This is not a chapter but kind of a birthday vent

It's my birthday... yay.... today I was around people a lot and it sometimes drains me and stresses me out. For sometime i don't mind but when it is for an entire day it sucks.

I don't want to sound ungrateful or anything. I'm a person who isn't that social so this is why I'm bothered.

Plus this whole day I couldn't stop thinking about a certain someone.

Someone who makes me insecure all over again without even trying...

I mean she is smarter than me without even trying and I'm working soo hard while she always is lucky.

And I hate it.

I've always been insecure about myself and I can't talk about it with anyone

So this whole day I've been feeling insecure. I don't like it when people go all out for my birthday, i like it nice and simple but my mom needs to make it such a big deal.

Yesterday evening I cried myself to sleep because I didn't feel like it and felt insecure.

People that I know will probably read this but I don't care.

The whole reason why I write this vent in the first place is because I'm drained from all the socializing and stuff. I'm tired and I can't even go to sleep now.

I couldn't sleep last night because my insecurities and jealousy was eating me alive and yesterday family was coming over and I'm just emotionally trained from this week. I had a lot of stress and a lot of tests this week.

I have a new plan for a story, It's going to be a bakugou x reader though. I'm going to say 2 things about the story.

Games and university

I hate this feeling. The feeling you have that you feel like your living in someones shadow because they have the same intrest but they are better at all of it and you know it goddamn well.

Im going to update soon though

As soon as possible

I just need a break from reality...

I hope ya'll have a great evening :)