front of the mirror I shared with my sister, I started to do my makeup. It was pretty simple nothing too crazy just lashes, a little bit of highlighter, mascara, and vaseline for my lips. To finish it off I put on some random ass socks on the floor that to be honest.. might've been dirty but that's MY business.

After looking at myself in the mirror and feeling satisfied, I texted fez saying I was about to be on my way there whilst putting my shoes on. I didn't really feel like asking Yami for the keys to the car or having her drive me so I smuggled my skateboard from underneath my bed. "I forgot I had this damn near" I mumbled to myself

Fez texted me saying to come around the back because him and Ash were getting things ready to sell. Sending back an 'okay' I shoved my phone back into my pocket then gave YamI a hug before I left.

"Bye bitch be safe, I don't have bail money I spent it all today," She said making me laugh before I went downstairs.

I convincing myself that I needed some snacks for my journey so instead of going straight out the door, I took a pitstop in the kitchen. Scanning the pantry I grabbed a bag of chips then finally left the house.

6:25 pm

I put my headphone in while going to my playlist on Spotify. No frauds started to play as I skated down the street to Fez's house.

Lowkey, I missed skateboarding, I forgot how therapeutic it is. I enjoyed my small scenic route to Fez's house watching for cars so I wouldn't go flying and eat shit on the pavement.

The ride was pretty smooth but a little bit boring. Skating to the back where Fez originally told me to go I hopped off my skateboard and walked in to get a drink.

"Fez!" I yelled picking up a redbull— which Yami would yell at me for

"Yooo" Fez grined coming out of the office him and Ashtray shared, "how you been?"

"Alright" I shrugged, "mostly bored, besides today"

"What did you do?" He asked me while checking to make sure he had everything in his backpack to start doing plays.

"Got high and went to the mall with Yami, Maddy, and Kat"

Fez gestured for me to follow him to what I assumed was the car so we could get going. "Damn, i didn't know yall were all cool like that" He said sounding surprised

"Well, Yami and Maddy are closer than me and Maddy are. Cassie is Maddy's best friendddd so..." I trail off not really wanting to finish my sentence due to being bored of the topic. Fez laughed nodding his head, "and you and rue?" he asked looking at me

My stomach slightly knotted up with anxiety, I wouldn't say I had feelings for Rue, but I do miss hanging out with her and how things were before Jules came. Doesn't necessarily mean I have a crush on her though..so why is my face getting red and the room feeling hotter.

"What do you mean?" I asked playing stupid like I have no clue what he's talking about but I actually don't know what he's talking about.

"Sometimes I feel like you're slower than me, and I'm like....slow" Fez laughed as he stopped at a red light.

I looked out of the window which is something I tend to be doing a lot today.

Should I make a break for it?

I mean how far could I get- Bitch you really tryna jump out of the car over a simple ass question?

yes

Punching his shoulder I respond, "I'm not slow. Anyways I mean yeah? Me and rue are close but like.."

"Not that close anymore?" Fez basically finished my sentence.

"How'd you know?" I asked bewildered because how does this nigga know my thoughts and feelings.

"It's not really hard to tell. You two would always come here together, but now since Jules came to town I haven't seen you guys here much together, always separate"

Hearing this kinda made my heart hurt a little. "Does she comes here with Jules?" not really wanting the answer but wanting the answer.

He coughed from hitting the blunt he just sparked that I somehow didn't even notice, "uhh maybe like once or twice. I don't really remember, Ash normally serves since I've been doing more deliveries"

I nodded my head understanding and kinda wanting to drop the topic.

10:12 pm

We did maybe one or two runs before stopping at a diner because we both had the munchies. "Dawg I'm hungry as hellll" I said putting my shades on as we walked into the restaurant. There weren't many people there, just a couple on one side of the diner and two men that looked to be in their mid-'40s drinking coffee.

"Why you got them shits on yo?" Fez laughed pointing to my sunglasses. I smack my teeth at him for asking such a preposterous question.

"Cause bro, it be mad bright in this bitch" I laugh with him.

Fez and I picked a booth by the window that faced outside where the car was. A waitress who was honesty kinda fine came over greeting us and asking what we wanted to drink.

"Do you guys have coke or Pepsi products?" I asked not even checking the menu

"Coke, love" She smiled at me. Our waitress seemed to be in her early 20's, had shoulder length curly hair that was dyed black with blonde highlights underneath.

"Coke please" I said to her now actually looking at the menu.

"Lemme get uh sprite," Fez says not even looking at the waitress too engulfed in the menu in front of him. Our cute waitress left the table to go get our drinks while also giving us more time on what to order.

"This bur-" My phone interrupted me as it started to ring. "Damn bruh who is it" I mumble struggling to get my phone out of my pocket.

Finally answering I hear a frantic Silas on the other line. "Where are you?!" He yelled

"Fuck is you yelling for and uhhhh.." I check the menu for the restaurant's name, "Franks, why?"

"Yami relapsed you gotta come home, NOW"

"Wait wait-" I said trying to process what Silas had just told me, but the information very quickly processed and the panic started to set in. "Where are you, I'm on my way," I said getting u, I grabbed a very clueless Fez rushing the both of us out of the diner.

"What's going on?"

"Yami relapsed again, Silas called me," I said frantically as I basically jumped into the passenger seat.

Fez immediately understood the severity of the situation, and wasted no time in reversing the car and leaving the parking lot like a bat outta hell.

"I'm about to walk into the house now. I think she's in the bathroom" Silas said

I could hear him on the other line going into the house and running up the stairs. Fez should have honestly been in Fast and Furious: Tokyo drift the way he was drifting down the street of where Yami and I lived.

Silas didn't even make it halfway into the driveway before Fez pulled up to the house causing me to I jump out of the car and started running inside.

"Yami!" I yell her name skipping stairs to get up quicker

"She's in the bathroom!" I heard Silas yell back

My first glance into the bathroom was Silas holding Yami on her side with a puke all around her. "She's breathing, still," He said still having his full attention on Yami at that moment.

Fez came behind me handing me some pills, "It's Adderall, if she can, have her snort it," He said helping Silas pick my half-conscious sister up from the floor.

"And that works?" Silas asked as I start crushing up the pills to make a line. My ass wasn't taking any chances in asking questions, I needed to save my sister.

Yami was almost on the verge of unconsciousness with dry and fresh blood on her arms wrapped around with bandages that I assume Silas did.

"It'll stable her heart rate. I had to use this for Rue multiple times" Fez answered Silas' question

"Baby, I need you to snort this okay?" Silas said to Yami as she fought to keep her eyes open. "Please, Yamiek" He pleaded with tears starting to form in his eyes.

I placed some of the crushed powder on my finger holding it front of her nostril, "Sniff"

Yami listened to me as she weakly sniffed the powder off of my finger. That wouldn't be enough to help her.

"Nobody has Naloxone do they?" I asked doubtfully. Silas helped Yami sit on the toilet as he moved the powder line to the edge of the counter to where she could reach.

"I did but ran out.." Fez said with a guilty look on his face.

"Yams try to take more of the adderall" I told my sister, she was starting to become more limp. I watched Yami, with the help of Silas, bend over and snort the full line of adderall.

"Good job, baby" Silas kissed Yami's head as she rested most of her weight onto him.

"It's okay Fez" I smiled at him empathetically, "we need to get her to the hospital"

I know that the Adderall might not be enough

"How much did she take? What did she take?" Fez asks

"It really didn't look like a lot, but it was bars," Silas said holding Yami up for support.

Yami snorted as much as she could before relaxing in Silas' arms. "Check her pulse," I say still scared it didn't work. Silas takes her arm checking for her pulse, "it's slowing down to how it was"

A few minutes go by and Yami finally started breathing normally. She needed to rest through, she's for sure still weak right now, her body is trying to recover from damn near dying.

"So hospital or no?"

Yami shook her head no as Silas helped her yo from the toilet seat and onto the bed. He sat her upright with a pillow behind her just in case she threw up again.

All of us sat in the room in silence over what just happened. It wasn't really awkward silence but I finally broke it because I needed to know who or what made my sister want to do this.

"Yams, what happened?" I asked moving from the bathroom to the end of her bed.

She hesitated like she didn't want to say but after Silas said it was okay not to talk about it if she wasn't ready, she changed her mind.

My sister didn't really go into details but just gave us the simple answer, "Aaron and I had a fight. He was yelling at me and saying Silas was cheating on me, I'm a bad girlfriend, and that I'm not good enough for him" as she spoke we voice was raspy so I think she was crying pretty hard either during or after the encounter. Or both.

"Baby you know none of that is true right?" Silas asked hugging and giving her a kiss on the head.

"I don't know why he always targets me.." Yami whispered like she was on the verge of tears again.

"Because he's a narcissist and knows that you're sensitive," I said feeling myself get more mad thinking about him.

"Nah, Imma have a talk with him because he had no right to do that to you," Silas says pulling his phone out.

"No no" Yami protests, "not right now"

Silas looked at her for a second before sighing and nodding his head, he put his phone back into his jacket pocket and went back to comforting her.

I looked at the time on my phone and it was well past 12 am. "You and fez can stay here if yall don't want to go home," I said getting up from Yami's bed and giving her a hug. I picked up sweatpants that was on my bed and went to the bathroom to change. 

In the span on a minute that I was gone changing, Silas was already getting comfortable taking his shoes off and laid next to Yami.

"I would but I gotta finish these runs" Fez said getting up from the couch, "Take it easy Yami, and don't listen to what that punk ass bitch gotta say"

"Thank you" Yami smiled weakly at him

Fez nodded then looked at me, "You stay safe too." I nodded, "I will, you do the same"

After fez left I wanted to see if Yami would talk more, "Are you sure that's all Yami?" I asked. I felt like she wasn't telling the full story. I mean yes Yami is a very sensitive girl and her mental health isn't the best right now so that defiantly could have put her off the deep end, but I can't help but feel as if theres are some key points she left out.

"Yeah..that's kinda all I wanna talk about if that's okay" She said softly

"That's alright sister sister, get some rest" I responded before turning off the overhead light and attempted to go to sleep