CHAPTER FIVE:
DAMAGED

AFTER THE EVENTS THAT TOOK place a few month prior, the tests became more severe. Sapphire always claimed that she had blacked out when she had killed Grace. She couldn't recall anything when she had killed the other woman. The treatments became even more harsh, and Sapphire was confused on how she wasn't dead yet. She knew they were testing her, trying to see how the woman could function in different circumstances. And to their surprise, she did really well in dangerously cold temperatures, and she did awful warm temperatures.

Sapphire sat there on the hard cold bed, staring blankly at the wall in front of her. Her cell was pulled open to reveal a dark skinned woman, someone that seemed unfamiliar to her. She frowned slightly as the woman entered. Sapphire stood up, allowing the woman to grasp her arm and drag her down the hallway before throwing her into a room. Sapphire landed on the floor, a grunt leaving her lips as she narrowed her eyes at the woman before forcing herself to stand up. The woman looked at her, their eyes meeting and there was something in her eyes that seemed almost familiar, it was an emotion, but Sapphire couldn't decipher which one it was.

The door was closed, and Sapphire stood in the blank room, confused as to what was happening. And then she felt it. Sweat started to trickle down the back of her neck as it grew hotter and hotter, the lack of oxygen leaving the room. She felt ice fill her veins, watching before her eyes as her skin suddenly became as pale as a sheet of paper. Her eyes had a slither of glowing light, but not enough for her to notice.

She felt like she was suffocating, but she could feel her body fighting against the hot temperatures that were being placed on her. She let out a choked sound, feeling the last of the oxygen leave the room. Her knees buckled, a hand coming to her throat as she tried to breathe. "I can't breathe. I can't breathe." She repeated the phrase over and over before yelling it so loudly that her heart rate spiked and she could breathe again, except the room was now cold. Frozen, actually. Ice decorated all of the walls and the floor. The heat stopped entering the room and Sapphire gasped, looking around before looking down at her hands, shaking her head. She didn't do that. She refused to believe, and she tricked herself into doing just that. She tricked herself into believing that she had been seeing things, that what she did wasn't possible. That she was normal. But, she knew she wasn't, and that scared her.

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There were no tests, that day. And Sapphire suddenly became worried as she sat in her cell, alone, her mind running at a thousand miles per hour. Was she so twisted in the head that she was scared they weren't injecting a new liquid into her blood stream? Had they really screwed her up that much, that that was her fear. Being saved was no longer a blink of a thought in her mind. She knew that she wasn't going to be saved. She had lost the days, the months, she wasn't even sure how long she had been in HYDRA's grasps, but it felt like a new normal for her and it was traumatizing.

She refused to even think about her sister anymore. Just the thought of Jemma not being okay because Sapphire wasn't, was something she couldn't think about without breaking down. She wondered if her parents were worried, or if they even knew. All she knew, was the fact that her family would move on without her. They didn't need her to be happy. Jemma had Fitz, who would look after the woman whether he was asked to or not. Her mother and father had each other. Sapphire, well, she had the thought of her family being okay without her.

Sapphire knew that there was something wrong with her. She knew that she was no longer normal. She was no longer an agent that could take down anyone, she was a weak test subject that couldn't even pick herself up off the floor without crying out for help. Sapphire was damaged. More damaged than she ever was before. And she would never fully heal from the scars, the needles, the serums. She would never heal, because she was changed. HYDRA had made her into a completely different person, and she had it glued in her brain that she would never be able to get her old self back. She had it glued in her brain that she would never see her family again. She had it glued in her brain that she was going to die in that HYDRA base, and she wouldn't have the chance to say goodbye.